iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Local government dropping 4 mil on signage promoting separatism, but libraries are turning to crowdfunding just to stay open.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

I think my mental behaviour as an adult would have been better if I was not isolated mentally and physically from having friends in my youth, always having to justify my loneliness as me not being able to connect with others, yet I could count the time spent with others.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

Idk how to parse a lot of my emotions, so much tied to little dramas that I don't know what's right to verbalize, and were fantasy could be harming. Only after I've been harmed, did I realize that fantasy could lead to harm. But was that fantasy fault, or truly the fault of a person

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

Whooof my skin always gets so bad after shaving it

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

I wish drawing my emotions helped me more at recovering. I want to scream and shout but it leaves the same problems spinning. writing it helps, but does not capture it entirely. There's a dull thrumming that does not go away, and even in moment of peak ignorance, when the emotion return, i collapse

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

Hate it how much I miss the west coast, with stuff at home being annoying here, makes me wish I was there even more. My life is easy here, and easy is feeling like a trap, like doing nothing and how its easy.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

Just as I fall into a spiral of selfdoubt, signing my joy away to a task of which I believe I cannot do, I must do the same in using my imagination to get out of this pit. I must fake it to make it, but is it really fake when everything comes from my mind anyways.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

Paired with my anxiety and pain of my hand, its making me think that theres this imagined thing to keep me from drawing. Its frustrating cause i want to draw and i need to draw. My favourite pass time, and its been even preventing me from enjoying video games, nature, and other people.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

Progressively my memory is becoming a bigger concern of late, my doctors don't take seriously, and I should not worry about. Be remembering a yield of even 20 names is becoming a difficulty. Forgetting the names of close ones at times, not knowing simple words, does not help with my anxiety

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 21/08/2026

My nipples are ITCHY GOD DAMN

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

My hips surprise me sometimes, all I need is an ass...

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

Ropes, anchors, smell of diesel, salt in the air, mist on the skin. Waves, bells, creaks of boards, cry's of gulls, whistling breeze. Ropes & knots feel intertwined in my life, mixed with traumas and blessings, the ropes mimicking me life similarly. Yet I call them beautiful, I should for my life!

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

Getting nervous sweats at work cause I remembered an almost nervous break down I had when getting tickled. So fucking embarrassing seeing everyone's scared faces when I keep laughing then break down into crying. There was other things that made me cry, but it was scary for me to show it again.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

My mom called me today to update me on how she is going to directly miss gender me in front of my nephew as to not "confuse him" I'm going through other stuff rn in my life and she just wont shut up

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

Probably going to be posting less doomer shit and more porn stuff of my self.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 28/07/2026

Sick to my stomach and nearly vomiting, I am so pathetic over nothing :3

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sermora @sermoramora.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

chillin' on a weekend like usual @pillowdemon.bsky.social

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

I got new underwear that are cute, but I kinda wish they had a cute pattern on them. Cutesy stars and little moons, maybe cats snoozing. But another part wishes they where slightly embarrassing, but I really don't know what that could be.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 05/07/2026

This has really been rolling through my head of late. Longing and belonging where the two things I was so desperate for, and yet i believed never attainable. A constant ripping of regret of my inaction in my life, as I felt id never truly pursue the things in life that could make me actually happy

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 03/07/2026

You ever look back and realize tour art has always been shit. But you draw so little, so you improve so little. So much pain and worry over something that's always been bad, discouraging yourself over nothing, when all you should be doing is draw more.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 01/07/2026

I think I know why I don't let myself enjoy self fantasy, cause it hurts too much. I think my aversion to pain of reality has made escape from it more painful, as I would have to return to reality yet again. I do the same with all forms of fun.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 01/07/2026

My dreams have been miserable. They are either direct anxieties of mine, with no way of escape during them. Or pleasant dreams that make me miserable after the dream ends, as its stuff I'll never truly enjoy nor would line up in my life.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 01/07/2026

This makes them look heckin huge

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 25/06/2026

Breathing in dust, insulation, heat. Its not even 15c but inside the house I am working at its already 26c. This is hell I hate this job. Why cant it be my summer vacation yet

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 23/06/2026

I bet its pretty dope drinking from a baby bottle. Like its gotta have a nice balance of textural, while also having that same vacuum sensation from a straw.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 23/06/2026

God I had a really bad dream, it started out where I was a kid going through spy training, then it turned into a nightmare where I am covered in ticks, and now I am checking my body at 3 am for ticks

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 23/06/2026

I want my spine to sprout from my back

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 17/06/2026

So anxious at my stomach is getting tied up into a knot and my heart is non stop racing

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 17/06/2026

Its a beautiful rainy day, but a part of me wishes it was sunny, and I was not at work, sitting on a blanket at the park, swinging legs in the air laying on my belly, licking and biting a friend

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 13/06/2026

I, think I have a sexual attraction to my legs being bruised, more so than the rest of my body. Maybe its cause its the area I am most comfortable with bruises being there. Arms feel too normal, and on my torso they just turn yellow and green.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 12/06/2026

Need someone to make friendship bracelets, listening to music while talking about cute fetishes before sleeping on the couch together, drunk from alcohol taken from the cabinet.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

Some day ill have a better idea of who I am, without being in fear of abandonment. Consistency is a massive point of vulnerability for me, which is hard when my wants and desires fluctuate on a daily basis.

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Pillows @whisperpills.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

I always struggle with my identity as I am so fluctuating in my desires and wants, leaving pride month always contentious for me. Like I am not allowed to be a part of it do to my lack of solid identity. So instead I want it to be a celebration of my friends, and their acceptance of me

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