iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

I have been telling you there is a world outside of your experience, a world that I AM experiencing. If all you guys want to do is hold on to your world as the only truth and tell me to shut up, all I will do is simply redraw my magic from your world, doors shut. You do you I do me.

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You guys are actually slaughtering me right here right now, just because I am not playing by your rules. You guys excused yourself yet tells me to stop. I practice shamanism, just like the indigenous people, and you all threw it aside and tell me be 'real'.

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I link that song because that is exactly how I feel in this moment. I am the one being discriminated here, not allowed to say my story from my point of view even once because none of you actually wanted my story, all you wanted was for me to give in and say 'yes the game is ass and should die'.

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Are you actually asking for my personal story behind why I said that or do you just want to protect your stand by saying my point of view isn't in line with you?

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We are on two different topic in the very first place dude. You were dead hung up on the wizard game while I was focused only on 'don't go around giving someone YOUR burden in name of ‘sharing/ warning’ when this burden wasn’t even theirs to begin with.

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Pocahontas - Colors of the Wind (Blu-ray 1080p HD)

If you are actually interested in understanding how things work in quantum physics way and in spiritual way, I am help to try explain it to you; but right now all I see is you being angry and wishing to reject it all before trying to understand it, so I have nothing to say to you.

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I understand everything you said as my human version; but that's also why I tried to explain in spiritual sense on how you could free yourself from that and stop the attacks (because karma is supposed to fall but you guys are all in caught up in there, you will get judged together 😭😭)

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proof why with spiritually. (Well, at the end of the day, my vegetable story still stands right? The thing we were fighting was all made up enemy 😂)

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Hm...... Noted and understood. From my point of view, my stand was 'it is unfair to think you can just give someone your burden in name of ‘sharing/ warning’ when this burden wasn’t even theirs to begin with because you can't be responsible for the life they want to live' and have been trying to

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so my single braincell reaction was ‘I got this, I can explain it all’.

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Well before ppl tried to attack me, I did a self-reflection post on why I decide to say that based on my spiritual belief, with video linked and all; then the attacks came in. So I was like ‘what, did they watch the video and got triggered by the view point I was looking at this thing?’

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Yes I know, and thank you for reaching out despite feeling hurt. I sorry that it hurt you, really wasn't meaning to, and I will learn to do better. Expressing in words is hard for me (that's why I draw), wish I could just send my thoughts and emotions over instead of rewriting my sentences 6 times.

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but the masses still don't understand it even til today so... mysterious and cult-liked indeed!

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I know, and thank you for worrying. Honestly it is no different from 6 philosophers having different beliefs, seeing the world in 6 different ways and all live their life differently? The spiritualism I do is actually shamanism and had long histories in various cultures in the world...

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But honestly, I don't really care if people take it the wrong way because life has taught me people who doesn't care about me will indeed take anything I do the wrong way. (With so much evidence.) Well if anyone actually decides to stay and ask to hear my story, I am thankful. So, thank you!

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Tbh I have been trying to say it in the most neutral way possible, I have REALLY TRIED, but I was an introvert who kept everything to myself in the past (out of fear and cowardness) so this is actually my first time trying to voice myself. Harder than I thought.

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All judgement is self-based and self-servicing, regardless if it is in the eye of the abused, abuser, or a third party. The best I can do is not criticize and pray that everyone have a good life with the choice they make.

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Frankly, the human part of me totally agrees on the boycott, I do not like abusers being able to abuse anyone in anyway, and I do not want to see anyone hurt or get tortured; but the earth angel part of me is too rooted in the spiritual knowledge that I just CAN’T encourage the judgement.

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cancel me. I'm tired of that too. Like aren’t we all trying to make space for ourselves in this world? Can we stop robbing other people’s space just because they acted a little different from you? Have you tried to find out what hurt them in the past? This is real assault behaviors man.

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Yes everything you say is absolutely true and I agree. Is just, LOOK at everyone coming into my post thinking everything I say is against them when all I do was voice an opinion I had BASED on my past experience, thinking they are the ONLY right person in this situation and have every right to

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This is why I have been saying 'it really wasn't about the A and B you thought, I'm that C D E F G', I am just DEAD TIRED of drama, tired of getting gaslighted into consistently having to be someone for someone else, tired that I can't just BE MYSELF or even voice without judgement from a nobody.

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got better, and I actually sacrificed myself and my time to stay with them at where they are. Yes the fight has meanings and it still do, yes there will be a new victim every single day, yes this yes that; But I can't lie to myself that has become a limitation and I am now bigger than this pond.

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Truth is I USED to take sides. I thought that by taking sides things could be better for the people I cared about, that they could BE happier as days go with my support; but my experiences from this was it only enabled in their ego that they continue to do the EXACT SAME THING for years, thing never

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If you still see a monster in me, I think it is best we just stop it all, for it is the best interest of everyone to live in where they are comfortable with, a place that fulfils every of your expectation and requirement.

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I said you can do you and live a good life and wished you a good day when you go your way.

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Because I was once that tomato, but now the eggplant who think there should be an opinion to not go war. You are free to battle, I'm simply saying why I don't that's a great choice, but did I once stop you from going to war? Never.

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I am not defeating the franchise, I am defeating the tomato and strawberry who feel like they have to join the side simply out of fear, who feel that they simply cannot choose to do something with a free mind because the weight of taking sides is placed upon them.

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I understand not everyone shares with my view point, but there are SO MANY ways we can view this world. Can we at least stop pretending 'not supporting A means you are supporting B, how dare you?!', like really why can't I support C D E F G?

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Well it is now a trauma they have to heal within themselves for having hated it for the past 5 years. So tell me, is it more right for me to enable them to continue their war and let more people fall into that warring energy, or is it more right for me to simply try convey what I see?

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Red apple was everything but red, that green it hated was actually something within itself all this time; and green apples aren’t actually green either, that fear they hold only existed because they thought they were green and prided themselves to be green. And that very red that made them boil?

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In any case, it is time to war! And the war went on for 5 years straight, full of blood and tears, but also proudness that they were able to keep the red apple at bay. But you know, the last time I checked science, the color of something is every color except the color you see it as.

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was literally the last thing eggplant wanted and so it was a firm rejection. ‘What a meanie, eggplant only thinks of his life and not a green apple’s life!! In any case red apple have to stopped, their redness makes me boil!!’

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the evil red apple is turned to focus on them instead). Everything was smooth sailing until they met a eggplant, who only wanted a peaceful life on their part of yard, but this merry band of 5 fruities was totally disturbing him, trying EVERYTHING to get him on their side; which going to war

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With their new friend the merry duo went on in their journey for more help. Then they met tomato and strawberry, who are both not good with stress and social anxieties, managed to persuade them to join the cause easily (because it was more stressful to deal with their passionate anger against

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went to the green pears, because hey they are all green; which green pears are indeed feeling relatable to their issue because there are some discriminations going around for being green, and that felt awful. And so, they form alliance and self-help group so green can have better life on this farm.

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they are being threatened, decided that in order to protect themselves they have to bend together with more numbers. First, they went to see the yellow apple, told them their stories, and got a strong backup from them with no further persuasion needed. Next, green apple and yellow apple

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Here's my view point in a VERY simple point of view, and this point of view is based in 'everyone is you but pushed out', and how I see it is simply: Red apple saw that green apples existed and hated them, called the farmers in to try remove the green apples, lucky green apple found out that

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Sure sure, continue your attacks and have fun with it. Bullying a bully doesn't make you less of a bully, killing a murder too makes you a murderer. I am such a tall wall ppl thinks they need numbers to defeat me.

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but you decided to take it personally and think you now have a problem of the version of me you had in your mind, now it is your karma to live with. You do you, I'll let you live with it👍

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yes yes every thing you think is right, go on live with it. I did not say ANYTHING beyond the words I said, everything else is your interpretation of me, that is actually all you and none of me. I didn't force you to perceive me, you could have went not my circus, not my monkeys;

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why did you think I wasn't already touching grass lol. In any case don't keep me rent free in your brain, just release me, set yourself free.

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In case anyone is feeling: Yun you were not liked this, what happened?!?! Well I broke the silent oath and decided it's safe to spill beans, who ever dares to witch hunt should be shamed instead.

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change your script. You do indeed control what life you want to live, so please just take control ok, they are all cheering for you. If you think they aren't, well you still have me holding this space for you, telling you yes you can.

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you are pretty much god having an amnesia and playing human. Those 'higher power' in context of human are actually your colleagues, trying to help you write your human story that you can be proud of, with some ups and downs and a demon to slay. If you are unhappy, LITERALLY go tell them to

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People say they don't believe in higher power and nothing can control their life; well YEAH you are literally an eternal soul who is infinite years old (because past present future doesn't exist beyond 4D), took a fragment and placed it into this current human body at this time,

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Well you do you I do I and wish we both a great life ahead, good day and good bye.

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