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Wyskii @wyskii.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

I've reached out for professional help but I'm having a hard time caring for myself. The loss itself is devastating but I also feel disappointed, worthless, and betrayed. This combination of emotions has been really intense and I'm feeling doubtful about myself and my relationships.

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Wyskii @wyskii.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

I know I'm just yelling into the void right now, but I'm feeling more lonely than ever. I can't help but feel like there's no difference if I exist or not. Seeing everyone reach out to my partner instead of me, and our other cat cuddling with my partner more than me is making my grief worse.

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Wyskii @wyskii.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

I thought I did ok with developing some friendships and a support system, but now I can't help but feel like I am uncared for and unloved and that I'm just seen as a secondary attachment of my partner. These are people I would be reaching out personally to support if this situation was reversed.

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Wyskii @wyskii.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

I feel bad because maybe it's petty but this whole aftermath is reminding me why Haku was so important to me in the first place. I moved to a new country and felt lonely and suicidal leaving so much behind. And then covid hit about a year later. We found each other and he saved me.

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Wyskii @wyskii.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

Not to say this doesn't hurt each of us, but our cats made it very obvious they have a favorite parent. I understand maybe people just wanted to give me space for a couple of days, but I feel like by this point (a week later) I would have at least gotten a short personal message or check in.

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Wyskii @wyskii.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

Even though Haku was the first pet my partner and I adopted together, everyone knows that I had a special bond with Haku because my partner was already bonded with our other cat who's a little possessive about her haha

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Wyskii @wyskii.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

I haven't received any messages of love or condolences from any of the people I consider friends or family since Haku's passing, with the exception of my best friend. Most of these people have reached out to my partner but haven't checked in on me even though they have my number or discord.

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Wyskii @wyskii.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

Last week, I had to say goodbye unexpectedly to my baby boy Haku. It's been an emotionally exhausting and distressing time for me. After the initial shock and surrealness about everything, I've been starting to feel more and more lonely throughout my grieving process.

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