Trust me, ignore this thread if you are triggered by mental illness, darkness, and some violence. This is for me and anyone who ignores this warning. Sometimes you just have to say things out loud even if nobody listens. In this case a good plan.
#mentalhealth #veteran #struggle #burden Does everyone have a darkness, a shadow of murderous capability or is that just me? You can see reflection of yourself in it. You carry the weight of knowing that, given the right situation it may escape control and potentially unleash the monster. The walls are only so thick.
#monster #exhaustion Over the years I built walls to protect friends and family from even seeing the void within. Imagine a blackhole that could be weaponized. You fear it took parts of your self, but can never know. You live in a state of constant vigilence, so tired. The hollow is always there.
#walls #hollow #danger