Ace
@aceofhorrors.bsky.social
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Howdy hey, just a tired artist tryin to vibe- Enjoy my profile, always willing to talk or do art trades lol
Howdy hey, just a tired artist tryin to vibe- Enjoy my profile, always willing to talk or do art trades lol
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i have been paying for my own things since 16. i did not start getting medical help until 16, because my mother wanted to show up my other family members. i was hospitalized in highschool and was gone so often due to episodes they tried to prevent me from graduating, despite my grades looking good.
my household is not wealthy, we are on stamps. i sleep in a garage they use to store things that occasionally floods. my mother goes through cold phases with me. she does house me and help me somewhat, but most times shes cold towards me and urging me to leave or enter school full time (which would lead to me leaving). i live with 3 other siblings and all expect the youngest (13) mostly maintain the house. cooking / cleaning while they are in school. if not we are woken up to maintain the house. if we do not cook we do not eat. we do not talk to outside family really.
i often skip dinner due to being exhausted from doing art work / helping with animals, simply not being told about food, dinner being consumed without me/eaten before I can even make a plate, texture reasons [not often though], or it just being. inedible.
there are more various issues, but often i take the brunt of verbal abuse when something goes wrong. i am constantly criticized for struggling with issues, and when i do succeed, i am still criticized and shamed. this leads to constant suicidal episodes.
recently i broke down due to my mother demanding i get a job or ill never fix myself and be normal, her telling me it isnt her fault that she backed out the day of an job interview despite me asking and confirming in advance, and nobody being able to drive me (i am unable to drive due to extreme naseous + anxiety/paranoia.) i broke down and confessed i have an active plan for suicide and left to wander outside for an hour in the cold. when i returned, she simply stated annoyed next time I threatened myself she-](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:i2oy2elkyql43gnnmof7okyj/bafkreibaatciikut5hcjfsyjkfccs3anwl2e2lwh66dzet6ybnkchbboau)
