iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

i feel so far behind people my age. someone i know just bought a new house. idk how you can even afford that in this economy. ugh.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

holy fuck i feel like garbage, went to bed a little too late last night so i'm already losing some hours and was woken up by the constant beeping of the garbage truck backing up infinitely. it's like they were driving backwards down the road as slow as possible.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

learned that the type of gender dysphoria i experience is social dysphoria and a lil bit of body dysphoria.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

i follow a lot of fetish artists because their art is fantastic but their fetishes are mostly not for me and sometimes i get whiplash from the stuff i see to the point where all i can do is giggle.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

i wish i had enough money to donate/commission all of the wonderful people i see who are in need of money :/ i know it isn't my "duty" but i hate that the most i can do is share it around.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

sometimes i think about going on HRT but then i question if i am even "trans enough" to get it. it's a dumb thought process but man...

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

preemptively setting up my community server on fluxer for when discord inevitably adds the age verification BS

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

i feel like horseshit but if i call in sick right now the head nurse will give me a fucking attitude so i'm just going to mask up and let my manager know i probably won't be in tomorrow which will probably result in her giving me attitude too.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

had a dogshit day in the wage cage today, was stressed over being short staffed and getting shit done on time + dealing with an incompetent cook that constantly forgets stuff (like making gluten free options etc) but was managing ok.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

the new ocarina of time looks fantastic (except for young zelda's face idk she looked weird to me) but i am still angry at nintendo and will not be buying it or a switch 2 to play it.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

sometimes i get a follow on my main account from a very very horny/fetish account which i think is funny because my nsfw account is right there lol. i wonder if they need a palette cleanser on their timeline?

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

i think countries constantly push for wars not only to destabilize/exploit countries with more resources and to make a profit off of weapons sales but also to destroy parts of their own population that could start a successful rebellion.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

on one hand i crave a clean moral slate but on the other hand i think there's some merit to being a shitty person and pulling yourself out of that. sucks that i was ever shitty to begin with of course but being able to change that for the better and move forward is it's own thing to celebrate ig.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

journaling is so fun. specifically physical journaling, like with a pen and paper. it's so satisfying finishing one.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

recently learned that all NB people are inherently trans (which makes sense when i think about it for more than two seconds) which is hilarious because it means i did a full circle from high school till now.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

i have one friend that actively goes out of his way to use a bunch of different pronouns for me and that shit makes me so happy lol i don't mind she/her but when people use other pronouns for me it makes me smile.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 13/08/2026

i think i found a gender that perfectly encapsulates how i feel about myself.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

gonna get back into art and streaming slowly, gonna make a half assed pngtuber model until i get around to remaking a 3d/2d model

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

thinking about the gentleman in the toronto subway system that asked me where jay-z was and when i responded with a confused look he said i look like beyonce. my white ass reacted like

meme image of a white man in a white t shirt pointing at himself with a look of bewilderment on his face

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 11/07/2026

my "friend" put a logo i made for him through genAI to... put the logo/text into the same image file as an AI slop image. instead of just using mspaint or asking me. fucking fuming about this & told him how disappointed i was ʕꐦ¬`ᴥ´¬ʔ

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 29/06/2026

i fucking love customizing profiles ʕ ⸝⸝´ ᴥ `⸝⸝ ʔ

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 27/06/2026

drawing is hard but it's so fun making stuff even if it looks hella wonky and weird

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 25/06/2026

got a bunch of last minute art done + redid my entire art fight to match my team theme this year ʕᵔᴥᵔʔ~♪ gonna slowly redo my accounts too for customization

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 22/06/2026

locked in on finishing a shitton of last minute refs for art fight ʕ✦ᴥ✦ʔ got the frat au refs + going to redo my persona with shorter hair ʕ´;ᴥ;`ʔ

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 22/06/2026

i don't wanna go back to wage cage tomorrow ʕ´⊺ᴥ⊺`ʔ

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 21/06/2026

my one coworker keeps complimenting my hair, she's having me like ʕ灬☯ᴥ☯灬ʔ

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Kurt @kaatokunart.bsky.social · 12/06/2026

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lyssa ✨ @lyssahh.bsky.social · 13/06/2026

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 11/06/2026

i've been struggle with trying to identify my own gender. i heavily relate to both women/men but i just don't care how people perceive me. i get gender euphoria when people switch up their pronouns for me or are confused. i think i like confusing people & keeping them guessing.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 11/06/2026

i wish i was in a better place financially to give money to people who need it but i'm barely making it myself

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

wow there are like a billion varieties of braids for textured hair and they're cool as fuck how am i supposed to choose just one for my oc

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

bruh there's these new pokemon go players in town that are the most fucking annoying people. they seem to be awake 24/7 & the moment i put a pokemon in the gym closest to me they start fighting the gym to take it back even though the other surrounding gyms all have their pokemon in them already.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

got back into writing again today, gonna try to get into the habit of writing for like an hour or so before work.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 23/05/2026

can't wait to be out of debt so i can buy art again, so many talented artists i wanna buy from haha

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 08/05/2026

i always forget how fun keeping a physical journal is until i start doing it again regularly. something super satisfying about writing my entire inner monologue down and filling up tiny books along the way.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

invested in a proper metal water bottle from [REDACTED BRAND] and immediately got to work sticker bombing it with the non horny anime girl stickers + misc. stickers i have laying around. perhaps when i have less debt i will buy a yoshi sticker pack i've been eyeing to fill in the smaller spaces...

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 03/05/2026

i want to make more black characters but i sometimes get nervous because i'm not black. like there's obvious design choices that are wrong to make but even though i actively avoid that stuff i worry i won't do them justice or smth.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

this red wing black bird said hello to me on my walk home from wage cage

a picture of a lone red wing black bird in a branch with a white-ish back drop.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 23/04/2026

thank you sebastian, this is why you canonically get laid the most in every universe i put you in ❤️

a screenshot from the new game tomodachi life: licinf the dream. it shows my OC sebastian, a handsome blonde haired blue eyed man talking with my self insert mii in game. my mii is visibly upset, but sebastian is "trying to make Otter laugh with stories about playing Counterstrike 2."

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 23/04/2026

was gonna get tomodachi life but then i saw the price sooooo just gonna sail the seven seas since it was leaked a few days before official release anyway lol

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 17/04/2026

fuckin nurse at my work got an attitude with me for calling in "can you give us more heads up next time 🙄" like fuck off. i work evenings so my sleep schedule is fucked, i'm sleeping more to get over this sickness & we've been short staffed since someone died last year & the line hasn't been filled.

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♠️🔪🍤オッター🍤🔪♠️ @toxxicpancakes.bsky.social · 15/04/2026

i hate getting sinus infections but fuuuck i love horking up a huge ball of mucus. it's so satisfying.

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