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another point to make. earlier that day she told ayb to “face your troubles… as I face my reflection” (self-confrontation). her soliloquy, however, externalizes trouble into fate and dramaturgy. i think that contradiction implies that she needs performance to look in the mirror at all.

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it can be an internal monologue spoken out loud so we can hear it or a speech from a character somehow aware of the audience. but in either case, it tends to bring the audience and the stage closer together, and they tend to be non-realist.

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something i learned from class: A soliloquy is a speech that one character gives when no other character is present on the stage. you can interpret it in many different ways.

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ope’s method of teaching the others to get into character for their play is by telling them not just to “act” their parts, but to immerse themselves in the characters (to speak, think, and practice as though they are those roles). hm, someone is projecting their own method here…

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oh santa king. the sun king is lonely, and you, santa king, must shoulder his burden. but santa king, you’ll be the happiest to carry it, won’t you?

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perhaps that’s why ope chose topro to say it to. she calls her the “axle” because she’s the steady center of their generation, the one who connects ayb, ope and doto, rivals who otherwise pull in different directions. opera o depends on topro’s presence to keep her from spinning into isolation.

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that’s her paradox: she cannot reveal her heart without spectacle. which means even her most personal truths are trapped in performance. and yet, by saying them in front of topro (and the others), she creates the Possibility of being understood. to bridge the gap between the stage and the person.

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when ope plays the Sun King but subtly admit how lonely her crown is, I think topro thought: “so even Opera O-chan feels that way…”

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H @0x000h.bsky.social · 31/08/2025

for me to enjoy opdt, i need them to both suffer. ope is too much for doto; doto is not enough for ope. ope thinks she’s giving doto a crown; doto feels like she’s been handed a guillotine. they adore each other as rivals but the way they express it makes them both miserable.

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i love u ayabe

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yuling @tongyuling.bsky.social · 23/08/2025

how the fuck am i supposed to draw these? girl fuck you

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admiration she desperately craves. yet w/o being truly known, she remains fundamentally alone, which feeds back into her need to construct grand performances to fill the emotional void.

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an ordinary person seeking authentic relationship might be rejected, but the "Centurial Overlord" demanding worship will always have her role to fall back on. it ultimately becomes a prison where she cannot risk being truly known bc being known might reveal her to be unworthy of the love and--

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if she allows genuine emotional connection, she risks having someone see past her grandeur to whatever lies beneath. but what if that person doesn't find her as magnificent as she proclaims? if she's not truly special, then opening herself to genuine connection becomes too risky.

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without the crowds, the adulation, the confirmation of her specialness, who would she be? these two fears, of vulnerability and insignificance, feed into each other in a vicious cycle.

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opekun's debut had only a single reporter attend. this memory threatens to unravel her entire constructed identity: if she was ignored then, what if her current success is indeed just merely a dream? somewhere deep down, she knows her identity as the Overlord requires constant reinforcement.

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kagerou daze but it’s doto and her clumsy ass constantly accidentally killing opera o

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ep 6 of opera o's character story makes her loneliness textually explicit: opera o declares “only one person could ever stand as my equal—me,” then adds, “I will have to bear my solitude,” and the trainer immediately thinks: “Hm… I wonder if she feels lonely”.

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yeah that’s what i was thinking too, unfortunately there are a lot ppl like that in the fandom. i think next time i draw something similar ill turn off the replies TT

thank you for ur kind words :’)

that’s true! thanks for your words lol.

yuling @tongyuling.bsky.social · 14/08/2025

i didn’t expect so many people on twtter to be unsettled by my drawing of ope being stabbed in the back by doto. After all, it’s something ope herself references directly in her dialogue—albeit metaphorically—so it doesn’t feel that extreme to me…?

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yet she doesn’t dismiss ope as a “fake”--i think she can separate performance from substance, acknowledging the performance is how ope connects while still wanting sincerity. their reciprocity grows precisely in that tension

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yuling @tongyuling.bsky.social · 14/08/2025

after ope’s triumphant “We race together! This has always been my true goal as the Centurial Overlord!” speech, ayb mutters: “She doesn’t fool me… No way it was her goal from the beginning. She came up with that spiel on the spot.” this implies that ayb can indeed recognize when ope is improvising..

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yuling @tongyuling.bsky.social · 14/08/2025

“I feel somehow connected to you! …That’s why I must somehow settle this score!” ope says this while cornering ayb into accepting her “rival” role. ope *does* sense something in ayb but she can’t present that recognition/kinship vulnerably so she translates it into a “score to settle.”

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yuling @tongyuling.bsky.social · 12/08/2025

thank you!!! ikr... so moe