iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

these are from the other night and i dyed my hair right after taking them #gg

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i look p good for a homeless person tho

picture of me in a dr pepper shirt in the bathroom mirror

picture of me in a dr pepper shirt in the bathroom mirror (but with a different expression)

p sure the roomies from hell stole my fucking switch too :( why are people EVIL

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so uh yeah tldr my life imploded and im lowkey kinda homeless and still jobsearching. alternating between crashing with my mom and crashing with fine shyt who i met thru said abusive ex. every cloud has its silver lining. hehe. but god im cooked

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my housemates in theft of my ex's stuff in order to have the "privilege" to continue living there, worked with my ex's sister (who doesn't deserve to be dealing with all of this) to report them for theft and get her shit back, AAAAAAND got kicked out myself bc the housemates had temper tantrums

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hello bluesky since i have been gone i have: taken out a personal loan, moved to boston, had to quit my job to move to boston, exited an abusive friendship that almost turned into a romantic relationship against my will, kicked my abusive ex out (we had moved in together), was coerced to cover for -

jackie @toughluck.bsky.social · 30/03/2026

the person who invented captchas should have their balls places where their eyes go and their eyes placed where their balls go

orrery @orrery.bsky.social · 16/02/2026

Reposted by jackie

Haseul Instagram post

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the biggest tell has to have been the way that men i dated acted threatened by my intelligence, autonomy and respect for my own boundaries. these are not and never will be bad things, no matter how anyone makes you feel about them. do not get it twisted

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i am too capable, too intelligent to minimize myself to fit into the role of Some Guy's Wife. and most importantly, i am too much of a guy. i feel that i too bought into propaganda. much subtler propaganda. and this is why i say it is fucking insidious. knowledge is ur best weapon of self defense.

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im realizing now that i had entirely lost myself to the cause of finding this. this last year has been a process of taking back my own identity, acknowledging and nurturing my strengths, and most importantly accepting my own identity outside of the gender binary. i chose a path. i feel it was right

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personally? i feel that i reached a crossroads recently. i could have continued masking as a woman. i could have bought into the propaganda of "protection" via a long term relationship with a man, not having to work so hard if someone could "provide" 4 me. i sought this desperately in my early 20s.

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because in spite of it all i am seeing too many well meaning, even more politically left wing people getting swept up in it. too many women especially are starting to see their freedom as a bad thing. it is so insidious and so disgusting

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yeah my entire existence is just loudly screaming in retaliation against the christofacist propaganda currently consuming society. i rly was born to be a punk ass bitch. im never gonna shut up

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still, i have my own core belief system that exists independently of theirs, and i believe that any member of any church should as well. if the church treats independent beliefs as a bad thing or something forbidden, that church aint shit. pay ur taxes ugly

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note when i say satanic influences i mean the church of satan. this is the only church i am actually technically a member of, as their belief system aligns very well with my own and i feel they are a great church to support. am probably going to get "unbaptized" there at some point.

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i am very proud of my evolution from gnostic atheist > agnostic atheist > spiritual agnostic (with some pagan and satanic influences if i wanna get technical 🤓). i still see it as an ongoing evolution and development. spirituality is best explored in an "outside of the box" manner.

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connecting with the spiritual realm is as far as i think is optimal to go. because in doing so, i have learned and accepted the existence of this ambiguous enigma of a god that i believe in. there are means we can use to tap into the power of the universe. and i think that is beautiful

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im totally taking a philosophy class thooo

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born to be a philosophy major forced to have to get a degree in something more useful zzzzzz

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yeah, that's enough. like we're literally just Fancy primates on a conveniently habitable rock in outer space. there's probably many other such cases in this universe. we're not supposed to know everything. there is probably a greater reason for us to be here, but we will discover that with time.

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despite Everything i do still believe in a higher power. the universe itself is alive, and i believe there is some sort of intelligent being responsible for that. but this is beyond our rudimentary level of understanding, & i have made peace with that. as long as i am doing good for those around me?

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having a good head on your shoulders is the most important thing. be ur own god. loving and caring for yourself, the causes that are dear to you, and your loved ones are the most important things. don't lose urself trying to cater to a god who is more complex than any of us humans can comprehend.

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and i will never remain silent about this because i lived it. nothing that can make a 6 year old child feel like their entire existence is the cause for perpetual suffering is sacred. i left the church at age 7. if i ever talk about rejoining, i am not myself, pls make sure i get to the psych ward

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so uhh yeah fuck the church. i see too many people swayed back into it after disconnecting from it and. i only hope they can find it to be personally helpful and not use it as a means to tear down others OR themselves. organized religion can be so fucking dangerous for one's wellbeing

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the fact that i ever was swayed to believe that in any capacity was diabolical and has given me reason to want to avoid the church at all costs. being abused at a young age says nothing about you or what you "deserve". i was a vulnerable child left alone with the wrong people. it was never me

im kinda glad i had my perception of it shattered at such a young age bc it rly made it clear to me the sheer amount of bullshit involved. at least 6 year old me was able to see and understand in spite of what i was influenced to believe, my trauma was not a punishment from god.

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fuck the catholic church fuck organized religion

i need to make an improved version of this post on tiktok or smth when i can recover more pics of him

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gave me an amazing childhood when i was with him and protected me at all costs: 10000/10 fucking DIED when i was 10: -10000000/10 😔

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rating shit my dad did on a scale of 1-10 thrifted so much that i grew up surrounded by weird artifacts and the people at salvation army let him park there for free whenever: 100/10 drove around town finding conservative politicians' campaign signs, breaking them and throwing them away: 1000/10

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majoring in communications so i can share my knowledge and perspective with the world without sounding like a massive bitch

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ur partner should find u being independent and having ur own sense of identity to be hot and should. not be feeding into a lack thereof is what i mean in nice people terms

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because i see it in other people and it just makes me feel very mad for their enabling ass partners and sad for what they could be if they did not have that

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whatever im being an asshole rn im just angry at my past self for prioritizing finding romantic love over my own damn wellbeing and had some alcohol and am feeling Spicy about that

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not inherently exclude monogamy, just moreso makes it a thing that two fully willing people enter into with respect for each others' independence. that is literally all i fucking WANT

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i rly think i am just like moreso monogamous than anything but i love the way polyamorous ppl approach relationships. communication and personal freedom are cool. again i view myself as a relationship anarchist but im definitely romantically monogamous. i rly like that relationship anarchy does -

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and he had monogamy on his profile so i like didnt wanna intrude but like. i kept seeing him and thinking he was cute. and now like i work with him and keep seeing him and thinking hes cute. huh. small world

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