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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 27/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] I am so proud to be able to know it says "Sayuri" in Hiragana there lmao. Don't ask me wtf that means I still don't know many words and meanings, but. :D

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 27/12/2024

. . . don't mind the purple haired girl avoiding eye contact. She didn't expect a lady in a bunny outfit would approach her like that.. "Ah.. that sounds good.."

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Marina Sallow @unovanmodern.bsky.social · 10/11/2024

─────｢The Unremarkable Bunny Girl｣───── ⠀⠀⠀ #MVRP #FantasyRP #OpenRP #ModernRP ⠀⠀ A Self OC character for many settings penned by #Unovan FC: Mai Sakurajima (Rascal does not Dream) ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ✗Please do not reply

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 18/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Here it is. Lucy 2.0 lol Or 3.0 at this point

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 17/12/2024

A l-letter!? F-for a date..!? Is that.. l-like a love letter??? She most definitely would go, though..

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Wait, you got ghosted for something that small-? TBF there's plenty of times I don't feel like subbing so I get it, but I have pushed past it and let others Dom even tho I felt dominant myself and wasn't in the mood for it- (I'm a big pushover when it comes to that-)

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] You can expect me to always be direct and blunt when I'm not comfortable, and I will usually give like- two or three warnings before I block or ghost. If I ever take long to reply it's not that I'm ghosting anyone, I probably just genuinely forgot, with how many accounts I got.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] You truly are one of the greatest friends I could ask for.. Thanks. And I'll be sure to rely and lean on you if I need to. Be sure to do the same if you ever need someone to talk to or just to be there to listen to your venting and such.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Oh yeah. I can do that. If you know what I meant by the your lie in april part.. I think I might make a new muse like that, cause honestly, I really enjoy writing them. Might make it a full on secret that is only revealed during RP though.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Remove the cheating and I'm in- Lmao. Cheating is just not my cup of tea, but the other stuff.. Yes. Also angst. I want angst. To have a muse walk into a room with the other one doing sh or something like that, or just the classic your lie in april kinda angst. :)

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Yeah. From when I posted this, basically with the thought in mind that I wouldn't get past December.. Now I'm already looking up, thanks to all of you guys.. I know my mood is like a feather and the slightest gust of wind could make it flip entirely, but I want to believe..

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Been a while since I measured myself but I think I'm around 5'9" or so.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] ... I'll try. That's as much as I can promise, okay..?

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Yeah.. tbh rn I don't have such a big want to end things. It's mostly because I fear how family meetings will go now that I'm starting to open up about being trans and coming out. I think I'll just be bullied by all sides, except my parents, they only act aggressive about grades.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] ... Okay nvm you scared the hell out of me, I want my afterlife to be pleasant, I won't do it-- Tbh I say that now but after the 25-26th of this month that might change again- I feel like my more feminine makeover this year is going to get my bullied from basically all sides of +

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

+because no one will like the shit I make. A simpler, more stable job.. That could work.. This was actually a helpful conversation.. even if I still doubt I'll make it past new year's, I think.. I know what to do if I ever do.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

+doing the stuff I truly enjoy as a hobby, instead of trying to get a more important and advanced job.. Not everyone is destined for greatness. Most people, in fact, I actually feel like it'll be best to do this and at least do something helpful than become an app developer and fall into oblivion+

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Tbf I'm starting to question even that. I do like it.. but studying it is stressful. I feel like.. I might stop next year instead of finishing, if I end up making it through this Christmas -which would be a miracle on its own- and get a simple job to live, and spend my time+

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Maybe one day I would've gotten to know what that's like. Maybe in a different life. All my irl "friends" basically either don't know I'm trans, or know but ignore it and treat me the same as usual. And my mom- well, you know how she is kinda from what I've said of her.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] That's still pretty amazing, honestly, wish I had friends like that.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] I'm glad you're enjoying them, I'm really enjoying RP too, these days But I guess I've put studies too aside, and now my parents are insulting me and yelling at me almost everyday, every couple hours the moment anything related to studies is mentioned- And a lot of other stuff-

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] ... I'll try to do replies on all of my accounts, I don't want to leave anything unfinished.. I'm not sure if I'll make it to new year's at the rate my depression is going right now- Family meetings will just make it worse I think, so.. I'm sorry, everyone. I really am.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

"Ah.. I don't know.. reading and drawing..? And coding! Oh, and also playing a lot of videogames, mostly rpgs.." She seems to have become a bit less shy- no, not shy at ALL now- just rambling on and on about her hobbies-

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

"Ah.." She blushed, before looking at Wendy.. nodding softly without giving a verbal answer.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

"Ah.. yes.. nice to meet you W-Wendy.." She blushed.. unable to keep eye contact with a pretty girl--

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

She looked at Wendy, smiling softly.. "Ah.. heya.."

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

Well, if she's being completely honest, Wendy should.. Probably approach sometime this year, or Lucy might be gone. That's one of the things in her mind right now, actually.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Should totally be depressed together and all that. :3

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

Ah-- Well, she's anything but cute.. At least in her own opinion.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

Her? Lucy is a very common name, so--

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

".. yeah. Some dreams must be.. just dreams."

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

"Way too much, haha.. but I like it a lot..!" She smiled, feeling a bit positive- something unusual for her. "I spend a lot on the hairdresser to keep it like this.."

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Same here, I used it before too, but they have basically made it their own thing, so.. I don't really use it now, I just put TW for Dark Themes and such, and list them.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

"Hmm..? Ah, thanks.. and it is, yeah!" She smiled, enjoying the compliment to her hair.. well, she figured it was a compliment, given their tone and how they also complimented her clothing choice..

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

"Oh.. we could maybe go to the aquarium." She said, keeping her smile through the pain. She didn't.. really want to do anything other than maybe lay down in bed and hug them for hours as she fell asleep.. but that wasn't a good date plan! At most an afterdate!

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

"What..? How much did you dri- oh, come on.. let's get you to the bed.. it's right here, it should be simple.." She said, sighing as she tried to lift Cass up and into the bed.. "Why did you..?"

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𝚂𝔢𝔱𝔥. || @sweetlysanguine.bsky.social · 10/12/2024

‎ ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ‎ ‎ 🔻 ＣＷ 🔺 ㅤㅤㅤ \\ 𝚂𝙴𝙻𝙵-𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙼 𝚃𝙷𝙴𝙼𝙴𝚂 || 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐕𝐘 𝙱𝙻𝙾𝙾𝙳 // ㅤㅤㅤ ‎ \\ 𝙴𝙿𝙸𝚂𝙾𝙳𝙸𝙲 𝙼𝙰𝙽𝙸𝙰 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝚂𝙾𝙲𝙸𝙾𝙿𝙰𝚃𝙷𝚈 // ‎

1. https://danbooru.donmai.us/posts/7612221?q=red_coat+from_below+
2. https://danbooru.donmai.us/posts/5202295?q=red_coat+from_below+

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𝚂𝔢𝔱𝔥. || @sweetlysanguine.bsky.social · 10/12/2024

‎ ㅤ Huh-? What's up? ‎

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 10/12/2024

"I know but.. I don't want to live.. it's all.. so painful. I don't want to hurt them with my.. disappearance.. but I also don't feel like they would feel well knowing I'm suffering through life just to make them happy, right..?" She was crying, sighing into the hug..

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

She smiled, even if she was full of pain deep inside.. she didn't know whether she was good enough for them, nor if she should try and make it through her pain for the sake of one person.. but that one person was Lumen, so.. maybe she'd.. endure life, if it meant making Lumen happy.. a new purpose.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

"..." She sighed. "I don't know. It's still painful to live, even if they are the one person that I feel nice around.. Is it worth it to live for just one person?"

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

A soft pout formed on Lucy's face.. as she interlocked her fingers with Lumen's. "Hmph.~" She wasn't.. feeling sad right now.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

"... I don't.. know. I feel like they're just friends with me out of pity."

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

"... there's only one person who'd care. And I don't know if I'm good enough for them. So.."

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] But- it felt relatable.

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

"... that's fair. Still, I feel like ending it all is.. the best solution here. I'm.. tired. Of everything."

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Lucy @throwawayyourmask.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

"Exactly.. I think it might be better for everyone if I just.. disappear."

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