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odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 05/12/2024

I dontlike how I feel right now, kinda paranoid and on edge uggh

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Im going to eat a lot today to reassure my partner, I hope I dont gain, I will try and exercise tonight but I'm sure I will be too tired

140

my leg hurts so bad, im gonna go get stitches today i think

it's been a while but lord did this feel gooood

040

odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 03/12/2024

how to convince my family that bmi 16 is not deathly thin and i still have 2 bmi points to drop

160

im gonna go walk around town for a few hours

odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 01/12/2024

if I semi recovered in december how much would I gain, I could relapse in january and get back down to my lw next year... maybe I could find my metabolism and loose faste but that's just wishful thinking

080

odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 01/12/2024

tmi but I'm waiting to weigh myself till I shit bc I haven't in like 3 days and I bet I'm gonna be so much lighter 😭

odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 01/12/2024

how much did everyone loose in november, i lost a total of 1.8 kg :/

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odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 30/11/2024

look who i got at the mall today

2100

odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 29/11/2024

im basing my cal goal off my steps next month, so if i get 9k steps i can have 900 cals etc.

070

odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

happy thanksgiving!! im not counting calls today but hope i can hit 10k steps

odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 27/11/2024

I want ice cream so bad but that will put me over my cal limit grrrrrrr

040

odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 26/11/2024

i cant do anything right i make mistakes everywhere i go over and over again no mater how hard i try im a failure and should go die in a hole

odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 26/11/2024

i worked a shortened shift today tell me why it feels so much longer

odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 25/11/2024

ate like a pig today I want to kms why can't I just have restraint

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odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

there was broccoli in the cafeteria yesterday so I didn't bring a lunch today hoping I could get cooked veggies or a salad and th only thing in the cafeteria today is mac n cheese and hamburgers 😐

030

odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

egg and protien yogurt for breakfast tomorrow, lunch will be something small from the cafeteria and hopefully my partner doesn't drag me into eating dinner twice which happens too often

170

odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 23/11/2024

first rain of the season (≧∇≦)b

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odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 23/11/2024

I was doing so well staying under 500 today and then I had a slice of cake (눈‸눈)

140

odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 23/11/2024

I'm so hungry but I'm going to go to bed so I can't eat any more

030

odie ౨ৎ @sxpphorexic.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

im gonna try and omad ben and jerrys sometime soon

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the day I choose to recover I know I'm going to be so much happier but the fear of gaining is too much right now

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playing a game where I take a bunch of sleeping pills and then try to stay awake

my partner is ordering pizza and I know it's intentionally to get me to eat