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found someone to date. I don't feel like I understand the culture anymore, I never felt like I belonged back home to begin with, but when I went back to visit it was even worse. There's no place that feels like home. I feel like a stranger everywhere and I am treated like one as well

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Oh and the worst part? I have spent 6 years barely speaking my own language. I only talk to my mom and often can't find words. Even if I were to go back I can't imagine how hard it'd be. I find it awkward talking about romantic things in Russian. I can't imagine ever dating even if I magically

And I also like it. But those are 3 hours a week. Three hours when I'm not actively miserable. That's it I am so done

I want to not fight every single day. My gf rarely has weekends off. We get to go out together maybe once a month. I'm so lonely. All my friends are coupled up and have no time for me. I work and sleep and wake up and work and sleep and there's little else. I go to BJJ. I like it. I go to dance

And I hate that I can't just go back home. Why is life so unfair. I wish I were not lesbian, my life would have been so much easier. Sometimes I think I should just marry a man here. I don't care. I can get drunk when we have sex. I can dissosiate. I just want to belong. I want to feel loved.

I have no news from immigration. It's been a year. I thought I could get a passport here that would help me move around the world more easily but that doesn't seem likely anymore. My cat is constantly sick and I am not giving him the love he deserves. I am exhausted. I am lonely.

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I am so unhappy. Very few things bring me joy. And everything feels so hopeless. Our couple's therapist asked us to wait until January and to try. I don't think gf has enough energy left after work to put into this relationship. Or rather she puts as much as she can which is not enough for me.

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My iron is 16 and supplements don't help. I can't go to the doctor because the hospitals close before I finish work. My manager asked us to take less leave because we're understaffed. I am unsatisfied with my art. I looked at my old works and I feel like my skill went down. I stopped working out

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to have the relationship I crave. I barely see her and she expressed multiple times she wants this career and will not quit. I appreciate the honesty but idk how much longer I can do it. I have no community. I have no friends. I am so lonely and tired. I am also constantly hurting and tired.

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It is extremely hard to move with Belarusian passport. Nobody wants us. I am genuinely considering possibly marrying my friend in Spain to see if I can settle down there. I am tired of working 8 to 5 every day. I am exhausted. I love my gf but I am realizing her work is making it impossible

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Yana 💛 @yanadrawspics.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

I'm at this stage of my life where I either want to move across the ocean or kill myself I am dissatisfied with absolutely every aspect of my life rn. There is genuinely nothing I'm happy about. And I think my time in Japan is coming to it's end and I don't know how to move forward

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Yay thank you! Glad you like it

Yana 💛 @yanadrawspics.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Yaaay so glad you like it 💛

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Today I am thinking about fat butches 🤤🤤🤤

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Omg no way I had a croissant today too

Always a pleasure drawing your beautiful girls 💛

It really is. I've always thought I wanted to spend my life here. The past two years I'm not so sure...

Halloween YCH IS UP! $60 three body versions + 2 outfit choices (other addons for extra pay~) Will finish as many as I can before Halloween! Two spots at a time vgen.co/yanadrawspic... #ych #comms #halloweeen #ychopen

An example of a finished ych: a dark skinned elven woman in a bloodied maid outfit holding a knife

An unfinished ych showing a bigger bodytype version

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I'm OBSESSED with women who snort (? Is that the word???) when they laugh ITS SO CUTE I AM OBSESSED or women who have like a very...flat? Laugh Like it's so cute I can't

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Yes exactly!!! It's easy to consume them as an art form, or movies or anything except as real people... You can have gay drama advertised on the train but ask a random person if they know a gay person and they would say "no" Right...or maybe they just haven't told you 🫩

Yaaay I'm so glad you like it 💛💛

Yana 💛 @yanadrawspics.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Reposted by Yana 💛

They’re both supposed to have wings but shhh Sunny and Raven having some fun 💛🖤 #otherocs #wlw #lesbianart #nsfwart

Two fem women in bed. One is white, has orange hair with yellow ends, she is sort of on her side, eyes closed. The other woman has unnaturally grey skin, dark blue hair, and she is rubbing a strapon on the other girl’s pussy while praising her

Same but cropped to see their faces better

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Omg yes that also works thank you so much!!

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Another attack! This time on @canuckuma.bsky.social and @bunnimmortal.bsky.social Because I thought these two would look so good together 💛💛💛 —- @artfuck.bsky.social #nsfw #wlwart #artfuck2026 #afengage #artfuck #teamtug

Two women: one is green with black shoulder length hair and the other is pink with long ponytails and horns. Both has elf like ears. The pink woman is sucking on the green woman's nipple, as the green woman is pulling on her collar

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It seems like it is okay now! Idk what that was but this is how it showed before...

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Thank you so much! This is exactly what I was looking for

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Hey anyone knows if there's a way to block/mute hashtags? I keep getting amputee fetish art and I would prefer not to have it on my feed...

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Heey I might have finished an attack for your chara but your handle is broken so I can't post it 😭😭😭

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I believe they gave me more when I expressed it hurts...so that's something hahah tbh I can't blame them because it was my first time with anaesthetic and I had no idea..but I will definitely tell them next time But yeah, unfortunately women not being listened to in healthcare is very real

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Yeah...that was not the case for me 😭 I'm not sure? I don't think so. Thinking back on it they didn't even ask me if I was numb before starting lmao like I was, but there was no verbal confirmation

listens to me talk about my sim family for 25 minutes even tho she got absolutely no time for herself today after work since she's been taking care of me And I think how lucky I am

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Sometimes gf and I argue about dishes and such And cultural things...and other things And then she picks me up from my appointment, takes me to an organic store with a bunch of goodie and pays for everything I wanted, takes me home, feeds me, cuddles me until my pain goes away and then

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I cannot ever fathom figuring out a truck design so I can't wait to see what you come up with!

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Thank you! The painkillers are working now so I am currently pain free Yeah I wonder if they underestimated it. It started wearing off so soon too, 20 minutes after procedure or so...which seemed too fast? Idk...

Thank you! It took the painkillers a bit to kick in but when it did it KICKED IN I ended up napping because I got too drowsy but luckily after I woke up I was pain free!!!

It is still numb but it hurts so fucking much I am in my bed crying waiting for painkiller to kick in This is one of the most miserable experiences of my life

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All those articles talking about how tooth extraction is basically just a bit of pressure with some soreness LIED the numbing process hurt. Extraction made me feel like they were getting in my skull and they had to give me more numbing because it hurt.

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