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Dumb conclusion but I think sleeping has been my problem. Or maybe I’m sleeping too much and wasting time.

I’m just fucking having a melt down just looking at art. I can’t decide what to do that I feel sick and angry and crying.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 4h

I just idk what to do anymore it’s just being so envious that I feel like I’m going to explode.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 5h

I want to… but I’m so tired… I’m so tired of being me. Of dealing with my mind being split in two with ASD and ADHD. I’m tired of trying so hard only to not get any results. I just want the pain to stop. I want the envy to stop. I feel like I keep hoping, only to be stomped into the ground harder.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 5h

I don’t care to try anymore. I’m just never going to be anything. Everyone just lies, I know they do. I have proof they do. I knew it. I know my friends actually hate me because I’m like this. I can finally do it.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 6h

He will never amount to anything.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 15h

Something I sketched awhile ago I wanted to color it but with school idk if I have the time. I don't want to leave y'all with nothing so here it is.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 15h

Something I sketched awhile ago I wanted to color it but with school idk if I have the time. I don't want to leave y'all with nothing so here it is.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

No no I mean like I haven't tried making this bara yet. Most attempts (not shown) end up like it. Sorry for the confusion I could have worded it better.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

I think I struggle with making the muscles exaggerated in an appealing way? When I attempt they usually end up looking like inflated balloons instead of the subtle exaggeration I'm aiming for.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

Man these screenshots are hella bad.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

I was told to share this, I'm not sure how to achieve what I want with this piece. Mainly I feel like the muscles are very unappealing. I kinda want them to be more "bara" I guess?

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

I think it’s false now, I just lost the ability to learn.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

I mostly just compare my linework… it’s still awful compared to many, and my sketching process as well.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

Idk, I’d they’re exactly like me and can’t study. If probably say, “we’re both just too dumb for art I guess.” But knowing me I wouldn’t listen and just go off and hurt myself trying harder and harder even though it doesn’t work.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

I don’t believe it, not when I can see countless artists and their processes and realize how slow and unrefined I am. I’m inconsistent, and terrible at studying.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

All I do is get lucky enough to make everyone think I’m a good artist when I’m not.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

I can’t do anything right

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

It doesn’t get better. All that it is now is mustering the strength to just actually do some real damage that I can just pass away from.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

It never is better. I’ve tried to be optimistic but I just get shat on every time.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

Hopefully my family can sell my stuff and recoup the losses on raising a fucking miserable piece of shit

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

Dying is the only way I can right everything I’ve done

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

I ruin my friendships because I’m like this

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

I should have killed myself months ago

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

Yay… I’m so fucking dumb I’m behind on my shit, probably getting an F even if I try and rush it. I think I should just kill myself and get this shit over with. This is pointless…

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

I’ve been seeing a professional for about 4ish years give or take.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

Idk why, they should think I’m a bad artist.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

It’s kinda just knowing how much I suck compared to the people I look up to. I can’t enjoy the process because I want it to look good. But I don’t know how to make it look good. And people can just make my ideas but better so what’s the point of wasting ideas.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

Nvm I realize that I’m just a terrible artist… I keep needing to realize to just give up.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

Feel kinda 50/50 on it tbh. Like doing it could help me out of this rut possibly. But idk.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

Debating if it is even a wise idea for me to even attempt Hypnovember. I wouldn’t know how to make a list for the month.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Hard work is bullshit, nothing in this world actually garuntees you will get good at something. It’s all talent and luck, and it’s all bullshit. Nothing is worth doing or living for and dreams are bullshit.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

I can’t find it because nothing looks good to me.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

I think I’m just going to suck and give up… I just, I’m just too stupid to understand art fully. I only can grasp a sliver of it. I can’t draw anymore, because I just keep forgetting how to every week.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

I guess I never thought of it like that. I just don’t want to make something subpar and make people think I suck.

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WyvernWake @wyvernwake.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

I know that and it makes sense. My therapist says it’s possible that something from my autism and past is causing just. Severe stress whenever I make a mistake. I’m not sure how to deal with it, and my therapist seems a bit stumped as well.

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