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lowkey fighting the urge to liquidate everything i own and buy a bunch of plane tickets so i can go hug the people that mean the fucking world to me.

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One year can really fuck you up. A lost job, a couple of shitty breakups and one abusive relationship halfway across the country later and now I'm faceplanted firmly at the end of Act 2 with my nose stuck to the floor of rock fucking bottom. Rebuilding from here is daunting. I have to though.

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This place is really bad for my mental health. If you stumble across me and like my vibes, send me a friend req on disc at tobicatsith. Maybe might be back if this place doesn't go completely radioactive. Trans rights are human rights. Sex work is real work. Remember that you are loved. 🏳️‍⚧️💖

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I mourn for the part of me that is my inner child. She never got to have a proper childhood, because of the poisoning among several other reasons. But I take solace in the fact that she is still with me and that I can feel the spark of joy within her. I have to live.

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In retrospect, I suppose that's a testament to the power of hrt. Testosterone poisoning had me so unbalanced as a kid. Once I started taking Spiro, I became acutely aware of how much anger was driving my life.

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I'm in the hole really deep today. Hard to climb. I've had to call on a part of myself to fill me with anger in order to get myself moving. Even that doesn't feel the same anymore. She used to burn with fiery rage, now it's just quiet bitterness.

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I have to live. Everything is terrible and overwhelming and I'm crying every single day and wanting oblivion. But I have a family that loves me now. I finally feel comfortable being myself. I've come so far. So I have to live.

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Professionally diagnosed ADHD, self diagnosed autism. ASD wasn't a thing when I was growing up in the late 80s/early 90s and I probably would have masked way too hard to get a proper diagnosis anyways.

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🔞👻Luna the Boo Slut @moonslutluna.bsky.social · 10/12/2024

You are good. I don’t know who you is. but you is good someone thinks of u when they see something mundane, like a Diet Pepsi, or a chipped coffee mug You don’t know it. but they do They see it and think “oh…reminds me of them…hope they’re doing well” you add meaning to other’s lives. You matter

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I love audio processing errors. It happens between my partner and I all the time xD

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Oh jeeeeeez, I'm sorry to hear that! There's a lot of sick acts on that bill. Glad y'all will be able to catch up tho! 💕

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Ooooo that sounds awesome!! I hope you have a wonderful time! ^^ btw, who are y'all gonna go see?? :3c

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Fuck the high horse, this shit bag wrung billions of dollars out of the infirmed public and left them bleeding. If you wanna mourn loss of life, mourn those ppl who couldn't get what they need when they needed it. This fucker is dead and rotting now, good goddamn riddance. 🥂

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This is like, the best microcosm analogy for how I feel about american capitalism. Be well, friendo. 💖

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Doing our best to recover. The psych ward stay did more harm than good, I fear. Cosmo has ptsd from his treatment at their hands. I want to bring a fkn malpractice lawsuit against that clinic, but they have government money. We would never win. So there is fuck all we can do besides review bomb them

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Fun fact, the name I took is based on Tobias the Hawk because I related to him so much as a kid. Thank you for inspiring me, Mrs Applegate. 💖

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The first time I heard that song, I misheard the chorus as "like a cheesesteak," and it hasn't left my brain since.

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My boy is finally home 😭 Spent all night cuddling him until he fell asleep. I don't ever want to live that long without him ever again. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

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Not sure about the swallowing part, but a food processor would help with chewing. Chugging a smoothie might go over a lot easier than trying to power thru the yuck. Hope you can find a solution that works well 💖

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Thank you. 💖 My partner has been making a bunch of friends up in Philly, I might ask to go with him the next time he goes. Only reason I haven't yet is because anxiety.

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None of my local friends are like this at all. :c Time to find new friends, I guess...

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Eric Alper @thatericalper.com · 30/11/2024

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