iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

i did in fact decide to do this

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8:45, infested, weak and swollen tired of tiring and wanting to want oppressive blue walls of the immutable past once a shade i cherished, but now a dour reminder sinking into the springs, i roll the boulder to the peak with waking breath i find that gravity takes its course

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an excerpt from poem 39 cycles of cycles, thoughts about thoughts, irreverence supporting the world on webs of paper ive beaten the dead horse to dust so im left to beat the live ones everythings an ineffective pill with side effects

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oh how joyful and sublime to leave ones likam dead behind out of the dark warm touch of flesh into the golden skies to climb

ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 17/07/2026

maybe ill post some of my lyrics and poetry here, idk

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i could have been anything else. any other primate. oh no, i had to be born one of these stinky ground apes. couldnt just be a gibbon or a bonobo or like even an orangutan. nope, had to be one of the sky polluting genocide apes

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

i remember id always joke that i was his maid, since i wasnt really paying rent, so the joke was that i was earning my keep by keeping the place clean. i even had a duster. gahh, im gonna get all teary-eyed thinking about this. so much has changed since then. i miss my friends

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

listening to music i used to listen to years ago in better times, feelin bittersweet. having good memories of when i lived with my friend; id always put it on while i cleaned when he was at work. i was a lot happier back then

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 11/07/2026

i hate having a body and sapience. honestly why cant i just be some kind of semi-animate spirit thing instead of a stinky ground ape

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 08/07/2026

i need a lady to call me a loser and tease me while fucking my face, and then hold me and comfort me

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 08/07/2026

honestly rate yourself looks: 3 creativity: 7.5 humor: depending on your taste, somewhere between 4 and 8 mental health: 2 empathy: 7 patience: 5 social skills: 4 memory: 5, tho honestly depends on what im trying to remember

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 03/07/2026

what i need rn is for a woman to call me silly in an authoratative voice

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 02/07/2026

gahh i wish some confident pretty lady would bully me into getting my life together

ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

so anxious that my body aches

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

update: my neck hurts. my back is doing good tho so whatever lmao

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

well it seems like i did not have any adverse consequences. my back feels better today than it did yesterday

ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

oh, my back still hurts from like 2 days ago? sounds like a great time for some self suck, im sure this will have no adverse consequences

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 19/05/2026

just came left handed for literally the first time ever. it was p good i may have pulled a muscle tying to actually reach climax but i got there in the end. idk how some of yall do it on a regular basis

ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 04/05/2026

lol i wish i could just google "how do i make myself care enough to try to improve literally at all ever even once even just a little bit" and something actually helpful would pop up

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 04/05/2026

not exactly ideal to post pics of my unwashed unshaven self at the height of a dysphoric meltdown to an audience larger than 0 if i get compliments, it feels fake or like theyre just into me *because* im not that fem if i dont, i feel repulsive and like nobody cares either way its shit

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 04/05/2026

im still alive just dont use this account much on account of the fact that ive not been doing great. the idea here was kinda to have a place to be flirty and show off, but ive been too busy hating and not taking care of myself

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 19/04/2026

i smell so good today!!!!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE this is an incredible boon to my mood, i smell like apples and cocoa shea

ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 13/04/2026

just came twice p much back to back this is p noteworthy for me tbh, usually it takes like at least a day before im recharged

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 10/04/2026

why is it so hard to keep inside thoughts inside i know im not supposed to be sad and weepy and pathetic openly. i know it ruins the mood and people dont like it i just wanna complain and rue and fret verbally so that i know that im not burdened alone in silence

ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 02/04/2026

its a "feel pathetic and petulantly whine about it" kind of day, im fraid until i get to be a sorceress with the ability to hurl fire and lightning or live in some horse riding lesbian transfem commune, im sorry to say its terminal

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 02/04/2026

i wanna have a partner i can constantly poke and pester that finds that endearing and like gets playfully fake fed up to use that as an excuse to feel me up in retaliation >.< gahhhhh i jus woke up btw

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i am absolutely gonna cringe later about how im being right now but im too tired at the moment to care i feel like being pestery and dont really know where to direct it so ig im directing it at no one in particular on here with posts like this is this too explain-y?? idk

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what if shit was good instead of bad and like all the stuff thats bad was actually good and we took all the bad things and made them good things and- thatd be pretty cool i think revolutionary idea, i know. what will i come up with next i am so tired

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why yes i am extremely unemployed and mentally ill how could you tell

im a simple girl i just need spaghetti, functional wifi, access to boopable horse snoots, and to be held by a pretty trans lady and told that its gonna be okay while i sob myself to 13 hour sleep at 1 pm on a thursday

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 26/03/2026

just came my brains out turns out all it takes is waiting 119 hours first, lubing the fuck up with spit and thinking about cute girls still a little lightheaded

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oh you speak french? thats so cool

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 16/03/2026

woke up from a very distressing dream to a massive migraine and stubble what a fucking terrible morning

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scarlet 🏳️‍⚧️ @stupidmachine.bsky.social · 15/03/2026

In a never ending battle with myself

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ashy 🔞 @webbyfountain.bsky.social · 13/03/2026

dunno, but i have seen some glitchiness on here today, so maybe