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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

59.9!!! We're out of the 60s!! 🥳🥳

Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

I think I'm gonna do it...not binge, but go over my actual limit...I have a bunch of excuses why it's okay but still 🥴 at least then more of that stuff will be gone...ha...

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

I wanna binge so bad 🥴 it's just pure want at this point too since I ate earlier & am at 1054kcal, which absolutely should be it, but I can't stop thinking about just saying f it today 🫠 We can't lose track of our goals though...a bit of food isn't worth it...just gotta get my brain to stfu

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

60.7! We're almost out of the 60s again! 🥳 And muscle went up too! 🥳🥳

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 08/08/2026

Jesus fucking Christ somebody please get me to stop thinking about this man! 😭😭 and the smiling! Ffs whyyy what isss this, he isn't even my type really 😭😭 make it stop (unless he's actually interested of course then it's fine maybe 😂) I am so looking forward to but also dreading October 🥲🥴

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 08/08/2026

I can't wait til I've lost all the weight, moved to Dresden and fallen in love... manifesting it like crazy lol She's gonna be the most amazing woman too, I can see it already (pls pls pls let it be a woman omg) 🙏😅

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

Gotta love slicing up a second jalapeno because it's not hot at all, feeling disappointed that the food isn't really spicy, but then touching your eye later & finally feeling the spice 🙃🥲

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

How do I get rid of the fluttery stomach flipping butterflies? 🥴 It's gotten better since he's left since I'm not confronted with him anymore, but I still can't fully get rid of it & it needs to be gone by my bday since my mom invited him & he said yes 😭 pls help, I have 2 months 🥲

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 02/08/2026

He had no fucking clue & I decided fuck it & said something & omg the poor guy I should have kept my mouth shut 🤦‍♀️😅 I was so worried about things being awkward that I made them awkward

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 31/07/2026

Ngl I think it's about time I start dating again. Been a hot minute & I think I'm done lying to myself about how much I like being alone 😅 Problem is idk if I'm ready to take pics for any apps 🥴

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 31/07/2026

I'm gonna lock tf in so hard when I get back home I swear lol I've already been doing pretty good while at my mom's (besides drinking) & the dumbass bullshit w/ Jan (dumb as in he doesn't like me like that at all & I'm being/feeling dumb) has honestly helped Already dropped down 2 sizes too so 🥳

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

Stayed up talking until ~5am again...but at least this time we finally cleared up the fact that we're both shy af w/ each other (esp. after we've sobered up) & also that we don't hate each other or think negatively lol Our goal now is to talk to each other sober lol our main keyword is Rhe@ R!pley 😂

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 28/07/2026

I need to fucking weigh myself again finally tomorrow/today. It's been bothering me so freaking much not knowing, I can't anymore

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 28/07/2026

Can I just be skinny, hot, and loved please?

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 28/07/2026

Also why the fuck have I been flirting with him And according to my mom, he back? At least a couple nights....idk man. It might just be the alc....he's cute & he smells good, & I love validation so that might just be it...I wish I could turn it off tho cause I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me at all

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 28/07/2026

I've been drinking so much since I've been at my mom's holy shit. It's been a weird time...and drunkenly my mom's bfs son & I decided to stay another week 🥴 it's possible I/we drunkenly flirted & now things are very weird imo & wtf 😅 At least I've been good about not eating a lot

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

I really don't wanna go tmrw 🥲 I haven't had enough time to really regulate myself & just talking to my mom on the phone for a bit already got me annoyed af. I'm not currently equipped to deal w/ her & all those ppl well 🥲 At least there's gonna be drinks & I'm bringing my sw2 but ugh

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

Also really wanna open one of my drinks, but I'm at 21.5hrs on my fast so the thought of "I just need to hit 24hrs first though" won't shut up 🙃 Like I wanna do a cheat day anyways so this shouldn't matter, pls just let me already 😭😅

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

Thinking I might let myself just have a lil cheat day today. I did already hit 10k steps from all the pacing & then the walk home & I'm sure my meltdown burned a few cals as well lol so idk, fuck it maybe. Hopefully it can help the weight drop again after being on track again tmrw too idk

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

Had a meltdown at the doctor's, as honestly kinda expected. Social worker was surprised though, she "didn't realize it would be that bad for you" like bitch I've been saying it for a while now if you'd fucking listen & believe me 🙃 sorry, I don't like her lol anyway I got drinks lol

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

Man fuck periods, wtf is this 😭 bitch isn't even here yet, I was under my limit yesterday, got a bunch of steps in, so whyyy

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

Therapy went really well today & the weather is this beautiful overcast, rainy, slightly chilly weather 😌 We talked about the autism thing a lot (she really didn't wanna let it go) & she thinks it's definitely very possible that I have it & wants to bring it up in team 🥲

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 19/07/2026

Actually did my workout! Didn't think I would tbh because of how tired & meh I've been, but since I've successfully made my t1kt0k super triggering, I managed to trigger myself into moving more lol Annd my 24hr fast should be done right as I get home from therapy tomorrow so 🤙

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 19/07/2026

Successfully scored myself some safe foods for the barbecue Friday! 🥳 Mom & I are making low carb, sugar free cheesecake brownies & she's gonna get some veggies now too for a veggie platter! 🥳

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 19/07/2026

Finally managed to pick up & dust a bit around here though so at least there's that. Definitely still need to vacuum and mop before I leave Thursday...just have to remind myself that cleaning burns calories

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 19/07/2026

I miss my lw so bad...it generally makes me so pissed off at myself thinking about it though, like I was soo freaking close to my gw wtf whyyy 😭 We WILL get there again though istg

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 19/07/2026

Ah the struggle of not wanting to waste food but also not wanting to eat food 🙃 Like I have a couple things I really need to eat before they go bad, but alsoo...no 😅 lol

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 19/07/2026

62.9! 🥳 It's auch a tiny amount but at least it's slowly going down. I will get out of the 60s soon. Let's see how long we can go today...good/bad thing is I'm already getting my cramps pretty bad & am bloated, so hopefully I get my 🩸 early 🤞

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

Made the right call w/ deciding to drink instead of eat today. It's supposed to be freaking hot again, the temp in the apartment has gone up, and my ass is cold & wanting to curl up under my blanket lmao 🤙

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

I am really really not doing okay rn 🙃 but that's fine cuz I got a bottle of wine, am about to buy st@rdew again for my sw2 & I'm just gonna try to be somewhere that doesn't suck. It's either that or slit my fing throat, but y'know that's not reallly an option or smth I reallly want soo sdv it is!

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

What if I just drank my calories today? 🤔 Do we reeeealllllllly need food? 😅 Cause I really want a drink but goddamn

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

I have an appointment w/ one of my social workers in about 2 1/2 hrs & there's just so much dread. I don't like her & she's just annoying & difficult af. I constantly have to be a duck & just breathe & let it all roll off my back....& I do not feel like dealing w/ her today 🙃 or any day really...

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

Guys if any of y'all use s4msvng health make sure to double check that "use AI for training and modelling" off. They are literally gonna steal your medical and health info to train a robot, not that they probably haven't already tbh, but make sure to not consent/disable that

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

Finally got my fatass to do a workout again! 🥳 Also made plans to visit my mom next weekend for her bfs bday & I guess we're going to an event on Saturday as well? So I'm seeing a lot of 24hr fasts on the horizon...I have to have lost some weight compared to when she last saw me

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

I am so dumb lol reminder to maybe start our day & drink our coffee before posting 😂 I mixed my numbers up & thought I was 69.3 & got really excited & confused when I saw 63.3 on the scale lol but uh, yeah I was 63.9 😅 either way the scale went down finally though so yay! Just 600g not 6kg lmao

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

Thinking about chugging a bunch of water with chia seeds cause I've had so little fiber today, but then I'd be >1000kcal soo I can't...I realllly need the fiber though, your girl hasn't gone in days again 🥴

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

I'm about to go fucking feral omg Opened up the peanut butter and the Sriracha and istg 🤤

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

Got a beautiful watermelon clear whey & some h0nk@i st@r rail to tide me over til dinner, so we'll be fine (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

Took a nap which was good, but now I'm awake & unsurprisingly still hungry 😅 why can't a nap be food, that'd be so awesome

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

Ugh, I'm way too excited about my planned meal today...it's only 11am but my hungry ass can't stop thinking about it, but it's way too freaking early to eat 😩 I just wanna play some z3nless & catch up on the story, but all I can think about is spicy peanut udon noodles 🫠

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

G'morning moots, we're getting that water in today 💪 no excuses. You think you're thirsty? Chug some water. You think about water? That's right, chug some water. I will be a hydrated bitch today, not a dehydrated one 🙂‍↕️

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

So therapy went fine. I managed to bring it up, cried a lot, was very nervous, but it was fine! She thanked me for bringing it up & wants to continue the topic, and also look into getting me tested so yay i think? 😅

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

I'm so incredibly fing nervous about therapy. Like I love my therapist, she's great & I know that whatever I decide to bring to our session she's gonna be super nice about, but I'm still terrified about asking & just opening up really. Also embarrassed for even thinking maybe y'know? 😅🥴

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

Been debating bringing up the topic of autism to my therapist for awhile now & I think I'm gonna do it today? I even wrote down a page of notes about stimming to bring w/ me, specifically my main stims I'm aware of. I'm worried that's not okay tho & she'll be annoyed at me, so idk if I should 🥺

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 11/07/2026

I think I've lost my Pl@net Z0o fixation already & now idk what to do w/ myself 🙃 I've just been standing here trying to see if anything besides sdv (specifically for the switch) lights a spark in my brain 😮‍💨

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 10/07/2026

Okay we did it, we're out of bed & dressed! Sadly my most comfortable pants are also my most noisy pants, so I'm gonna take my noise cancelling headphones w/ me in case I need them since my cup is already kinda full rn & we don't need a public breakdown 😅 I got this, I can do this, it's not that bad

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 10/07/2026

Jesus fucking Christ I hate being afab. Why does my body think we should tear up bc I liked the cozy ASMR slime videos but felt guilty about wasting my time laying down watching them instead of moving & doing what I actually need to?! 🥲 istg I only get 1 good week a month where I'm not going crazy

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Sev ♡ @30goingon45.bsky.social · 10/07/2026

Welp I guess we're rotting in bed & scrolling tiktok instead of just y'know, going grocery shopping real quick & then gaming again. Cause this is soo much better 😅 get your fat ass up already omfg (me to me, not you)

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