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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞

@throwntohell.bsky.social
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In Bolivia, instead of going to therapy, we go out partying.

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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 20/07/2026
no context
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 19/07/2026
PKEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 19/07/2026
logged in on one of my suspended accounts and lol i was fucking ruthless
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 19/07/2026
:3
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 10/02/2026
true self harm is comparing myself to white transsexuals. comparing myself to elysia crampton is actually based
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 08/02/2026
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 08/02/2026
yeah i can wake up and do nothing about it for days and it’ll look like this. the above photo was just brushed out in the shower and given some leave in conditioner
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 08/02/2026
if i actually put effort into my appearance it looks cuter don’t worry
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 07/02/2026
last time talking about this but i’m back to reading paragraphs of bullshit into my computer for vocal chops
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 07/02/2026
hair is strange because if i actually take care of it it does this
Me, a Latine transsexual with aviator sunglasses and long wavy hair
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 30/12/2025
sigh
Misato Katsuragi with her face in her hand saying “I’m a coward.”Misato Katsuragi saying “I’m such a child.”
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 30/12/2025
one of those fuckin days
Misato theme on Evangelion playing through SpotifyMe, a Latine transsexual with long hair and stubble, looking at the camera
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 27/12/2025
21 now
Judas/Marijane, a long haired Latina transsexual wearing multiple necklaces and a mahogany wool shirt
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 24/12/2024
thinking about moot
a United boarding screen that says Decatur, IL
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 24/10/2024
uh
me taking the quiz and getting 100% for  genderfluid, nonbinary, transgender, and agender
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 19/10/2024
me shittily drawing a cup
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 01/09/2024
i’ve come back to this app to whore myself out for likes
Me, Latine transsexual with glasses, sitting in the sun next to an Aztec dream herb
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 19/06/2024
19 lol
Me sitting near a window without my glasses.
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 01/06/2024
like wtf is this
“And then my phone lights up and I don't have a pit in my stomach at the thought of texting someone. In fact, it's the opposite. My terminally online brain sets off the "omg that's oomf!" setting and I immediately try to listen to the audio messages as soon as l can. Even if it's some of the most mentally ill and depressed messages ever, it's still something I look forward to. I often feel bad that I can't be as effective at helping as I want to but I try to be there no matter what. I've tried to sketch out ideas of possible small ways to assist and I've turned to praying and asking the Infinite to have you not struggle. Sometimes the classic
"Lord giveth and Lord taketh away" thing from my childhood pops in my brain and I think "... is there a way i could suffer more or give something up if it means he's okay. he
deserves to be okay," as I fall to the floor, my head hurting from the intensity of how much I'm repeating the thoughts over and over. lol long again”
“You're STILL TYPING???
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 30/05/2024
this (kinda annoying) girl i know that has majority dated white men just posted this and i have to giggle
Text saying “my older sister said when I die I’m going to snow bunny hell. Girl wtf does that even mean?!”
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 28/05/2024
idk why we’re posting hands
my hand with paint on it
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 28/05/2024
it’s such a silly background
instagram messages with a pink background with lipstick kiss-marks on it (the “Mean Girls” theme). the messages consist of me talking about a chaser i knew and mentioning how he boxes and oomf saying “idfc who he is you got him handled”
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 13/05/2024
An instagram message:
“I think I’m inbred, like unironically.”
My reply:
“am i allowed to laugh”
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 06/05/2024
Me on the floor of my friend’s old apartment in all black doing the peter griffin death pose.
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 02/05/2024
god i love this sign (mandatory “oh shit it me” moment in the stained black and white scarf i got from my late grandmother im using as a head covering)
“Bonk the police” sign at today’s OSU Palestine protest
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 02/05/2024
i want my followers to know i am safe after tonight
Ohio State University’s Palestine protest from today. Everyone is in a large circle around Muslim participants, who are praying.
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 29/04/2024
his artist bio is lowkey pretty cool
An astonishingly assured debut from a seasoned indie rock operator. billyclyde has been making music since the end of the Clinton administration but it’s simply kismet which has unloosed this collection of pop confectionary on the world. For billyclyde, the Beatles reign eternal in heaven but these songs are also artfully leavened with the love of the golden age of independent rock and pop. Harmonies glisten alongside the jangle and buzz of electric guitars. The lyrical content, obviously, finds itself consumed with the effects of globalized exploitative Capitalism and the impending collapse of civilization.
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 25/04/2024
every once in a while i come back in here and lurk because i have nothing to say and it feels so much like this image
Julia, a grey cat, glaring at the camera while peeking out from under a blanket fort.
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 24/04/2024
girl mind your business
Chase notif that i only have $2.34 in my checking
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 21/04/2024
the way it’s actually fermenting
baja mead with a ton of foam
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 20/04/2024
i feel like Leif Erikson stepping onto the North American continent
baja mead rn
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 20/04/2024
THE COLOR CHANGE IS WILD
baja meadbaja mead after a day
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 19/04/2024
i will act as if this is good
close up of baja blast fermentation
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 19/04/2024
“Judas why the fuck did you order 6 baja blasts” BEHOLD!!!
A large fermenting container of Baja Blasts, a bit of baking soda, and wine yeast
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 17/04/2024
not psychedelic but yay mycelium :)
a bunch of white mycelium under plastic wrap
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 17/04/2024
the “Bataillean twist” i mentioned
can’t fit it all here but essentially i compare lolcows to Aztec human sacrifice since the productive energy of the internet is spectacularly used up on lolcows like ChrisChan to produce the same sacredness as ripping out someone’s heart for Huitzilopochtli. I then criticize the way that people thirst for a new ChrisChan since she’s less online now but it fails because there’s not as much of a direct back and forth that builds up the sacred energy.
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 16/04/2024
the funny thing is he didn’t even look like the Unabomber much but he always brought up this pic
Unabomber
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 16/04/2024
taste omg
a screenshot from the A.G. Cook discord server for his album “Britpop”. featured is a “Witchfork” bot that reviews albums.

i submitted Andrew W.K.’s “I Get Wet” and it replied:

“A deafening barrage of fist-pumping party anthems that sound like a heavy metal band playing at the world's most energetic frat house. 10/10.”
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 16/04/2024
here’s art he commissioned of his character
white girl art in purple lighting
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 15/04/2024
very funny how people pretend like i am not the most gross person in the world even though they fully know how bad i am
a screenshot of instagram texts.

them: “possible tmi. proceed?”
me: “i just mentioned opening my urethra like a snake's mouth”
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 09/04/2024
huh.
A screenshot of the Hot/Crazy Scale Test, with the caption: “You are 90% hot, 79.58% crazy, which places you in the date zone.”

Date Zone: People in the Date Zone are attractive, but they also tend to be quirky or strange. Introducing them to one’s friends and family is often a question of hit or miss and tends to come down to the level of craziness that exists in one’s own social circle to begin with. There is nothing wrong with forming a relationship with someone in the Date Zone. In fact, many Date Zoners tend to mature with age, often to the point of becoming marriage material. That being said, it is also possible for Date Zoners to never mature, or to grow even crazier, and thus slip into the Danger Zone. Therefore, one should pay close attention to whether the Hot or the Crazy seems to have the upper hand when dating someone from the Date Zone.
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 08/04/2024
in case any of you wanna read my preliminary sketches
an at the time unfinished email. It reads:

“Hey!
I wanted to reach out and ask if you would like to be my thesis advisor! I've been reading your work on Bataille (+ Deleuze and Guattari) and I feel like you would be the best person to talk to for the thesis!
My current idea for the thesis is connecting Bataille to the modern "shock site" (the coprophilic 2GirlsCup site, for instance) and the ways that their dissemination can queer the internet despite their framing of being
"shocking" or "disgusting" (these ideas will be fleshed out in future dialogue and after much research on my end). Reading your work on Bataille has left me thirsting for-“
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 05/04/2024
dysphoria bingo
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 04/04/2024
gimme ur yeast infection so i can make wine out of it
A large container with an airlock over it and a caption “soon.”
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 02/04/2024
my research haunts me, I saw him in an online space recently and now this.
A screenshot of a macrophilia fetish instagram account with a subtitle: “Followed by [man who I had phone sex with in order to study anime roleplayers]”
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 02/04/2024
also they’re so caught up with theory (which honestly same)
and time consuming. Few agencies are able to commit to operations that require years of up-front work just getting into a "cell," especially given shrinking budgets and increased demands for attention to other issues. Infiltration is made more difficult by the communal nature of the lifestyle (under constant observation and scrutiny) and the extensive knowledge held by many anarchists, which require a considerable amount of study and time to acquire. Other strategies for infiltration have been explored, but so far have not been successful. Discussion of these theories in an open paper is not advisable.
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 28/03/2024
found this in my camera roll
heavily edited pic of Piss Christ
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 27/03/2024
Andres Serrano you will always be famous
“Immersion (Piss Christ)” by Andres Serrano. The photograph features a plastic crucifix submerged in a glass container of Serrano’s urine.
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 26/03/2024
this may be how i post but idk, i have no clue how i post
peter griffin in a straitjacket screaming
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✞ ⛧ Judas Apologist ⛧ ✞ @throwntohell.bsky.social · 24/03/2024
if any of you care, here’s what i did
Lie flat on your back on the floor.
Bring your knees toward your chest, keeping them at a 90-degree angle. The bottoms of your feet should face the ceiling.
Reach forward and grab the inside or outside edges of your feet — whatever’s most comfortable.
Spread your knees apart gently. They should be wider than your armpits.
Flex your ankles and gently rock from side to side.
Inhale and exhale deeply as you continue to rock.
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