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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

the great divide between hating being afab but being fine with presenting sort of feminine…. i felt very masc today and went to ulta and felt fine but just remembering that i was born f*m*l* makes me ill. i just wish i was a man like lived my life as a man

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

crazy to think that a year ago i was mortified of driving and now i go to work mainly bc i love my car. he is like a friend to me. when he was at the mechanic i was straight up depressed and didn’t want to go out or even eat anything. he makes me so happy he gives me a reason to live

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

you know i left work early bc i was working on the top floor of the warehouse and i got my p*riod (censored bc remembering that i am afab makes me fall deathly ill) and the pad dispenser in the bathroom was broken which meant i either had to walk all over god’s creation looking in every other-

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

lying in bed and i remember how my ex best friend almost tricked me into moving into a home with my stalker

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

arkady’s family life just imploded and now idk if i’m gonna have a way to get to work for the next 2-3 weeks while my car is in the shop #lol

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

in piercing chiaki stabs herself 10x in the thigh with the little mini scissors of a swiss army knife guess what’s been on my mind nonstop since i read that

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

when the thought of a binge meal crosses my mind and now it’s all i can think about and i’m literally paralyzed and can’t do anything else. you fucking fat piece of shit all you care about is food and eating

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 21/08/2026

arkady be like yeah i struggle with irrational paranoia i’m gonna go watch content that will trigger it now

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 19/08/2026

jesus lord in heaven above i posted an opinion someone on main didn’t agree with and they’ve been on a tirade about the topic for a day and a half now it can’t be that serious

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

i hit the post that wrecked my door at a restaurant btw that’s why i’m so humiliated. insurance people probably thought LMFAO fatty wrecked the car trying to get their binge meal in. gonna go to the body shop they’re gonna think the same thing. i didn’t even get my food

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

well my car’s body is fucked but MY body is tea. hope my FACE CARD doesn’t decline and can pay for these repairs

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

bodycheckaholic first thing i do when the work week is over is go home and bodycheck i can’t stop

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 08/08/2026

i don’t wanna have to block ex-friend everywhere but the attention seeking behavior bc i won’t answer a dm is getting kinda extreme idk what to do

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

saw my full body reflection at work night = destroyed beyond any possible repair

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

some of you people are so fucking weird

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 02/08/2026

haven’t eaten since thursday who cheered. well i sure did

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

today somebody told me i was losing weight and said that at my new job i’ll lose even more bc it’s labor intensive. specifically that i’ll be “so skinny”

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Hisoka: Turned On

ALT: Hisoka: Turned On

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 26/07/2026

i might hide on here for a bit i’m feeling weirdly paranoid for the past few days

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 26/07/2026

lockjaw is awesome i’ve barely eaten in three days

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

no i do not own a full body mirror. need i say why

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 18/07/2026

i wanna cut my hair but i have the fat girl long hair security blanket complex so deeply ingrained into me and THAT. that is what keeps me from doing it. tbh. people tell me i look smaller now but i still feel huge. once i feel like a normal human being instead of a big fat fuck i’ll cut it all off

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 18/07/2026

mopar really was the missing piece bc i don’t even wanna drink anymore

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 17/07/2026

today i realized i don’t really wanna kill myself anymore. who knew a badass car was the missing piece

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

can i post abt my oc on here too. i dont wanna put him on main bc he doesnt deserve attention

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

at the car lot today there was this family outside and the mom was making fun of the kid for being a severely picky eater (probably arfid like myself) and it made me so sad…. she sounded just like my mom making fun of me as a kid. i wish it was not only a more well-known ed (i didn’t know-

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 26/06/2026

nobody ever wants to talk about how terrible life is when you were raised by an internally misogynistic woman who taught you to be ashamed and embarrassed of the female life experience and that you should exist just to entertain males

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

don’t wanna put anybody on blast on main but this isn’t a vent necessarily anyway ex-oomf randomly unfollowed me everywhere awhile ago and i moved on with my life bc i am normal but today i got a notif that they followed me on tumblr again and when i got off i saw unfollowed me bro leave me alone

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

i’m not gonna be able to even buy food pretty much until i get a new job bc i keep having to save my family from going into debt again but it’s okay. i want a fast car and to be skinny more than i want to eat and buy junk

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

i keep doing the right thing and i never get anything in return i waste my generosity and kindness just to get spit on and demanded of. there is no point in trying to be a good person all i get is punished

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 07/06/2026

I HAVE TO KILL MYSELF OH MY GODDDD

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 05/06/2026

i’m tired of getting texts bro i can’t wait to be unemployed so people stop asking me for money

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 24/05/2026

i need to stop dear diarying on main it’s getting out of hand

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 23/04/2026

relapse imm so fucking pathetic oh my god why the fuck did i do that

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 22/04/2026

the only thing in the world that i truly want is a second chance i wanna go back and do things over and make the right choices and it’s the one thing that i can’t have i can’t go back why can’t i just start over

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 22/04/2026

“maybe you’d be happier if you moved back east” man who gives a fuck. i’m gonna be a waste of breath no later where i go already fucked up and ruined my life years ago and there’s no going back

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 25/03/2026

man i just got so mad looking at old pics of myself why was i cuter when i was over 200lbs 🫩 i think restricting killed my hair especially bc it used to look a lot fuller and now its so lifeless and dead

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 19/03/2026

arfid being the trendy new ed/mental illness to fake is literally detrimental. i never eat in public bc i am so embarrassed of how little i eat. i will vomit if i am forced to eat something that isnt one of my very few safe foods. it’s NOT a cute quirky picky eater thing!!!! it ruined my life!!!!

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 18/03/2026

was gonna copy oomf’s thread rating things my m*m has said about my appearance but ended up just making myself cry lol god i fucking hate my m*m i hope that junkie bitch overdoses and dies alone

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 09/03/2026

i feel bad trying to be friends with people bc i’m so scared of humiliating myself that i end up giving potential friends the customer service treatment until i’m sure i can trust them

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 02/03/2026

thought i was gaining weight but ive had an influx of family + friends saying i look like i’m losing weight this week and i haven’t braved the scale in a month bc im scared of a high number + if i get on and it’s lower im gonna start on another episode but ill get epic dopamine points if it is lower

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 23/02/2026

i get all hurt when someone i like breaks the mutual like what’d i do 😭😭

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 29/01/2026

i do really like how alcohol has no easily visible nutrition information i think all food should be like that

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 29/01/2026

the other day at work i met someone with the exact same first and last name as my codependent homoerotic ex-best friend and it felt like that reddit post where the guy looks at the lamp for too long and realizes his whole life was just a dream after being knocked out

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 25/01/2026

the one size fits all is too small for me NEW MOTIVATION TO RESTRICT UNLOCKED 🥳🥳🥳🥳

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 11/01/2026

scared i’ll never have a friendship like the codependent homoerotic friendship but without the codependency and homoeroticism ever again like what if that was a once in a lifetime thing that we fucked up and now i’ll never be close with anyone ever again

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 09/01/2026

a lot of my mutuals on main do actually think im cool… like they have my post notifs on or they left me a note for christmas saying i’m one of their fav mutuals… its so overwhelming like please guys im not cool im the biggest loser on the internet actually

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 09/01/2026

one of the worst side effects of my mommy issues is that i get mad when people don’t like their dads and i know it’s super irrational but i get like personally offended for some reason

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also arkady @tylenolmurders.bsky.social · 07/01/2026

it feels like sleep is the only thing i look forward to now

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