iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

me when i see someone have an original character that looks a lot like mine but theirs is better and everyone likes theirs more and i start struggling to breathe from envy

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

consistent good quality and full duration sleep feels like turning on cheats irl and i would recommend it to everyone ever

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

i guess i'm not using soundcloud anymore

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

i want this creature to save me and hug me and comfort me

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

i NEED to finish my extended play before this bandcamp friday

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

mild light outer wilds spoilers? this is super awesome and cool and epic and i love this

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

my beautiful water shader for my beautiful game

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

i wish there were words to describe what i feel because i actually don't know how to convey it to others

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

but it feels wonderful whenever i can draw

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 21/08/2026

i think i won't be able to create a world and fiction of my own because whenever i try to come up with something i realize that it is unpleasant because i am deeply disgusted by existence itself

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

and it still sounds bad

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 13/08/2026

it's insane how much my functionality seemingly depends on how much comfort i am experiencing and thus i'm barely meaningfully functional

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

stupid drawing i should ki

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

i am driven insane in indescribable ways inherently by existing

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 26/07/2026

i might as well delete all this daw nonsense switch to prompting generative models to generate music for me to at least fake the feeling of producing normal music because otherwise what is the fucking point if i am so unskillable

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 26/07/2026

here goes my "creativity" as i try to continue this track bye byeee!!!!!!!

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 26/07/2026

i want to make music why can't i

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 23/07/2026

fourth anniversary of my discovery of rain world it is the best experience that has ever happened to me in my life

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

casualties unknown really conveys physicality and being a physical sentient being and how awful it is to be that

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

i think it's genuinely impressive how much i happen to cling to personal possessions and order and thus feel very bad when they change in the slightest (even as simple as moving an old folder to another drive)

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

i think escapism is the only and last way i am able to stay sane and alive at all right now

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

it felt more severe than how it is described in medicine, "you may feel lightheadedness or dizziness" but then it's actually intense active suffering, but not pain, rather an entirely different dimension of physical suffering

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

i was casually watching a casualties unknown clip where player was treating expie injuries, and i kid you not, my body then went full vasovagal syncope because apparently it thought it was the expie

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 12/07/2026

i think i need to spend many hours over many days being bored and not engaging in any activity but this is also very unpleasant and uncomfortable

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 26/06/2026

i need to improve my way of playing games because right now it has become arcadelike mindless pressing of buttons to make numbers go high and/or get a win screen but i want it to feel like i'm the character and actually living through the story the fiction and gameplay provide

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 24/06/2026

fuck my music making disability

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 20/06/2026

this screenshot i took in casualties unknown might be a bit suspicious

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

i think i have what is called fear of missing out if i understood this term correctly, and in my case it applies to a game as a community phenomenon, and this is so unpleasant

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 15/06/2026

14000+ music project files in 4+ years and exactly 0% of them sound good and it's still not enough to gain decent skills

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

original character or something

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 26/05/2026

i oscillate so much between feeling content and feeling dread

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

skillfulness and wisdom are bliss and you really feel it when you get to experience both of them

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 27/04/2026

i think creating characters that have minds greatly superior to humans' must be incredibly difficult because you just wouldn't know how they would behave due to their incomprehensible intelligence

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

so turns out "light eater" means "eats lightly" and not "eater of light" like i thought

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 12/04/2026

i need to eliminate ignorance it's scary

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 10/04/2026

i need to eliminate envy it's scary

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 06/04/2026

drillbert from dome keeper (sorry for low skill art)

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

how to be good at drums step 1. download a drum loop

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 31/03/2026

yes yes, for me it's often uncommon words or phrases that just appear repeatedly throughout the day, mosty from non-native languages i speak

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

how am i supposed to produce art and music for projects when my skills are phantom and depend on some external divine power that appears randomly and more rarely with time than on my own experience and knowledge which normal people have. this is so painful to live with

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

rerendering the same track 500 quintillion times with slight changes just to achieve a non-painful mixing and mastering across the whole duration is annoying sometimes

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efi @uefiser.bsky.social · 14/03/2026

i made this in 2024. how. i don't know how to draw anything this well now

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