iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

im never cutting my hair EVER again 😌 i want to get it really long like it was before. as you can see ive got a long time to wait

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

why tf did i cut this all off??? i fucking loved my hair. i mean yeah i look cute with short hair too but it just isnt me.

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

so this is me proclaiming to myself (and the world i guess lol) that i will make efforts to stop being influenced by others and to be true to myself. as cliche as that sounds haha

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

being queer is something so important to me and so intertwined with my spirit. i think for me being autistic amplifies this. my thoughts and feelings go against what society wants from me. but i will not be pushed any further. at some point i must put my foot down and stand firm in my queerness.

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

i dont even know my gender anymore. i dont know how i want to act or dress. ive gotten so mixed up. i want to find myself again.

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

nobody forced me of course, its just what i felt naturally inclined to do. i saw what other bears were doing and what was gaining them the most attention and validation.

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

you would think that realizing i was gay would make me more queer, not less. but i cut my long beautiful hair to be more appealing to local men, and it actually worked. i started putting on an act of a typical horny dude, and it worked. i was constantly being affirmed in my masculinity. but why?

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

before i felt so in touch with being queer and nonbinary. it felt right to me. but then i felt like i had to be more male presenting and acting in order to be accepted by other gays. its strange. my ex wife always made it a safe space for me to explore my queerness, even before i knew my sexuality

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

i dont know exactly why but when i entered into the bear community after separating with my wife a few years ago, a part of my queerness was left behind. maybe its because of the emphasis on masculinity in this community (which isnt necessarily a bad thing). but for me i just feel like i lost myself

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

still one of the most influential songs in kpop to me. to be this openly queer is so liberating. they transcend gender. im so happy they get to be their queer selves in such a homophobic atmosphere

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

i really want a dr pepper shake from whataburger rn 🥲

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

Dr pepper jelly beans? Love them. Dr pepper chapstick? Ive bought it several times. Im like Dr peppers biggest fan I love everything Dr pepper. But these are just not it ❌️

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

I thought i would like them cause again I love dr pepper but they were seriously a waste of money I had to force them down. Especially after eating a couple it gets overbearing

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

Its literally like the sour stuff that comes off of those. Its so fucking nasty on a chicken tender. They should've marketed these things as like sour patch kids tenders instead or something

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

If you were curious about those new dr pepper chicken tenders from slims let me help you out. DO NOT GET THEM. Theyre fucking gross. They dont even taste like Dr pepper (which I would know cause its my favorite drink) and they're weirdly sour?? You know those airheads rainbow sour strip things?

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

in fact as tame as i feel i am, most (str*ight) people would probably still see me as a perverted freak anyways just for being gay and being into fat hairy men

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

but im not one of those gays that thinks the queer community is "too sexual" let me be clear. do what you wanna do and be loud about it i dont mind haha

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

i just like jacking off (no lube) and blowjobs and anal is pretty cool. im not all that sexual of a person lol. something that was a culture shock when i first came out a few years ago and started interacting with other gays. people asking me about things i had never even thought about lol

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

idk why i even did this lmao im bored. clearly not into this stuff.

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

will probably delete this at some point lol i just jacked off with these undies on hehe

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

literally busting out of this underwear

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Oh but im not done with this game yet 😈 Heres my next goal, to get 5 stars on my trainer card. I already have 2 and the contest one and the underground one wont be too hard. Winning 100 battles in a row in the battle tower is gonna be the tough one

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

In total across all games it probably took me about 400 hours 😵‍💫 at some points I was multitasking and had 3 systems open playing three games at once just to minmax my time lol

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Some real tough ones were the kanto starters who you only get AFTER the post game in heartgold/soulsilver. And you only get to pick one 😭😭 so I had to beat the games 3 times. Catching a shit ton of legendaries was also hard and tedious

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I finally completed the national dex in platinum!! This seriously took so much work! I had to play through diamond, pearl, heartgold, soulsilver, and sapphire on the gba, just so I could get everyone i needed. Hours of grinding, transferring, and catching. Im so happy I did it!

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Thank you! Im hoping to finish it within the next few months

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Ive made sooo much progress though! 365 pokemon caught out of 493!

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Still progressing in completing the pokedex in platinum and it requires a TON of grinding to get everyone evolved. Im just fighting the pokemon league over and over and over again for experience. Ive now beaten the champion 45 times and i still have quite a bit left 😵‍💫

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

this was pretty hard but i decided to only pick games i played for the first time as a kid (meaning under 18 since i first played awakening when I was 16 lol)

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

And im not even just talking about jeffree star lmao I really knew someone like this

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Theres some link between narcissists and being obsessed with living on a farm in wyoming that has yet to be studied

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

I got a job today :) its temporary so it'll just be for a few months but now I'll have money! Finally I wont have to worry about what im gonna eat

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

But at least now we have the power to change our lives to be anything we want right?

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

We can do this! I truly believe that

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

Unfortunately I didnt realize I was gay until I was in my late 20s so for me, turning 30 feels like becoming a new adult for the first time as I finally get used to my new self. Thats why this feels more significant to me than when I turned 18

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

I grew up very sheltered. My dad was a cop (eww 🤢). For me, being a kid represented repression of my sexuality and freedom. While being an adult now represents my queer journey of learning who I am, what I want, and how i wanna express myself.

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

I love the freedom that comes with being an adult. Nothing is off limits. Even if i dont have the money to do what I want, I know that I at least have the possibility. When youre a kid you cant do anything and you have very little agency over your own life/body. It's terrifying to think about

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

I turn 30 in two months 🙊🙊 im so excited for some reason. When I was a kid I always wanted to be in my 30s. My parents told me not to wish to be older because I would miss being a kid again but honestly I dont. I mean sure I miss not having to work for my food and shelter but thats about it

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

ive had a couple interviews lately but nothing has stuck. potential job prospect on Monday so wish me luck! The recruiter at this staffing agency I go to said this is the worst job market shes ever seen. I guess i chose a bad time to be unemployed huh? anyways here's my big naked belly

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

i love sex with strangers as much as the next guy but my god can we try to be even remotely ethical here

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

can yall stop cruising in places where minors are currently present?? why am i seeing bitches sucking cock at blizzcon like bro just go back to your hotel room im begging

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

i love elden ring 😮‍💨

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

really feeling this right now

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valen @valen7326.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

i got a strawberry shake tonight so im happy :)

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