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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 11/10/2026

It's 10/10! Only one song was perfect to pull from and write around

So Anxious

You'd think
With today being what it is
That I would believe things were perfect
But we know that perfection is as minuscule as today is in the grand scheme of our lifetimes

Did you get my message?
I know we're still on
And I'm not questioning that
I'm just warding off anything that cause us to reschedule
There are only two time frames
Now and Not Now
I got from the former to the latter
Because my stomach is in a knot now
I'm not necessarily scared
Or worried
But I want today to have no mistakes
As if you haven't been here every tomorrow so far

At some point,
Anticipation stops being only pleasurable.
Worry makes agreed conditions inadequate
You are in my thoughts so heavily
Those thoughts think it's a weight I can't bear
Despite thinking of you
Reminiscing about you
Is all I do
For some reason,
Today is different
And my nerves have tricked me into believing you feeling the same isn't soothing

My brain needs a dance break
I've been imagining it's raining outside
Creating my own bad luck
Opening an umbrella inside
Clear the clouds the same way I do every other day
Focusing on the moment you say,
I'm here.

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 10/10/2026

It's the little things that make me happy

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 09/10/2026

10/09/2026 Been there, Xavier Omar. Hell, still there.

Feelings 4 You

First of all,
You're clinging to the flow of my bloodstream
A continuous journey through every vital organ
Supplying me with the air I breathe
And the functions I need to survive
But that doesn't message the callouses built from touching anything but You
A long time spent numbing my skin to the recollection of Your caress
The freedom from Your legs wrapped
Pretending like the sensations don't register
Distancing from the memory
To act like it doesn't hurt
Even though I know I've never felt anything like I've felt with You before

So hear me out
I have a high pain tolerance
But if ignoring pain helps You with mending,
Then forget I mentioned anything
But I can't being the prices of healing unless I acknowledge
That something isn't right here.

Second of all,
You perform so well, too
Moving like the lingering is all You and not Us
Wading in denial
Still can't wash me off
We both bathe in holy water
The kiss is anointed
Anything else we try is heresy

So hear me out
If leaving the chemistry at "Cut!" helps with cancellation
But what will You do
When Your costar don't know Your lines like I do?
Knowing it wasn't all for show
But I can't adlib this scene
I need to be directed to action

Guess I'm revealing that I still got
Say You do, too.

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 09/10/2026

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 08/10/2026

[in the key of Mark Morrison] 🗣️ Once again!

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 08/10/2026

08.10.2026 I think my brain is becoming more connected to the words again. I settled into this much easier than I did the first week Almost like continuous repetition fosters improvement. (Aside: I listened to the Loofa version on repeat)

Going in Circles

This isn't the endlessness I was looking for
In my mind,
Forever is a destination
Not a stationary bike
This is Love
Not just an exercise

This is what they must have meant by not getting too attached to potential
But what makes life worth living more than the possible?
What I see in You
Is what wishes are made of
The tension of a drawn bow
You've wrapped me in Your finger
Pointed me to the target
When will You let me go?
Give me a little hope
One small thing to cling to
Because Your pull on my strings
Is more puppeteer than Archer
I ask You again:
When will You let me go?

Usually
Time will tell
If I'm the apple of Your eye
Or the test for Your inner William Tell.

Whether your mythos is Sagittarius or Artemis
What's true is You ought to miss
Me
This
You have me high as a kite
Without revealing I've become a vulture
Unable to move on
Because I'm too high up
To see all that's left are bones.

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 08/10/2026

This was on my mind during my morning walk. Thoughts like these are why I enjoy these walks, even if the thoughts make me uncomfortable and stir up things I may not want to address. From me to me to you. Hope this helps.

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 07/10/2026

Oct 7th Art is my lifetime commitment

This is My Promise

I wrote down some vows
Some of them may seem familiar
Like a song pulled from the back of your heart
An old sweater to wear around the house
Full of memories and smiles and the best parts of us

Next to this oath
Is a lifetime of gratitude
The rest of my days
With you in my hands
Thank you for choosing me
Thank you for loving me enough
To share yourself with me
You are art
And as an artist
I appreciate you
And how valuable you are
How much is eternity worth?
The answer is unconditional love

Better or worse
Sickness and health
I am yours
And you are
Everything
I'll even die for you
Because, "Unto thine own self, be true"
Is what you told me when we met
On that blank canvas
Where Nothing is limitless
And we do the most divine act that I made permanent on my hand
Create

This is my promise to you

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 07/10/2026

I fought the glare of the Sun for these

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 07/10/2026

Every time. This is my answer every time

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 06/10/2026

October 6th Yeah I think this is in my top 10 favorite songs (yes I keep an updated list in my head).

Sweet Thang

Hello?
You don't have to say anything back.
I know You're there
Your breathing is fanning the flames so I can tell You

I wish You were my lover
But You act so..
Under cover, You never deny Your moth-like nature
Wings spread
Coming with me to the light
As if after all this time,
I'd let You burn up now.

The sigh I hear is not relief
Or frustration
Something more.. vulnerable
Like hearing Your name uttered with the reverence it deserves.
The weakness of exposure with the strong desire it craves
Can't You hear me?
Of course you can
You're still there.

And so is my sanity
So,
Love me now, or I'll...

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 06/10/2026

Can you tell which days I'm not at work?

A screenshot of my activity tracker for the week. I average about 15,000 steps every day I work and less than 1,000 when I don't

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 06/10/2026

10/5 This the song: open.spotify.com/track/6TnS1W...

Good Light.

Pose for the picture.
Should I say
Get in position
Considering You know
I know
You like the way I look at You
Because You like the way lenses capture Your best angles
The example of every side is Your good side

What's today's mood?
Tonight's favorite changes with a req--command
Settled in reverence like bent knees
Whether Your back is straight or arched
You are where You'd like to be

The exposure is naturally beautiful
Contrast where it matters
Saturation where it matters most
Turning a moment into forever
An instant into infinity
And then we intertwine
Because You're so good at making love to the camera.

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 05/10/2026

Y'all see it. And they ordered two and got three. Like I said, extra in the order. This is bigger than money. This is community work. Etsy: treasuresbytillman.etsy.com Custom orders: bit.ly/TBTCustomForm or message my

Three Virgo themed bracelets with wooden Jasper and tiger eye

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 05/10/2026

October 4th aka urrybody birthday I'd never listened to this until 10 minutes ago and wrote this using a couple lines

Cheap Champagne

Forgive me, Lord
I have sinned
But surely,
You out of everyone can understand why
I mean
Look at her
You made her
So You know how worthy she is of my hard earned income

I emptied my pockets for her
Reach deep into my account on account of dog what I can for her
You said
Give it your all
So why do I have to be broke?
And why is that an insult?

But You say I'm not broke
That explains why You wouldn't be bothered to fix it
Everything according to Your will
If this is what I get for believing in You

Nah, that's both blasphemous and a lie.
You love a cheerful giver
But not enough for me to have enough to give her what she needed
The kind of transaction where I say
"What's the damage?"
Instead of
"How much?"
Because after giving her my arm
And her giving me a leg
This still costs a heart a lung.

I wish I never met her on a Sunday. This is more than weekly tithe I give so freely
This is offensive, blessing and sacrifice
For a salvation I won't see until the End of Time.

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 02/10/2026

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 02/10/2026

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 02/10/2026

If we're gonna die from global warming, I'mma make it look sexy

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 02/10/2026

October 2nd. This [poem] is about the greatest heartbreak I've ever known. (No it isn't, but that's how the song starts) That Raye album is so good

Nightingale Lane.

These days
My beating heart sounds like
A house with a creaky floor
I can hear it when there's nothing else to distract me
I can hear it over the pleasantries of home
But I can hear it
The need to be repaired

It's... Old
Not elderly
It's just been here a long time.
I've had this address
Been on this road
Since this neighborhood was in development
And through the many potential buyers
Who saw "For Sale" but couldn't close
The price was too high
The kitchen needed new cabinets
Or saw the signs of flood damage
The windows don't provide enough sunlight
There's no patio
The lights flicker when it storms
But they haven't gone out

Whatever it was
Kept them from moving in

But someone knocked.

Looking for residence
And carried their hesitance through the front door
Upstairs
Warming to the idea of memorizing the steps needed to walk around at night
And how to adjust the thermostat
Not just read the thermometer
Effect change instead of display what has changed
Decorate instead of appraise
Give value instead of just determine it
And it was me
The builder
Who wasn't sure
That I could close the deal
Signed the lease and be responsible for everything and everyone in here
So long as I live

But now,
When I reach that door
Turn the key
I tell myself
I dare myself
To go on and just say it.

I still love You.

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 01/10/2026

So the prompt is to take lyrics from a song and build a poem around it. Since y'all were so adamant about discussing Babyface yesterday, my shuffle found its way to this. October 1st

Can We Talk?

I was told
There would be a conversation.
When You could gather the words
After some arbitrary but necessary time
We could brooch the subject
Maybe it could lead to me being fastened near Your heart
Or unintentionally pricking You
And making You flinch and try something else.

And just like a woman,
You were too shy
And You were the only
So was I
Supposed to be reluctant, too?

But I
Pushed through hesitation while still waiting
And I
Hoped You could just set aside

Sixty seconds
Long enough to know
If I got it right
Or the moment was not right
Or Your feet are cold and I'm not the source of heat You're looking for anymore
Your breath, a spark to start a fire
The
Maybe You can come back to keep it burning
Or blow it out
But I'll always smell You lingering in the air
And make a wish that if
We ever come close again
You'll know what You'll say them

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 01/10/2026

It was not this dark at this time just yesterday. One of my favorite things about walking as the days get cooler is noticing the changes in the sky

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 30/09/2026

Only allowed to sing this at Max levels

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 27/09/2026

Photographer Mark Moore during this session two years ago: "If you had a color you thought was you, that was around you, what--" Me: "Red."

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 25/09/2026

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 22/09/2026

Seven years. So far to go. Treasures By Tillman is the place I make you unique handmade beaded jewelry filled with good energy. IG: treasuresbytillman Etsy: treasuresbytillman.etsy.com Custom orders: bit.ly/TBTCustomForm or message me

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The Magical Merchant @thetillshow.blacksky.app · 22/09/2026

Oh wow who could have seen this coming 🙄 (this is not my problem)

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