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[CLOSED] @ziad.ftp.sh · 02/08/2026

DO NOT SEXUALIZE FICTIONAL MINORS.

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[CLOSED] @ziad.ftp.sh · 01/08/2026

happy 1st anniversary i will not return

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[CLOSED] @ziad.ftp.sh · 03/08/2025

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Greetings.

I am shaking and feeling numb as I write this, so I apologize for any
misspellings.

From my burst of posts, I am extremely unwell mentally, because I have lost my first two mutuals, whom I had for more than 10 years.
For many months, I kept having moments of loneliness and skeptism because I felt like none of my mutuals consider me as, well, a mutual. My mind boggled, so I had to post my feelings. I couldn't stay quiet. I felt for so long that my mutuals are hypocrites. I never understood why they kept ignoring me.

I never felt just plain "anger." I was beyond anxious and depressed.
What do you mean my mutuals that I've had for so long are ghosting me?
If you're going to ask me if I talked to one of them on the matter, I did. ut, apparently, they thought I "hurt" them, when this was never the case. I was only concerned, and I wanted the situation to end.

If this is the reason why I will be cancelled in the future, so be it.
if this is what makes you all happy, so be it.
I'm done. it's over. everything is now better without me.

There will be no more art from me.. I won't up date my bots anymore. There will be even less posts on my Tumblr blog.

Thank you all for the journeys. I had plenty of great moments and I won't forget them.

Farewell.

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If you ever think I'm mean and an asshole because I think that a lot of my mutuals are ignoring me, then you should do the right thing and remind me that you're still here, instead of straight up fucking me up even more.

Free Palestine, and do not sexualize fictional minors.

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this is the most hurt I've felt in years. My body is numb. My heart is beating like hell. It's 9 AM and I haven't slept. I can't think properly. Everything around me feels fake.

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expecting one of them to make a public exposed thread about me or something and that's when it all ends. :)

one of them is stalking me roflmao epic yeezys just know that you really hurt me.

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what's even worse is that one of them decided to call me a "follower" in a post as if that's what I was ever since I met them. why? because i responsed to one of their posts about an odd joke towards a fictional minor and stating to them that it's a fictional minor.

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i'll tell you all this for the unaware: my internet personality began with me having two of my first mutuals. we were all young and had shared interests. they started to consider me less of a mutual since a while ago, without providing any reason. today they finally unfollowed me, in the same hour.

omfg hes posting a whole wall. i don't even remember why i had him in my life. what a shithead

03sys is dead and you killed him

this is the end of me. My internet personality for 13 whole fucking years

bro Ziad is so dramatic..maybe I'll unfollow this asshole

this is inhumane behavior. this is brutal.

this is. A living nightmare. A true one

how did I get a mutual removal speed run in only an hour. Fucking two of them.

no way no way no. Way. Please. It must be..I get nightmares all the time.

it must be a dream. maybevi just slept earlier or something.

I'm shaking for a whole fucking hour

end it. Please when it will end

i can't have a peaceful sleep after this haha

motherfuckers would've read this thread earlier

free mental breakdown deluxe

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FUCKING STOP THIS. STOP. YOU'RE ALL NOT MAKING THIS ANY BETTER

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it's fUCKING almost 8 am i haven't slept and I:m experiencing this

YEAH YOU? YOU WANNA LOSE THE MUTUAL? I'M OFFERING MUTUAL REMOVAL FOR FREE OF COST

I LOST ANOTHER MUTUAL 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

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roflmao 2 more people unfollowed me

i fucking hate myself so much. why being myself is the most huge mistake i had?

unfollowing all of you soon xoxo

hell she never interacted with my actual posts since i fucking joined this shithole of a platform.

"IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S A JOKE" "IT'S

I have lost all hope. The concept of mutual is fake.

Why did I fucking botherrrrrrrrrrrr staying with her as my mutual. I was young as shit and they were being too mean to me.

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I'm fucking losing it. No final message. No nothing. Just a nice little unfollow from yourself. Very nice and totally respectful.

I'LL KEEP SAYING THIS UNTIL THE DAY I FUCKING DIE.

DO NOT SEXUALIZE FICTIONAL MINORS.

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YEAH FUCKING RIGHT I'M A "FOLLOWER" TO YOU NOW. WELL GUESS FUCKING WHAT. YOU'RE NON-EXISTING TO ME NOW.

FUCK ALL OF YOU. FUCK ALL OF YOU TRYING TO BE HYPOCRITES. I FUCKING APPRECIATED YOU ALL FOR AGES AND THEN YOU ALL WENT TO SHIT. WHY BOTHER BEING FRIENDS WITH ME WHEN YOU DAMN KNOW WELL THAT YOU WILL TREAT ME LIKE SHIT LATER. I HOPE YOU'RE ALL FUCKING HAPPY.

WHY DO I KEEP BEING TREATED LIKE THIS? GHOSTED SHIT TON OF FUCKING TIMES? AND FOR WHAT, BEING A HUMAN AND TRYING TO CORRECT THINGS?

I WAS ONLY TRYING TO MAKE A FUCKING POINT.

There is fucking nothing wrong I did. This is bullshit. After a fucking decade, this is the last interaction?

Is this how I got treated? After making a point? Is this how it went?