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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 6h

From the NGL: "If you're concerned about being taken for granted, why continue an arrangement you've already said you want to change?" I'm a coward who can't communicate. I don't want to make the business relationship awkward by not being so easy to work with. I can't get a better deal elsewhere.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 6h

From the NGL: "What changed your mind about topping up prepaids again?" Good mood. That I hadn't paid them for 3 weeks. I only paid for one - I'm sticking to my "no more than 4 in stock" limit.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 6h

From the NGL: "And did you get that reassurance?" No.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 14h

Intellectually, I'm pretty sure this isn't one of those red flag situations. (Though NGLs have said it's a red flag that they asked for prepaids.) The problem is that my psychology needs to receive more appreciation for it, verbally. (Written or spoken.) That I'm an asset & that they're fortunate.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 14h

To answer an NGL: The reassurance I was hoping for was that I'm not being used or taking for granted. That they respect me as a person, and aren't just taking advantage of my kind nature. (This is all in regards to the prepaids.)

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 14h

So if BG collabs don't sell as much, you might be overestimating the number of c*cks willing to pay to watch you f*ck other guys? Just a theory.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 15h

So while it seems face-out BG collabs may be the most highly-promoted videos, do they really sell as much as others - or are they just the most enjoyable for creators to make? (No shame in doing what you love more than what pays the most.)

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 15h

So creators going on about their "chemistry" with their co-creators may not be doing themselves any favours when it comes to selling content? Just a theory. But my observations may be warped, because the only creators I follow, are also in-person workers - which are the real reason I follow.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 15h

A male creator explained that he prefers working with female creators who are more PSE than GFE. Which makes sense, because maybe only c*cks may be interested in watching their "GF" f*ck someone else. So if POV content sells, it may be easier for the watcher to imagine themselves.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 15h

And yet I see many creators hyping their BG collabs. Though they're not selling as much maybe? So the quote makes sense, because I think there are less c*cks than creators think there are, or want them to be.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 15h

Saw something along the lines of "Watching 🌽 is like the Work-From-Home version of being c*cked." And it makes sense, because when people's M*nyVids sales are automatically listed on their social media, the videos tend to be solos, 10-person group seggs, or GG.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 22h

ngl.link/tezmilleroz I may answer on Bsky, or on Instagram Stories (TezMillerOz), so I recommend checking in on both my platforms.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 22h

Aha! The person I was thinking of querying has added 1-hour to their Incall list. Previously 1-hour was only available on their Outcall list, so I'm glad they've decided to even it out.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 23h

But to do so probably wouldn't be wise, in case I'm out of my mind right now. Maybe I'll draft something for now, and decide whether to send or not some other time. I don't want to regress to my reckless spending of last year. Not after I've tried so hard to recover from that.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 23h

I actually feel *happy*. I'm not used to this. Must be the sheer relief from getting serotonin & dopamine from seggsual activity, after going 3 weeks without. It's gratitude. It's a rush of vivacity. Makes me want to send a query without waiting for my (non-infectious) skin conditions to clear.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 23h

Anyway, I've been in such a good mood that I just granted my reg's request for a prepaid, bringing us back up to 4. I wasn't going to do it after consecutive bookings, but since they missed 2 payment opportunities from being ill & waiting for Housemate's work shifts to return to normal...

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 23h

From the NGL: "Sounds like you're adaptable & reasonable when you have clear communication." Outwardly adaptable, and inwardly being unreasonably angsty. 😉 But I definitely benefit from knowing the state of things & where I stand. Uncertainty & the unknown are not good for me - as you've witnessed.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

From the NGL: "Did you raise your angst with your regular?" No, I did not.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

Unsure why the phrase "you may ask a favour on this, the day of my daughter's wedding" came to mind just now. Think because of the rare happieness, doesn't happen often, so I may be nice for now, but don't push your luck too much. (This is good, people - it means my humour's back!)

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

696 words. I was so good & disciplniied that I got it all written before naptime. 2 brilliant naps before dinner. I haven't slept that well in so long! Amazing. Edited the writing in the evening, so it's done & I can go to bed early. Actually feeling kind of...happy? I'm not FULL TEXT IN ALT.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

I usually do hair removal, but the hair's around skin tags and ingrown-hairs, and I can't stand to look at that region of my body right now. I feel hideous in what's supposedly a c1s woman's most seggsually appealing area. No wonder I'm reluctant to send someone a query while I still look like this.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

Anyway, I've explained here all the little circumstantial things over the past month and a bit that set off my autism & depression & lifelong psychological issues. Nothing directly happened. Just minor adjacent issues that stacked up to make things seem like a bigger problem than they are.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

But I'm only involved in FSSW. 5ugar dating seems like another world with different expectations. Like, I worry about coming across as entitled as a client. I don't want to nag. I do want to feel valued for myself (in addition to my money), but I know I have no right to feel entitled to that.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

On another note, I'm due to get treatment on my skin tags in a month. I've decided that after that's done, I'll make a booking request to someone not my reg. One of my few splurges, since I've been good with saving my money this year.

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Pinche matcha🐿💕🍝 @cinnamoncotton.bsky.social · 20/02/2026

YES They blocked a sex worker that I know who tried to comment under their post citing actual research and stats 💀

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Pinche matcha🐿💕🍝 @cinnamoncotton.bsky.social · 20/02/2026

They're called decolonizefeminism on Instagram 🫠🫠

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Pinche matcha🐿💕🍝 @cinnamoncotton.bsky.social · 20/02/2026

I had to block a person who supports the Nordic model cause reading their bullshit made me feel literally sick with anger, I fucking can't

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

FSSW may be the most financially lucrative part of the industry. It warms my heart when I come across FSSWers online who seem to truly find working with civs rewarding - and not just because of the money or being spoiled.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

ngl.link/tezmilleroz I may answer on Bsky, or on Instagram Stories (TezMillerOz), so I recommend checking in on both my platforms.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

Earthquake, 2:11am. I'm east of Melbourne.

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Tez Miller (she/her/hers) @tezmilleroz.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

I like my lovers how I like my eggs: Cage-free. No to L0cktober. (Don't mind me, y'all. Just trying out my humour.)

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