iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

I will never get over the brief moments of contentment that always come and go when everything in my life has fallen apart and I don't have a foundation or future... it's WEIRDD. Maybe it's the fucking Zoloft

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I keep thinking that not being able to eat since I left the shelter is okay because I'm fat, but the brain fog, delirium, and muscle cramps say otherwise

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Stuck in a Wishing Well and it's not going Well

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Not exactly real confident about the whole making it thing after having a dream that someone choked me out

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Labor Day with no job is fun because I got to spend all day in a 100 degree trailer reading the book I checked out yesterday because the air conditioned Library was closed.

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Staring directly at the Sun and starting over

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I really need a real fresh start with actual help more than anything else right now, if anyone can give me an actual place to stay away from Stillwater, Oklahoma that'd be great.

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Didn't relapse or nothing, taking sertraline as prescribed, going to get the disability and government help stuff figured out due to the literal traumatic brain injuries I've suffered. If I have to stay in Oklahoma I'll make it.

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Sometimes to cope with irl failure I tell myself that I'm a psychedelic hypnosis shaman on the darkest period of my spiritual journey

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3rd time on my left wrist in the 2 months since I've been in Stillwater, Oklahoma. Just discharged from a mental health facility after my 30 day stay at the homeless shelter ran out. Back to sleeping at a trailer with no electricity. Only really feel safe at the library.

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I wish I could just get cozy and comfortable somehow

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How do I let go of any and all expectations?

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There's no foundation whatsoever for me to rebuild my life on

I'm so beyond unbelievably fucking sick of my useless homeless only one pair of clothes ass walking back to the library every day to try and pacify my worthless self I want to die on the side of the road

everything in my irl is devolving into unnavigable chaos

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Vuezley @vuezley.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

I've had a feeling of impending doom that I can't shake for over two months straight now

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A library employee just saw me looking at a picture of the apple from apple jacks kissing the Jamaican cinnamon stick

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I'm so happy that if I die in Stillwater, Oklahoma no one will know or care. I've got no affairs whatsoever. I get to die with nothing.

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I split my "system" into colored fractals and then it just became random hellaverse characters barking at eachother

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Selling myself for anyone who wants me

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My existence is proof that you can be homeless online without taking advantage of high empathy and begging other struggling poor people for money

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My 30 day homeless shelter stay is almost up lmfao

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Put me back together again I dare you

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Explaining my fursona change. I feel like a void cat that ate a radioactive bird and turned into one

Vuezley @vuezley.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

I'm starting to forget doing things... and it's like... not even a post-hypnotic amnesia sort of thing.

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an "aww" that's both a sad aww and a cuteness aww

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It's funny how I learned even darker hypnosis secrets right after I stopped being in an irl position to make content, lol

What is the deal with me falling in love with serial killer and genocidal cartoon villains when I am none of those things

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Removing the letter I from someone's name and replacing it with a 1 is what I like to call an ego death gamer move

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