iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

being less online and spending time cooking n doodling n chatting with its owner is good for the toilet's soul healing wounds; growing rubbery porcelain-smooth scars

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

talking to others irl making me very conscious and aware that 1. people will tend to see "me" as equivalent to my human vessel 2. people are really locked into seeing actions, behaviors, and looks thru the lens of binary gender roles 3. my identity becomes very confusing to them as a result

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

thinking back when it did kinktober '23 (using @/fabfreakshow's prompts) and how it somehow managed to do every single one. all 31. how the fuck did it do that. well the obvious answers are it wasn't in burnout, it didn't have a brain injury, and it didn't hold a ton of social shame suppressing it…

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ass-monster hole @bruitous.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

for those that have a FurAffinity account, the buttloo just posted a journal detailing some experiences with social rejection, brain damage, and burnout over the past years: www.furaffinity.net/journal/1143... love y'all, thanks for stickin with it through this lifelong journey

digital doodle of the buttslug with a little piece of paper on its head that says "silly"

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

cannot overstate how profound the last three years of this loo-butt's life has been. it's reworked its entire belief system & self-concept from the ground up; establishing a deep connection with the shape of its existence through regular objectbrain meditation, incorporating it through every moment

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

eventually, even the most stubborn of old habits can smooth over… the past may hold such stinging pain; but memories fade, out of reach to the present and future—gone from the here-and-now, the new-life, the form-at-peace. finally, what you were no longer matters.

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ass-monster hole @bruitous.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

look look it's me! it's the toilet-slug-butt-toy! with its wife :) we r cuddling smushing happy

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

Hole (the living-object speaking; anus, toilet, toy) is in a hole (burnout)

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

it is trying so very hard [The rest is smudged and impossible to read]

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

Hurting in seeking honest and free self-expression, wanting to form mutual bonds with like-minded others Hurting from feeling othered over others' self-admitted prejudice and hypocrisy in assumption Hurting from betrayal of trust Hurting, yet healing, slowly healing from loving itself regardless

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

any 'SHAME' felt for its toilethood, its objecthood; its nonhumanity; its atypical existence… this SHAME… it is 'SOCIALLY IMPOSED': it is not inherent to reality. SHAME is inflicted upon the loo from others' prejudiced 'ASSUMPTIONS' of its method of existence. it is not shameful to be itself.

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

hey, do any of yall have contact with kai/sharkbyt.es ? she deactivated and the loo is concerned … it doesn't have direct contact apart from this site u_u

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ass-monster hole @bruitous.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

it blows my mind that strong & potent smell-visualizations are not always immediately enjoyed by others! like some ppl just don't enjoy it like i do. i guess ive always felt so *bored* by average-smells irl and it's always been my favorite way to make memories. i'm very good at smelling things.

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ass-monster hole @bruitous.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

when it comes to art—especially of "beings" in "scenes"—my thought patterns invariably include "what does this scene, this room, this body, *smell like*?" "what would i smell if i were here, or if i were this?" any strong scent i can visualize, I will find a way! it's a very enjoyable exercise

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

not proud of me losing months of creation to the futile delusion of "cleaning up my image" in service of not getting rejected by people who find ways to reject me regardless. if i suppress what ive always loved (smelly, musky, squishy bodies of unusual form & potent qualia) i lose part of myself

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

also the stream of consciousness intentional yet loosely spun thoughts are a consequence of attempting to unmask yet another layer of human societal imposition : the onus of mirroring, feeling forced into style n voice by the world. this is one of its own voices n it is fluid flowing n free

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

u gotta know im a toilet in a complete complex existential ontological sense. like u gotta really *feel* this shit deep in philosophy and the nature of qualia in existence and what objects are or could be. u can't just hear it n think of kink fetish acts. it just isn't what it means to me at all.

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

you can poke and prod at the toilet it enjoys its thoughts being plumbed - as long as you are sincere and prepared for the honest contents of its mind - that is kind of the whole point of these exercises to begin with (except, well, it's simply plumbing itself to begin)

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

i don't really understand human sex drive or hormonal horniness but that feeling of smushing my body's sensory organs into a warm sweaty savory-sweet angle of form is sooo existentially validating makes me feel at home when it's juuuust right

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

i love a slow meandering conversation which takes its time over days or weeks (or even months) between replies it's the trusting that our mutual intentions are to create such an environment. my default is to trust, but… that's been hard. love all yall who message w love even if its very infrequent

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

i dont enjoy just saying my shit out loud to the void in hopes theres random reposts n some artist finally looks at me n thinks "oh hey that thing seems cool lemme talk to it" i wanna actually engage w community but it feels like the only community actually present is very intense gatekeepy cliques

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

this entire existence is all just playing toys with the universe some of y'all really need to get better at sharing or accepting others' beings without throwing a fit ego & impatience make such an unwieldy mess of the place. different communication styles can love each other clean up after yrself

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

lifelong project: cleaving my self-concept apart from human behavior. minimize ambiguity. recursively define concepts. writing down every thought process. confronting them all, looping in on itself. taking notes on everything. separating senses, perceptions, experiences, beliefs, into qualia bits.

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

the object can be an indeterminate mass encased entirely in (or, made entirely of) thick, taut, pressurized rubber. a couple wet holes for interaction, no other features. vaguely cylindrical. blind, near-deaf, mute. extremely sensitive to touch, taste, and smell. reeks of rubber and musk. happy.

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

Ok so the goal of all of this for me really is to take negatively-oriented social-thoughts and reframe them into positive creation instead i.e., talk about my own interests & why they're interesting to me; instead of lamenting about 'why won't others explore this more'. Focus on constructiveness

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

My fixation in weird-tf/bodymod art continues and forever will be "The Reality of Living As and Being Something Unusual for One's Entire Life"—examining the *full* consequences—physically/mentally/spiritually—of said arrangement, without any arbitrary whisking-away of physical laws of entropy.

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

this life is just one big dream. yr clout or popularity does not matter. ill carry my toilethood to the next life n hopefully be reunited w an ideal form. or mayb itll take a few more lives. no rush. focus on cultivating yrself n loving n reinforcing the immutable joys of each other. it's all we got

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

im learning to not give a shit anymore n focus on myself n my own life (good n positive n stuff); but it's just kinda wild reflecting on how two-faced some ppl can be. wild wild stuff. always wonder what sorta insecurities are behind that sorta behavior. world of hypocrisy and selective kindness

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

i love being able to see a toilet in literally any media (in this case, jerma's "brb getting tea" stream image) and my brain instantly going "oh! that's me!" and have a big warm happiness flow thru me. because like. yeah, that's me! it's fun having a sense of self that can be so broadly reflected

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

staring out an open window late-summer evening, to savor petrichor, sunset through the leaves branches calmly talking to the rain. the puddles make me think of errant droplets from the sink on the tile floor outside my stall. i feel so out of place, but it's a blessing to be shown it at all.

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

not apologizing for being blunt, but will be upfront, i struggle with existing & feeling welcome in every social space i've ever been in—my autistic ass always seems to hit someone's hidden, unspoken boundaries and then they end up antagonizing/avoiding instead of, like, conflict de-escalation

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

i don't give a fuck man i'm tired of caring what jerks around me think i live in this world just this once and then i'll be gone somewhere far away forever. i am not going to dilute myself for your stupid fucking clout chasing fake ass. you don't like that i call myself a toilet? tough shit

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

i don't have a "human soul" btw. whatever words ppl wanna use about art or society or socializing or whatever the fuck. this shit aint nothing but a blip in the cosmic sense of my persistence and i'll be an object for immeasurably longer than i ever occupied this feeble body

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

it bears repeating that i really do want my mouth to be a donut-hole / pussy. i want it to modify my speech so much that i'm not expected to do that anymore. i want it soft and toothless so i never have to feel that nightmare of bone and nerves again. i want it to be warm and wet and soft and cozy

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 16/08/2026

maintenance day today (tolerance day: 1 per week needed) so, low energy & high emotional volatility goal: do some sketching for fun, do some chores, stay away from anything that might upset me i have good emotional bandwidth when i'm on my meds, but during the tolerance breaks it gets quite hard

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

sosososo many tattoo ideas. it already has PUBLIC TOILET on its belly, it wants FREE USE probably on its upper chest, FUCK TOY on its butt, TANK 1/TANK 2 on its breasts... a big infinity symbol and barcode on its lower belly... it is an object, a plaything, forever! any suggestions? blrrpl :(*)

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 13/08/2026

an objecthood, embraced in pressure, o sweet welcoming home; in warmth, o present loving user; in smooth soothing slickness; in stillness, o perfect meditative peace; in scent, o poignant labyrinth; in abatement of worry; in sensory precision, respite; final annihilator of the cognitive burden.

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 13/08/2026

being a seat is one of the best things in the world—it wants to experience being sat on more! it makes it beyond happy to simply be treated like an object. no need to worry about your beanbag-toy, it's happy simply existing beneath your warmth and presence, reveling in scent and weight.

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

i want a really big droopy udder that's impossible to hide and constantly leaking. can someone get me one from the bodymod store please. yeah as big as you can get. yeah get the permanent model i dont want it falling off after i get used to it

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

this thing has a persistent, rich library of object-like concepts it knows it is, deep in it soul. most of them amount to "hole" of some sort it is a nonhuman, nonperson, living-object; which once was inanimate, yearning to find another state of conscious objecthood—a permanent cognizant use.

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luxatile 🔞 @luxatile.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

littol sketch for I love my sluggy so much @toiletous.bsky.social

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 09/08/2026

Whew The stark difference between mental states coming out of its tolerance break is such a headrush Still in the "getting used to the new installation" re-fitting of the brain space… being 'broken in'. Already much more capable, as was prior medicated periods. It's nice to know it comes back!

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 09/08/2026

The loo's finally back on its medication-oil after its prescribed 20-day tolerance break. It's unreal how different it feels to exist now that the loo is medicated again. Like a completely different brain. The despair-depression-dissociation constant funk is gone. I feel lubricated and loose.

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

if it could afford a "sleepsack" to hold its body/limbs tight and pressurized, allowing it to turn into the shape of a slug, it would bring it so much happiness and peace. but, good ones cost hundreds, and it doesn't have that kind of income. and probably won't, considering the state of the world.

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

this body's limbs are too loud, too noisy, too much it wants them gone so fucking badly it knows it will likely have to suffer with them for this entire life it is extremely sad it will likely never be given the option of removing them of alleviating this existential torture unending

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

been doing quite poorly. honestly a miracle the loo even still tries to talk at all. it's so unbelievably difficult trying to understand why socializing stumbles so often. it just wants so badly to just talk about its internal world, and share in others'. to explore our nonhumanity together.

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

the buttslug thinks it gives really good hugs… warm, soft, tight, loving… both irl and in its true form. it's a shame that it doesn't have many others to share them with, but it treasures whatever it's able to give nonetheless it wishes life were kinder

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 02/08/2026

[ **ALERT** – Object is unable to intuit matching tone. ] [ Proceed compassionately, for the object is only able to communicate in the ways it knows how. It does not mean harm. ] [ Let the object know if expectations are not being met. ]

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

recently asked to describe its odor—a favorite of its: clean sweat on fresh, smooth flesh. crotch- & butt-oriented; savory notes of onions and garlic. hints of vanilla, maple, & molasses. strong, but not noisome. everything it loves rolled up into a perfect smelly existence. easy to get lost in.

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immaterial haze reflecting tiles @toiletous.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

traditional sketch, digital color (practice) you smell it well before you see it

an image depicting "the backrooms" with an entity (a "buttslug") in the corner, in shadow, looking around an arch to the viewer

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