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Our mother who always needs all things easier for her, to stay in denial. The ex has been silent for what, 3 years? And the liar, with still no answer for how to apologize. So many other animals. I hold up our hand to the moonless night sky, with a symphony of crickets on it. Marais la nuit. 🪝🫴🦗

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 3h

"I want to reconnect with you Sue." "You're still important to me Sue." "I want to make it up to you and be your friend again, Sue." And the quiet that follows is so deep a cricket could balance on each, tip, knuckle, and joint of my claws. Okay. Do it then. Show it, like I did. I still wait.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 23h

No, not like any of those analogies. None of them. Even the ones that seem like they'd make sense. No, not even the inspired ones or the obvious ones. We wrote many to list off the wrong ones, deleted them all. Easier to just say they are not analagous.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 23h

Magpie here. We have a fun form of plurality, I think I understand more easily now. It is not about fronting and dissociation, although that does still occur. It's actually kind of the opposite, it is about who (in blend or isolation) is actualizing being Sue.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 23h

My name is Sue. Thank you for coming to *my* performance. 💚

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 23h

The only wrong choice is using words that aren't your own. And you never will, even if you don't understand how you already do. I know you. You won't do it.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 23h

I cannot be any other way. I am always footprints in the snowbank. I cannot describe it in simple words. It is not anything else. I have never seen other people describe themselves this way. I do not think many people ever come close to understanding how to see themselves this way, and never will.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

This way of being non-binary is not a way of being non-binary, because there is no path. There is NO PATH. When I walk into the snow, there is no path. Any choice is right, so long as it is willed. It is not about walking into the snow with no path. You cannot imitate someone to be what they are.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

That IS important to my meaning and if you don't understand me, then you can't understand me. So many people will confuse words and meaning. But they are not the same. They will also mix up meaning, meaning, and meaning. But they are not the same. How many different words did I use?

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

You have to use more words and speak less clearly to describe what is not described by one word because they aren't clear. I steal words in my teeth all the time because I'm capturing the meaning of something. When I say it it's me saying it, and what I say means something about me saying it.

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은민 @em913em.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

플라타너스 낙엽 가면🍁

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

If we masked less, creepy old neurotypical women would touch me less. We don't hiss enough, literally, metaphorically, clearly enough. The boundary would be understood. And it needs to be.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

I have known no shapeshifters who knew themselves.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

I am very much the part that is in love with myself, infatuated with myself. It's a good balance to not have too much of me, although amusingly, it's me other people get infatuated with a lot for what they believe is in it's "seeming." Even when I don't mean to seem, I am not painted black. Or am I.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

This is our triangular table for sure.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

Nobody has to be the perfect animal to be cared for, nor compliant to a parasite. But trying to lick wounds for you is hard, when a mouthful of teeth is drawing my blood. When the voice is silent to questions of health. When wounds are hidden by immobility or lethargy and cannot be bandaged.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

It is hard to be caring to impatient animals, animals that bite the hand that feeds, animals that resist being themselves empathetic, resist being patient, blind themselves to their own feelings, close their eyes and forget the past, or rile their pack onto a frenzy against you.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I wish we could share some thoughts more easily, but they're too big to hold in my own hands. There's too much to say.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Some of my burdens are not so large. I can help you with yours for awhile.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

"You dream too hard," says my reflection. But...

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Maybe the answer is walking off into the snow mid conversation. Maybe being nonbinary is to be one step abstracted, or two, or three. I think you must perceive each step, and change to see something else. If you imitate my snow path to be like me, you won't comprehend what about it is 'me' at all.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I don't think you gain true identity this way. If you have absolutely no doubts about who you are once you become yourself, then you haven't understood what has happened to you. Because who you [are] in that way that is brimming with certainty is not as important as you have been led to believe.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Is this not 'the right way' to be a gender? Is this not a recipe for transition? Is this not a TF fetish? Is this not a form of plurality? Is this not a form of age regression? Is this not a form of peer imitation? Does the answer exist, but oh, if only someone could know it *for* you?

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Do you have a fetish for radical change because you cannot internalize the identity of [a being of gradual change]? Is [a magical external power that MAKES you happy with who you are] preferred to [the long action of becoming who you are]?

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I wonder at what time would we appropriately fear my self? But they haven't made the progress, the drawer is not pushed in to hide its contents. Wake my suspicions later, when the intrusive pike have been killed off and conservationist arms are still drawn back to throw another spear into the water.

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mossworm.bsky.social @mossworm.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

like buc ee's but not evil

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mossworm.bsky.social @mossworm.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

more of this worm. he reminds me of a convenience store or gas station logo

three flat color drawings of a long bodied worm or snake like fantasy creature with six wings and a body that is striped with black on top, then blue, then red, and then yellow on the underside. it appears to be crying.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Wish I had saved my feet a little earlier... Maybe if I hadn't been scared and taken it very seriously earlier. Regret is a strong teacher.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Can the world be kinder for her. Please... It shouldn't have to be so painful.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Were too much light, for just one lifetime...

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Ough to turn my head mid response and let you see mid reply who is answering. 💚

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⭐CYDROUD 💜🦐 @cydroud.art · 19/09/2026

Polaris' 3D model is complete! She's real! 🌟🦐 #caridyne #shrimp #3d #3dart #furryart #blender3d

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은민 @em913em.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

매애와 우우의 목욕시간 스티커 도안

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

We smell *good*. And so do they...

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

To capture the images that evoke my feelings. Sometimes~

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

Help me clean up this mess. 💚

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은민 @em913em.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

리미널 스페이스에서 놀아요

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Exhausted from holding a claw outstretched for so long. It is guilt I don't deserve to feel.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Why am I always ordering from the menu...? When I'm the one making the menu and running the kitchen. I might as well take over the restaurant.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

Most of all I love you Because you don't pretend it doesn't hurt, waiting for the world to catch up and see you for your worth, as more than just a neutral tarp to compliment the gleam of some glossy martyr's meat.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

Anyways, trans people are far more important than harry potter.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

And if you understand you are almost certainly not the person I am too far away from. If I am not smearing into a Conceptual Wyrm to you, you do not need to make yourself my fearful summoner or see yourself one in my reflection. It is okay. This is not about you. You are not that kind of creature.

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Scrawl @thoughtscrawl.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

Have you begun this path? Do you know yourself even somewhat? You know more than SO many people beneath you who cannot comprehend anything and don't want to, and want not to. You may be close enough that they don't feel pain to gaze upon, or far enough away that they do. Maybe you understand.

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