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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

I have discovered acrylic markers. I knew about them already, but was scared of color theory and all. Finally took the leap. I'm glad I did.

A painting of a tree. Done in acrylic markers. Leafs are red, orange, and yellow.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

I have overdone the branches yet again. Should fix that habit.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 03/02/2026

"As if true honesty belonged to solitude, since to be witnessed was to perform, and performance was inherently false since it invited expectation." By reading Malazan (06th book at the moment) I have glimpsed another truth. (As it turns out, you CAN find good philosophy in high fiction.)

Drawing of a tree. Made with a fine-liner pen.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 07/09/2025

Updating the "I am a person, not a bot" post. Will try doing this at least every 06 months, let's see how it goes.

Drawing of a tree. Made in black and white, with pen and ink.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 26/07/2025

Every so often I find myself being strangled by my own hands. Following arbitrary rules that don't mean anything and have no reason to exist whatsoever. It is liberating to realize, yet again, that I'm the owner of my own life and may do with it as I please.

Drawing of a tree made with black ink felt-tip pen.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 20/07/2025

Got myself hooked on a game now. For the moment, Oxygen Not Included is sucking all my free time and giving me back all that sweet sweet happiness juice. Thought I know it won't last, and 02-03 weeks from now I'll be hating it, I'm going to enjoy it while I can. "The sun shall rise again tomorrow"

A drawing of a tree, made using ink pen.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 30/05/2025

Funny how you are listening to some songs while drawing and just, BAM!!! A Dio's song you have never heard before?!?!?!???

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 22/05/2025

This piece is called "one-eyed quick sketch made while waiting for the doctor after having my pupil dilated" Also, I caved and bought more pens. (shame!) But, after having to do this trunk without a fine-liner, I don't regret it. Also also, I used hatching again. Not that bad if I might say it.

A drawing of a tree, made with black ink.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 11/05/2025

I have successfully stopped myself, yet again, from buying more fine-liner pens. It is like a moth to a flame. Whenever I see a pretty pen, specially if it has a fine point and it's black ink, my brain gets into monkey mode.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 03/04/2025

More and more I fear being my true self here. I'm not what is considered "normal" or "adequate". I live by imitating what others are, how they behave, how they talk, how they smile. I don't have that. Every day at work I must put up an act. Pretending to be normal, to be common. I HATE IT.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 28/02/2025

Thought about the caretaker some days ago. It made me sad. Thinking about all that it could've been. So I drew. It helped a little. Also, I have to stop always projecting light from the left. It is creating a bad habit.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 04/02/2025

Stuff has been delayed yet again to next month. It sucks. But it was necessary. Pictured here: I was overthinking it. Once more, yet again.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 23/11/2024

I'm back. Here in Brazil, there's a 03 months "probation" period when you get a new job. Until then, the employer can fire you without any reason whatsoever, and you only get the money you worked for. After the 03 months, you get fully hired and are now protected by many things. +

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 19/08/2024

It has been some time. Employer stopped paying me. Had tp get a lawyer. Had to look for a new job. Had to do some introspection. The hardest part. Got something lined up now. Feeling better. Hopefully everything goes to plan. Had to wait for some time, decided to draw. It was good doing it again.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 21/06/2024

This took almost two weeks to finish. It should've been only an hour or two. At most! On another note, I finished a book yesterday where the end that I predicted didn't come to be. Not only that, but it was something completely unexpected/unpredictable. I was pleased.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 20/06/2024

Are things supposed to get boring? Programming, painting, drawing, gaming, writing, etc. I do it for some time, then it gets INCREDIBLY BORING. Then, back to normal after some time. Maybe I haven't found my "thing" yet. At least I hope so. I'm tired of this. (Credits to @TheMartoon on Twitter)

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 12/06/2024

Trying really hard to find the wiil draw, but it appears that executive dysfunction has me by the balls (and not in the good way). My body won't move. I want to draw, but I simply can't do it. It sucks. Might be because I'm currently in waiting mode for the DRG update tomorrow. Well, anyway...

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 11/06/2024

Every time. Every time I use these straight lines, they end up way more darker (and "weirder"?) than they should. They are not my favorite too. I still want to learn it, but I'm not super inclined to try them again. The trunk came out nice tho. So there's that.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 07/06/2024

I've finished the book. It was good. I officially recommend The Magic of Recluce. Whatever that means. Drawings are... different. Now that I'm trying to go more by feeling, rather than using what others said is right, they have changed. Not for worse or bad. But... changed. Will experiment more.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 06/06/2024

Seriously, high pattern recognition is the worst, at least for books. Everyone but one single person has a reason to kill the protagonist. It is clear as day to me. The one guy that is his friend is the one trying to kill him. I hate this.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 06/06/2024

Reading "The Magic Of Recluce" now, and oof, it feels like I'm reading Fitz Chivalry all over again. He wants to know the answers. They give him a book with answers. He doesn't read it. *gets mad for not having answers.* busy at work, not much time to draw. Here is something from 3-4 weeks ago.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 05/06/2024

Trying to use a bit more of... Me. I'm using too much what I've seen in videos and tutorials. Although it does help, and it does serve a purpose, at some point, you have to see how far you can reach on your own. This might not be my *masterpiece*, but it is Me. And that is good enough for now.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 29/05/2024

Oh, the things that ADHD focus is able to do. I just finished reading 180 chapters in barely a week. Only because I was really interested in it. If only I could control even just a tiny sliver of that attention/willpower. I would be unstoppable. Anyhow, another drawing. I'm learning as I "fail."

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 22/05/2024

Have you ever seen a bad painting from DaVinci? Picasso? Michelangelo? The works that get displayed are always the great ones, never the lesser, never the "failures." It gives the impression that they only made masterpieces. That is why I post even the worst looking ones. I'm not there, for now.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 20/05/2024

Been sick for an entire week. Just now getting better. It made me so disheartened, couldn't gather enough strength to do anything. Also, my new fineliners arrived. Now I can go down to 0.05 pen tip. Not that it changes much, but it does make it easier to do detail.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 14/05/2024

I've been in a mental block these past 2-3. It always happens when I lose the interest that was keeping me anchored to this existence. Now that I have finished the book I was reading, until I find something else to listen to, I'm just here existing without will. AuDHD truly is a bitch.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 08/05/2024

Realizing, now that I am a mere 1/3 away from finishing the 5th book in The Infinite Realm series, that there will be a 6th book. =| Now I'm torn between "Yes! More books" and "Shit, I will have to wait for it." On another note, these types of tree shapes are much harder to do.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 02/05/2024

Just finished the third book in the Infinite Realm Saga, and, oh man, the difference between good and bad writing is astonishing. Through the whole 3rd act, I was completely entranced while listening to it. There are still two books left, but even so, I 10/10 would recommend it.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 30/04/2024

"Once you free your mind about the concept of harmony and of music being correct, you can do whatever you want." - Giorgio

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 29/04/2024

One of the most damaging things in my being, overthinking. Hours, even days, to finish any drawing. Of course, to a high-level drawing, it makes sense. To me, a beginner? I'm caring too much. Shaking hand, fearing making any "mistake." I'll try working on it. This took 15 min. No pencil first.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 25/04/2024

Trying out different styles. Also, like Amy, I'm back to black. (I'm very funny. My mother is very proud) I LOVE green. But it just doesn't taste as good as black. Not that green tasted bad. It is just... different.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 24/04/2024

Trying something different. I didn't hated it.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 18/04/2024

A lot is said about the effects of AuDHD, but never about the most annoying one, high pattern recognition. I just listened to the first 15 min of a book, and I already figured out the plot. "Oh, look, this is the, very loyal, king's brother," he is obviously the one who did it.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 15/04/2024

It's official, I need to use a darker grey to do the trunks or not use it at all. Not that this solves the lighting issue, but at least it doesn't seem too much washed out. Also, I'm trying to add at least some background. I didn't hate it, but I should use a darker blue next time.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 11/04/2024

Once again, I have fallen prey to a Blake Crouch book. This time, it was Abandon. As always, good premise and unexpected developments. But, also, as always, the ending just sucks. On another note, I'm trying to use colors other than just black. It is hard.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 10/04/2024

Maybe I should start writing things here? It feels weird to just post my drawings. I finished Solo Leveling manga yesterday. Not bad. [SPOILER] In the end, it was just "I will use this super power," and "Then I will use this super power +1." Rinse and repeat. Disappointing. Cool art thought.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 14/03/2024

Repost with your favorite meme you made.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 11/03/2024

Sharing this text that helped me, in the hopes it might help someone else too. To art, the only impediment is wheter it is morality correct or not. Other than that, anything is valid. It is not bad, good, neutral or whatever. Art is. If it hurts no one, directly or indirectly, it is valid.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 11/03/2024

So, it appears that using more than just one color makes things way easier.

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Antônio Julio @vagner4242.bsky.social · 04/03/2024

Just for the registry, sorry, but I can't post my face. I literally fear for my life. Family, boss, whole state is homophobic. I feel a shiver run trough me every time my father starts talking. I can't imagine what he would do if he knew for certain. Anyway, here is my most recent (bad) drawing.

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