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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

funeral today. last time i’m going to see my dad ever and he’s going to be just a corpse full of chemicals

celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

i’m on bereavement now. i get three days, so i took off yesterday, today, and then this friday to prepare for the funeral saturday thank you 🩷

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

idk how i’m supposed to go to work tomorrow i’ve just been crying all day. it keeps hitting me over and over that he’s dead. like he’s gone forever. i’m never gonna see my dad again

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

my dad died on sunday and i’m really struggling

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

crying at work but at least my mom’s in my texts bragging about how skinny she is

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

and now i have to go to work and pretends things are normal

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

said goodbye to my dad, his birthday is friday, so if he’s still alive, we’ll be going back to celebrate this weekend

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

i was getting so frustrated and upset i just wanted to leave the house bc we had to drive an hour to my home town and i was genuinely so worried we’d be too late

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

asking me what purse she should use what shoes to wear which jeans i like i don’t fucking care !!!!!

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

it’s like yesterday when she told me he went to hospice, she was trying to show me tiktoks about these stupid horses she keeps tabs on like READ THE ROOM for once in your life

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

my mom saying “don’t i look good 😏” as we’re getting ready to say goodbye to my dying father

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

i should probably wake her but i’d honestly rather go alone i only know how to deal with “big emotions” alone and i feel like she’s expecting me to react a certain way. i think that’s why i’d rather just go and process by myself

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

my dad went on hospice yesterday i took the day off from work to drive up and say goodbye. my family back home told me he’s unresponsive and probably won’t make it to the weekend my mom was supposed to come with me but she worked last night and is asleep rn

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

at least my first time i was so drunk i don’t really remember much

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

and then thinking about my ex bf who coerced sex out of me multiple times and then a guy i thought was my friend until he raped me 🫩🫩 my very first time having sex too like damn dude

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

getting groped at rockville and knowing i just froze , we were so packed in there i couldn’t move, and i didn’t even tell my best friend who was right next to me i haven’t told anyone , ive only posted it here

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

tw rape and sexual assault , not graphic / just over and over videos related to stuff i’ve been thru like being coerced into sex and getting assaulted im trying to be chill mentally but my body is panicking 🫩🫩

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

my tiktok fyp has been a cruel bitch today

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

this is annoying me again he can stay up all night gaming with the boys but he comes to hang out with me and just falls asleep instantly 🙄

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

acting like i haven’t been saying this on the reg for like 15+ years

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

i think we are officially out of the “”honeymoon”” stage and idk i’m ready to break up. i say that all the time part of me is scared to break up tho bc of how shitty most men are

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

i miss when my bf used to take care of me when i was sick, been sick all day today and he’s gonna game with the boys 🫩

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

probs gonna end it after that tho

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

super depressed and feeling very detached from my bf ready to end my shit but i got a festival and a big concert to stick around for

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

all my bf does lately is come over and sleep , idk why it’s starting to annoy me

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 25/06/2026

crying in my car for an extra layer of ugly for the day

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 25/06/2026

i washed my hair last night and it turned out so ugly so now i’m just spiraling

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 25/06/2026

forever hating myself i could have been so small if i kept going at my lw but instead i binged my way back to my highest weight ever ive already lost all this weight before

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 24/06/2026

it’s soooo nice i love being able to just walk in front of my tv in the ac 😭😭

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 24/06/2026

it works lol i lowk got a junk one. $105, there are cheaper ones but a support bar was a must for me because i have no balance (actually lost my balance and had to jump off today 😭) the speeds are different than the speeds on a normal treadmill. it’s a lot slower

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 24/06/2026

having a walking pad is nice when i feel too bloated and disgusting to exist in public

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 21/06/2026

any time someone mentions my dad, it feels like a punch in the gut

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 15/06/2026

most days i wish id be born something else like a bird or a vine or something that lives and dies without even know it was alive

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 15/06/2026

can’t have a bad day without Mother making it worse

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 13/06/2026

she’s gotten so insufferable since losing weight . i mean i get it but even when i was her size i was never so annoying about it

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 13/06/2026

she asked me to describe her body (because “she has dysmorphia from being overweight/obese her entire life and can’t think of herself as thin”) i just said she was thin because ik that’s what she wanted to hear

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 13/06/2026

i should keep a record of my mom flashing me because it’s really become a daily occurrence. maybe it has been for a while but i’m more sensitive to it she came into the living room from her bedroom to change in front of me. why

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 12/06/2026

was thinkin about dinner but my mom said something insanely triggering so i think im just gonna get on the walking pad for a while

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

she hasn’t stopped talking for over two hours and i’m at my wits end

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

show her cutesy matchy matchy bra and panties like STOP just fucking STOP

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

mom made me go with er after i got out of work (nothings wrong with her, she didn’t want to go to work) and then we get home hours later and she’s all like “how do i look?” and then asks me to come into her room so she can flash me

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 07/06/2026

i don’t wanna look at your bras please go away

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 06/06/2026

i know 💔 it was my birthday this week so i’ve just been eating so much junk and i feel terrible. and today has been stressful

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 06/06/2026

my mom vs calling attention to her body, making me touch her, making me look at her, needing me to pay attention to her and her body always always always always always

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celeste ✨ @adversere.bsky.social · 06/06/2026

sorry i haven’t been on here much. just trying to survive

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