iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

this clip is a bit old and i just noticed the kill was attributed to me which hurts even more...

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deadlock is always on the mind now since my partner (and his buddies) got scooped up by an esports team after playing in the recent night shift open and i want to get better so i can actually enjoy playing with my friends that are waaaay better than me

it's easy to forget that i'm allowed to make posts as a chronic lurker + i gain no satisfaction from posting or sharing my 2 cents with strangers or whatever like some of my friends BUT clogging up our general chat feels very bad so my deadlock posting goes here now :)

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 05/02/2026

the way this seven died is so graphic :(

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last thing I accomplished before everyone got bored of the server 😔

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 29/01/2026

someones gotta edit a bunch of krabs lines into my fave patron it is needed badly

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 29/01/2026

hidden king voice: beeee booo boooo bop me boy arghargharharharhar

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I'll never forgive them for not being there at my my first and only gallery showing, i was so proud of my work being included and they act like being remorseful and saying they didn't know it mattered to me is enough to quell my anger

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"we can't have everything we want in life, that's just how it is" it wasn't a mere want but thanks for trying to be supportive i guess?

its honestly so disheartening how relieved my parents seem about me giving up on this but it's expected with the lack of enthusiasm they've always had about my career ambitions

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 12/01/2026

i gave uppppp it's pointless trying to force this dream of having a pretty floor loom 🙃

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like i could settle for a table loom but i don't want to settle for something i never wanted, my original plan was to work my way up to a TC2 through residencies and whatever but covid fucked that plan up real bad

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 12/01/2026

tbh i shouldve taken a hint from the fact that a lot of my peers in college came from more privileged backgrounds or families of artisans... people like me don't get to do this stuff unless we really fight for it and i don't got that fight in me anymore

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 12/01/2026

if i fail to secure this deal of a lifetime on a floor loom + full tool bench im genuinely considering giving up on my dream of being weaver and doing a hard pivot to game dev because if i wait any longer im just wasting time waiting for something that was never meant to be

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 17/09/2025

woke up from a fugue state to find editing programs and this video on my desktop

Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 15/03/2025

when i close my eyes i can imagine the game clearly and even play it but its always a losing hand 😔

Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 15/03/2025

bought funny card game balatro as a lil treat on monday and have already racked up an embarassing amount of hours... this might easily rival cookie clicker one day....

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 01/03/2025

this damn dog learned that scratching me (and only me) is more effective than scratching the fridge to get my moms attention

A close up picture of a stereotypical crusty white dog's face. He is looking away from the camera off into the distance with sadness in his eyes due to mother not paying attention to him; even after attacking human #6.

and ofc that video is from someone of a certain demographic that made my childhood mental health struggles worse as a disruptive filipino kid... there's a damn good reason why my preference for therapists are poc and male...

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how could you ever be sure a breakthrough or conversation wont directly prompt a silly video or some random mental health psa or something? id personally never be fully comfortable

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saw a lowkey snarky video about "a patient not fulfilling basic self care tasks and obviously feeling awful as a result but not realizing it" from a supposed understanding mental health professional and it made me think about how fast id drop my own therapist if i found they made videos like that

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when i went to change my address on my id the guy even commented it's real boring here compared to toronto like bro please i didn't need to hear that it's already BAD living with my mom

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 07/01/2025

its been much worse than expected and i don't like it here 😭😭😭

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my current therapist was SO SO SO angry when i told him about this it was like he was thiiiis close to asking for her credentials to do something on my behalf lmao

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 07/01/2025

its been years at this point but im still reeling over the fact that a licenced therapist at a free CBT clinic actually told me to go ride on public transit for "exposure" for my agoraphobia... during the PEAK of the pandemic...

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 31/12/2024

at the very least i can take pictures of this anxiety riddled dog

A photo of a small white dog wearing pajamas curled up all cozy like on a blanket. His name is Toby and he is a sad little guy.

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 31/12/2024

the last several weeks have been unexpectedly turbulent and now I'm back living with my mom... next year will hopefully be better but having to live here indefinitely doesn't bode well for the mental 😔

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 08/11/2024

uh oh i think ive finally been bit by the tick that makes you like mobas

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 07/11/2024

i find it so wacky that blocks are public on here, if that shit existed on tumblr in like 2014 it wouldve been a disaster within the friend groups i had them lmao

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 21/09/2024

first 1.0 playthrough is from scratch and mostly done on my own with some help from my partner (to check my math) slowly working my way to the end of phase 4 right now 🫠

An in game screenshot from Satisfactory. Pictured is a factory with a large creature sitting by it.

An in game screenshot from Satisfactory. Pictured is a mercer sphere lacking it's usual covering.

An in game screenshot from Satisfactory. Pictured is a graph showing the power grid's usage. The graph is showing off a massive power spike.

An in game screenshot from Satisfactory. Pictured is a power slug in the foreground and a crashed ship in the distance.

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 21/09/2024

what the heck... bigger number not better 😑

A virtual certificate with text "Celebrating 10M users on Bluesky, #3,230,507, Rina ‪@xqueenrinax.bsky.social‬, joined on Feb 6, 2024"

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 21/09/2024

i have been consumed by the 1.0 release of satisfactory the last week or so and its wonderful

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 03/09/2024

one of the few good things about my family not being big on going to gatherings like most other filipinos is that I'll never have to feel old when kids go up to me asking for mano after their mom told them to respect all the titas 🥲

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 26/08/2024

mouse is doing the double clicking thing thats common with logitechs and i guess i gotta learn how to properly touch type so i can continue my CSD3 playthrough 😑

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Rina @xqueenrinax.bsky.social · 02/08/2024

checked out the credits and the song is uh.... i dont like it. plus i found out a certain creepy ass voice actor that was notorious for being weird at conventions voices one of the traders (thought he sounded familiar) and it really confirms some of my thoughts about certain design decisions

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been playing more 7 days to die and i have many thoughts that boil down to: this game sucks! the few things i enjoy about the game are enough to keep me playing for the next little bit but theres a stink to this release that didnt fully exist when i first played 4 years ago

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ngl after how the mod team handled that im once again hesitant to pass off the ownership for this cursed server

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i hope she eventually found the help she needed but it didnt have to go down like that 😔

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we thought we had the situation diffused then some transphobe came in and instigated further and we didnt ban em fast enough which made the person livid and they stopped listening to us and started fighting with people again- so she had to get banned too unfortunately

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some of our more active users arent the best at communicating and that made the person that did the mass mention go immediately on the defensive (which i find baffling.... you pinged a server with 1500 people just cause you cant doesnt mean it was ever acceptable)

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