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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

I’ve noticed that my eczema flares up when I’m stressed, but my stress also flares up when my eczema does. It’s like my body and mind are stuck in a feedback loop.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

#Asexuality isn’t a lack of love—it’s a different kind of love. Mine doesn’t revolve around physical attraction, and that’s okay. Romance, for me, is built on shared interests, deep conversations, and mutual respect.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

Sometimes I wish I could explain misophonia to people without sounding dramatic.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

Depression lies, but it’s not creative. It just repeats the same old scripts: “You’re too much. You’re not enough. Nothing matters.”

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

#Misophonia is the reason I’ve memorized the exact decibel and frequency of every sound that makes me want to crawl out of my skin. If only I could just mute the triggers …

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 27/07/2026

Depression’s been loud in the last weeks, but my hands have been quiet. Finished my second crocheted flower today. It’s not much, but it’s proof that even on low-power mode, I can still create something. Pattern by Natalia Erkhova.

Close-up of a handcrafted red crocheted Gerbera flower with layered, elongated petals and a small bright-green-colored center, viewed from above against a plain white background.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

Sometimes I #mask so well that even I forget I’m doing it. It’s like running a program in the background. It drains the battery faster than I realize.  I’ve noticed that the more I mask, the harder it is to recognize my own needs.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 09/07/2026

One thing I could never do is buy things on credit if I can avoid it. Maybe it’s because I grew up poor, but owing money feels heavier to me than going without.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 07/07/2026

Sometimes I catch myself holding my breath while reading—like my brain is so absorbed it forgets to remind my lungs to work. #ADHD and #hyperfocus: the ultimate “ignore all system errors” mode.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

I never understood why people say “just relax” when you’re overwhelmed. It’s like telling a computer to “just stop crashing” while it’s running 50 processes on 2GB of RAM. The system needs a reboot, not a pep talk.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 05/07/2026

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 05/07/2026

Depression isn’t just sadness. It’s also the moments where you realize you’ve been staring at a wall for 20 minutes, trying to remember how to want something.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

I used to think discipline was the enemy of creativity. Now I see it as the scaffolding: necessary to hold up the structure while the art takes shape.  Motivation is a flickering candle. Discipline is the oil lamp. One is beautiful but unreliable; the other keeps burning, even in the draft.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 25/06/2026

I’ve never understood why people treat honesty and rudeness as if they were the same thing. They’re not. You can tell the truth kindly, and you can lie while sounding brutally “honest.”  Sometimes a cruel remark isn’t even honest.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 23/06/2026

Not doing great at the moment. Nothing dramatic, just one of those periods where everything feels heavier than it should, and even small things take more energy than I have available. Taking it one day at a time.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 13/06/2026

Tried #crocheting for the first time. It involved a surprising amount of unraveling, counting, and asking myself where exactly that last stitch went. But after several false starts, I somehow ended up with this poppy—and I’m disproportionately proud of it.

Picture of a crocheted red poppy flower with a green stem and a leaf in a glass jar with a white background.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

Been a bit quiet lately. The past weeks were harder than I expected, and my body and mind eventually agreed that slowing down was no longer optional. Still here, though. Just needed some time to catch up with myself.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

Went for a long run. It’s strange how something physically exhausting can feel mentally calming. Like burning off static.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 18/05/2026

Some mornings I don’t want to go #running. Then I go anyway, and halfway through I remember why I started.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 17/05/2026

When I play piano, it’s not just sound I’m shaping. It’s movement, color, density—like painting in real time, just with different tools.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

My #AuDHD mind tends to go deep instead of wide. It gets lost easily, but sometimes it finds something worth keeping.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

The park at 6am is a different universe. Fewer people, fewer sounds—just enough space for my thoughts to settle.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

Sometimes #synaesthesia helps me remember things. Sometimes it overwhelms me. Extra layers of perception aren’t always a bonus feature.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

Running in the early morning feels different. The world is quieter, softer, like it hasn’t fully loaded yet. Much easier to exist in.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 12/05/2026

I never questioned it growing up. I thought everyone saw music, tasted words, or felt colors. Turns out that’s not standard. #synesthesia #synaesthesia

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 11/05/2026

Suddenly felt the urge to try crocheting—it seems to be everywhere lately. So now I own yarn and a hook, with absolutely no idea what I’m doing. Curious where this goes.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 10/05/2026

Even on bad days, there’s usually one small thing that works. A line of code, a melody, a thought that makes sense. I hold onto those.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 09/05/2026

Started watching the news in #German out of curiosity—and I’m surprised how much I actually understand. Turns out a bit of casual app learning sticks more than I thought.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 08/05/2026

Woke up with my body already tired and my brain already racing. Weird combination.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 07/05/2026

Certain songs feel “wrong” in the same way clashing colors do. I don’t analyze it, I just see the mismatch. #synesthesia #synaesthesia

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

Today I learned something new just because I got curious. That’s one thing my brain does reliably: it wants to understand.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

I started #running to “do something healthy.” I keep running because it gives me a kind of clarity I don’t get anywhere else.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 04/05/2026

I’ve gotten good at reading my limits. Still working on respecting them.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 03/05/2026

Started running recently. Very slowly, very awkwardly—but consistently. Turns out my body complains less once I actually listen to it.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 02/05/2026

My skin flares up when I’m stressed. My breathing gets worse. My thoughts follow. It’s all connected, whether I like it or not.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 26/04/2026

Motivation is a spark. Discipline is what carries you when the spark dies. I’ve learned to rely less on feeling ready and more on showing up anyway, even if it’s messy and slow.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

Bad health days shrink the world down to survival. Good days quietly expand it again. I try not to take those for granted.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

I like how music feels in my head. Not just hearing it, but seeing it. It makes everything a little more interesting.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 23/04/2026

It’s strange how much effort it takes to do things that look effortless from the outside.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 22/04/2026

I often see people complain that kids “don’t say please, thank you, or sorry anymore.”  I’m not even sure that’s true—but even if it were, I’m not convinced those words mean what we think they do.  For me, “thank you” was never something I felt. It was something I was taught to say. A script.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 18/04/2026

There’s a very specific kind of pride I feel when I do something difficult anyway. Not because it went perfectly—but because I showed up despite everything telling me not to.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 15/04/2026

Some days my lungs are the limiting factor. Other days it’s my brain. Occasionally they collaborate.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 13/04/2026

There’s a version of me that functions smoothly. I meet xem occasionally. We get along well.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 12/04/2026

Making something isn’t about being special. It’s about making the inside a little quieter by giving it a shape.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 11/04/2026

There’s a strange kind of beauty in how my mind connects things. #Synaesthesia turns sounds into colors, and suddenly the world feels … layered.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

#ADHD gives me chaos. #Autism gives me structure. I spend most of my time somewhere in between, trying to translate. #AuDHD

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 03/04/2026

There are moments where everything clicks—focus, clarity, energy. They don’t last long, but they remind me what’s possible.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 02/04/2026

I’ve been told I sound like AI more than once. I guess that’s what happens when you overthink every sentence, edit it three times, and try to be precise. Just … with human latency instead of machine speed.

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Cucumber Salad (xe/they/he/she) @thecucumbersalad.bsky.social · 01/04/2026

Chronic conditions teach you patience in a way nothing else does. Not the peaceful kind. The stubborn kind.

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