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@wanderinghil.bsky.social
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queer autistic poet. Chronic illness + memory loss, so please be patient. Currently writing about food and trauma. Always Dropout, ttrpgs, and audiodramas. (they/he)

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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 19/10/2025
I once told a minister who spoke on a subject dear to me "YOU ARE THE MOTHERFUCKING SUN" it was the kind of compliment that was very weird but was the best approximation of my feelings I could make. today, I found out she wrote that down and has carried it around since. SAY THE WEIRD THING.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 05/10/2025
Between CR Campaign 4 starting and Dropout's Adventuring Academy, my squish on Luis Carazo is so indulged this week. 😍
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 04/10/2025
I made it 3 hours and 11 minutes into the new Critical Role campaign before I was yelling GODDAMNIT BRENNAN LEE MULLIGAN, setting my phone down, and crying over an NPC we just met. 😭
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 22/09/2025
I am a Pile of Trembling Dogs because they fear the weather, and I am once again struck by a strange tender feeling about trying to comfort beings that I struggle with my own fear of.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 16/09/2025
I'm horrified by the statement that his murder was the most graphic and traumatic thing people had seen in recent memory, given how much of the footage out of Gaza has involved utterly destroyed children's bodies.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 15/09/2025
My friends who send me "things that failed to kill you so far" lists on my birthday have started early this year, and I feel very American right now. Cos "too broke to buy seizure meds" sits right next to "high hillbillies playing with guns in the house." 😅
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 14/09/2025
Of course, during our discussion segment, I brought up how "even when the truth isn't hopeful, the telling of it is" has been my rock for years, because I can't resist sneaking in Andrea Gibson at all times.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 14/09/2025
This morning's UU service involves a talk called "Hope is a Discipline" by Rachel Rogers and the words "This is how hope learns our names" Have been in my head all day now.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 12/09/2025
My favorite storytelling show filled me full of free wine, Benedictine sandwiches, marinated onions, and pumpkin bread. Hugged half the room, and now I shall sleep for a million years.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 12/09/2025
So tired of Blackburn. Just. So tired.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 10/09/2025
A few days ago, I spent several minutes at the grocery picking up a bagged salad and putting it back repeatedly before deciding I couldn't fit it in the $20 I was eating on for the week. Just got approved for SNAP and I am going to go buy that salad as soon as I get my card. 😭
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 09/09/2025
AS SOON AS I GET THE BOOK, I TELL YOU. I already have a whole doc of Wearing the Lion thoughts, which will eventually be a fan poem from Hera's perspective about the unwanted prayers. 😅
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 09/09/2025
Already calling: I'm going to need to write a fan poem from each head's perspective about their experience of the others.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 07/09/2025
Me at a spoken word event politely laughing several times while the man asking to take a selfie with me gets more and more confused by my behavior. 😭
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 06/09/2025
"If you can do X thing, you can also do Y thing." This is the most common statement I get about literally everything I struggle with, and it's exhausting. It does not work that way. Context and details matter so much.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 06/09/2025
Trying to write something for an online event after not writing much for a while, and thought I'd share. Link to my ko-fi because it's the only thing I have up right now for posting to. ko-fi.com/post/just-a-...
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just a lil quick poem
Hil published a post on Ko-fi
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 06/09/2025
Yes! We can't just wait for things to magically become better, we have to do what we can to support those in need where we are, when we are.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 06/09/2025
I get so frustrated by "why don't you leave?" because I have a bunch of very real barriers to leaving. But beyond that, I remember what it was like growing up in the South. And I can't imagine dooming whole generations of marginalized children to growing up with no one but those who hate them here.
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We Have Always Existed: Transgender History @transgenderhistory.bsky.social · 06/09/2025
Time is a flat circle
A queer protest from idk the 80s maybe? It's got a guy with a mustache holding up a life size cardboard coffin that says "we're here we're queer we hate the fucking president"
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 06/09/2025
Thoughts and prayers for my friends' dinner guest who accidentally mentioned my special interest (Dropout).
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 05/09/2025
This is awesome news! So happy for you!
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 04/09/2025
yes! It was super reassuring that she both offered to put them in and made sure I was aware of the risk. But just... Oof, also sad that it's necessary.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 04/09/2025
Conversation with a care manager today: basically "I can put your pronouns on your records, but we ARE where we are and do you want them there if the state pulls them?"
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 04/09/2025
Like the pain center gave me a chart to fill out for every body part with different symbols for different types of pain, but NONE of them were anything like how I experience pain. I also get told I'm not in pain often because I don't adjust things like how I walk in a normal way to relieve it.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 04/09/2025
oh, sorry if I wasn't clear, but I'm also autistic and relating to this in regards to struggling to describe my pain! It gets very weird to have chronic pain and seek treatment for it when you can't make sense of the usual questions like whether it throbs or burns.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 04/09/2025
My fibromyalgia feels like this, except each individual body part trying to throw up at once.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 03/09/2025
I'm staying with friends because of, ya know, homelessness. And every time I go from one room to another, the Inspectors come to question me about my intentions. At least I'm never lonely. (Third, less nosy dog not pictured.)
Two smallish dogs (some kind of terrier?) stand in a foyer looking at the photographer intently. The left one is gray/black and very scruffy, while the right one is black with white accents.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 03/09/2025
Just finished Compound Fracture by Andrew Joseph White, and the autistic MC struggling to shower even when covered in gore made me feel so seen. Showering makes me need a nap because it's so stressful. 😅
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SE Asian Games for Good @seagamesforgood.bsky.social · 02/09/2025
The Play for Peace: Games for Palestine charity bundle is now live! Nearly 400 games from creators all around the world, with proceeds going directly to Gaza relief efforts. Bundle link: itch.io/b/2979/play-... We made a launch trailer to celebrate this moment👇 Please RT.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 03/09/2025
I was responding to a post already about discomfort with the word, not running around personally attacking anyone using it. So I'm not sure where you're reading any of that.
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Kingfisher & Wombat @tkingfisher.com · 02/09/2025
I am calm. I am breathing deeply through my nose. I am counting to ten. I… WHAT, ARE YOU AFRAID YOUR DOG WILL INFODUMP TO YOU ABOUT THE FUCKING BALL?!?
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 03/09/2025
Much better than fast food or whatever, it's true!
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 03/09/2025
Indeed! I had hummus and crackers for breakfast too, so I've eaten food twice today, even!! I hope you get a good meal soon.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 03/09/2025
It's good food! If I were less poor and lazy, though, I would have used a proper curry recipe and had onion, garlic, and maybe coconut milk. Green lentils are cheaper than red ones here, but my autism likes the texture of red ones better!
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 02/09/2025
Red lentils and sweet potatoes are awesome together, especially with a bit of tomato sauce or paste and some curry seasoning. ☺️
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 02/09/2025
This is true! I could definitely do much worse for lazy food!
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 02/09/2025
I am once again eating sweet potatoes, lentils, and rice lazily cooked in one pot. Because I am poor and tired.
Close-up of a bowl of yellow-orange sweet potato, lentil, and rice stuff. A lemoncello LaCroix lurks in the background.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 02/09/2025
If you're not personally using it the way I described, then you're not one of the people contributing to my discomfort with it. I'm talking about a specific weaponizing I've experienced. It's been used to label me much the way "theyfab" has, by people judging only by my appearance and pronouns.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 02/09/2025
Damn, all the talk about Trump being alive (maybe) has turned him into the Grandfather bird from ACOFAF in my head. You know, the guy made up of all the worst parts of birds. Who is alive, not dead.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 02/09/2025
What makes me uncomfortable about it is that it's often used by people assuming the transition status and needs of strangers. If I already have access problems, I'm still affected by legislation that widens the already-present gap between my current situation and the medical treatment I need.
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Robert Reich @rbreich.bsky.social · 29/08/2025
The NRA buys off Congress. No action on guns. The oil industry buys off Congress. No action on climate. Insurance companies buy off Congress. No action on health care. The list goes on and on. Money in politics is the root of our dysfunction.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 29/08/2025
aldi has pineapple jalapeno hummus and it is amazing (and $2)
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Liz, a queen of sharks- @thesharkqueen.com · 27/08/2025
Handy chart for the liberals screaming at you for your “purity testing”
A chart showing the successive movement of the left to the right, and the right moving even further right.

“The Long-Term Effects of Voting for the Lesser Evil”
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 24/08/2025
a kindred spirit!!! I just don't feel any better at understanding their social cues than I do people! Wild ones are weirdly easier, because mostly what I need to know is if they're aggressive, but domesticated ones there's actually learning their signals for needs and stuff.
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 24/08/2025
I knew it! They're having catty little tea parties where they laugh at me behind my back!
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 24/08/2025
I sometimes think I must be the one autistic person on earth who is as awkward with animals as with people. I believe in equality, okay? All living beings equally set off my social anxiety. 🤷
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 23/08/2025
I'll learn this one day, really. Thanks for the reminder. ❤️
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hil @wanderinghil.bsky.social · 23/08/2025
It's fine not to want to continue a conversation on the Internet, obviously. But that dismissive attitude about the human rights issues of others is exactly what people are frustrated about.
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