Venefica
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I count the grains of sand on the beach and measure the sea; I understand the speech of the dumb and hear the voiceless. #iwtv #tvc #loustat #heatedrivalry #underthevolcano
![An excerpt from Anne Rice's Merrick in which Claudia writes of her rage at her parents and her violent intentions (slightly edited due to character limit):
Tonight, I confide with pen and paper because I know which direction my hatred will take me. And I fear for those who have aroused my wrath.
By those I mean, of course, my evil parents, my splendid fathers, those who have led me from a long forgotten mortality into this questionable state of timeless "bliss."
To do away with Louis would be foolish, as he is without question the more malleable of the pair.
Louis will do as I wish, even unto the very destruction of Lestat, which I plan in every detail. Whereas Lestat would never cooperate with my designs upon Louis. So there my loyalty lies, under the guise of love even in my own heart. ...
I look at Louis and I despise him totally for the making of me, and yet I do love him. But then I love Lestat every bit as well.
Perhaps in the court of my heart, I hold Louis far more accountable for my present state than ever I could blame my impulsive and simple Lestat. The fact is, one must die for this or the pain in me will never be sealed off, and immortality is but a monstrous measurement of what I shall suffer till the world revolves to its ultimate end. One must die so that the other will become ever more dependent upon me, ever more completely my slave. I would travel the world afterwards; I would have my way; I cannot endure either one of them unless that one becomes my servant in thought, word, and deed. ...
[It] gives me supreme delight to watch Lestat in his unguarded gaiety, knowing that I shall humiliate him utterly in destroying him, and in so doing bring down the lofty useless conscience of my Louis, so that his soul, if not his body, is the same size at last as my own](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:pctilztuln2ltepmqu266ydm/bafkreihc6odncejmpshmbrqkziwrfy7qi74wqw6lg3l7d43chkm3mjh3aq)
