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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

going on the second date with him today and im already irritated and put off by this

relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

moving out and living by myself has been great for me i think i have way less meltdowns but unfortunately when i do have them now they are 10000x more intense and it makes me so much longer to regulate myself and the smallest things are the ones that make me spiral

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

went on a date with someone a couple days ago and bc im such a delight and ray of sunshine and so irresistible he asked me out again for this weekend but i think i came to the realization that i actually maybe dont wanna date seriously and i actually dont want a relationship and i dont know what to

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

lyft driver played maluma baby the entire drive home feeling Stereotyped

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

i broke my glasses tonight im gonna kill myself

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

im staring at an empty sky and im going home alone and i cried every second i was alone and every second someone thought no one was looking i was grouped inappropriately so like what is the point

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

i think im the problem and im never going to be fulfilled

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

im in so much pain i have bruising everywhere i cannot get comfortable because every inch of my body that rests against anything has a bruise and it hurts my bones rest against each other and that hurts too i wanna die

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

feeling sixteen again frantically searching How to Act Normal i actually hate it here so much oh my goooooooooodd

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

i moved into a new place got here on the tuesday have only used to kitchen to get ice and water bc im nervous and have locked in so hard bc im in a new city and feeding myself has been stressful and roommate sent me this text like how do i tell him im basically agoraphobic and im staying in my room

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 24/07/2026

it makes it so hard to maintain interpersonal relationships and i know im in a prison of my own making but im so lonely i wanna dead kill myself im fully of the belief that life is about the people you have and love but like bro if i dont have anyone then what is the point like i dont wanna do it

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 24/07/2026

i hate having bpd so much split hard on my fp and then completely like isolated myself bc of how bad the split was i was barely responding and now that im trying to talk to him again like some that i care deeply about and the relationship like it's not the same

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

i dont and never rlly calorie counted before and i feel like im not eating much more than what i used to and i feel so huge then i remembered im like lowkey drinking so much alcohol do we think thats why

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

tw take me baaaaack im so fat rn i didn't appreciate what i had

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sanrio daily @sanrio-daily.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

digital keroppi pet 💫

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

accidentally tried to gain weight bc i had to see my pcp but i decided like the day of to cancel and i accidentally gained up to 110 lbs i feel so fat i have been able to go down to 104 but ever since that happened i haven't been able to lock in and get under 100 anymore

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

my ex used to have cannibalistic ideations and when we fucked he would bite me really hard like i would get bruises bc he would bit so hard and when he would eat my puss he would always do it under the covers and bite my legs and shit so bad while eating it do u guys think that means something

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 26/05/2026

my mom moved out and i am trying to distance myself from my fp bcbi dont think that relationship is healthy i am Genuinely going through the Worst suicidal ideations since like forever im severely going through it

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sanrio daily @sanrio-daily.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

sanrio bumblebees 💫

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

i feel like the only reason i haven't gotten fired at this job is bc my boss doesn't want to hire anyone else so he would rather deal with the mini catastrophes i cause than dealing with hiring someone else

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 09/05/2026

i went through extreme highs and lows today i truly hate being mentally ill i wish sometimes i had the courage to actually do it when im going through it one time like this shit sucks and like i know but like understand that i also live the fact that it gets better but it doesn't go away yk

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 09/05/2026

trying to express your emotions and immediately being villainized i love that : )

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 09/05/2026

wanna self harm so badly omg i have not had a bpd episode like this in so long and im not even home im literally gonna like institutionalize myself

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 07/05/2026

luv wearing lower cut shirts and moving my arms and seeing my sternum pop and move with my arms hehe:3

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

the other day i was on a date and i wanted the guys birth chart so he called his mom (i found that so hot i almost crawled under the tabled and sucked him right then and there) while he was getting the info for me we were joking and i said i needed his ssn and he started telling me that was v hot

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

this guy on hinge just said that *i* need to take HIM out to dinner like boy if you dont get the fuck out my face do i look like the kind of girl that does that shit

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

ugh i missed being a hot girl in the sense of like when twt was a dating app bc of the like social ecology of the app im so horny

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

am i a cunt for getting upset for at my mom texting me questions that she can google 🫣

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 04/05/2026

do yall think my ultra conservative LDS boss thinks i look like a slut wearing this shirt

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 01/05/2026

he asked me if i know how much i weight and i was like immediately overwhelmed with so many thoughts bc like do normal people know how much they weigh? would it be like more normal to lie and say more than how much i actually weigh or to tell him how much i actually weigh or to tell him i dont know

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

is it bonding to tell ur friend thats lowk more than friends but not more ambiguous relationship about ur recent hookup bc your highkey having a freakout over it and also you were lowk thinking about him during it

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

im trying to be so normal but like while i was sucking his dick he whispered that i was making him so good and wanted and he thanked me and now he hasn't texted me back and like im now realizing this is exactly why im jot intimate with ppl off rip bc im insane and not stable and like what is THAT

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 28/04/2026

you know when a guy is touching you in a very clearly body checky way like why do nondisordered people do that like what compels men to do that like especially in a like a sexual context yk

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

i think i luv him in the sense that he's my friend and i love giggling and i do that w him all the time and he makes me feel like je thinks of me bc he's my friend yk :3

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 11/04/2026

there is something so sickening about being a fat girl with your collarbones showing

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 08/04/2026

my guy im talking to is apparently 6'3 and he is so beefy im size kink is going 😵‍💫😵‍💫

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 06/04/2026

i saw him dress up like superman and slick his back one (1) time and it was like a like a countdown

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 06/04/2026

do u ever psychosis urself into being horny for someone? happening 2me in real time rn

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 02/04/2026

i dont want a relationship omg im so scared im so scared i lowk dont wanna have sex w him im so scared i dont know what i want im so scared pls help

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relli ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ @tearsoakedbaby.bsky.social · 31/03/2026

i was kidding manifesting that this guy was gonna invite me to spend the night and then HE DID my mind is this fr 🪤

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