iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 11/11/2025

There is really no way a person can handle being conscious of these things. I regret looking into it, I regret finding out, and I feel like there's no way back and I have to live with this now. My past is worse than I could have ever imagined. I want my amnesia back

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 11/11/2025

I feel like I distanced myself quite a lot from social media lately... I'm just making art quietly. My mental health hasn't been the best, I'm considering stopping therapy. My therapist is ok it's just I feel like digging into my past is only bringing me pain. Maybe all amnesia did was protect me.

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

I'm a non practicing libertine with social anxiety and trauma

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

Being a poly whore (positive) at heart and severely sexually traumatized is so unfunny it's almost comical. Fuck my life

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 03/08/2025

Oh same there. Never to complete strangers.

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MR GALE MICROPENIS @galeafterdrk.bsky.social · 19/09/2023

Sadu X Cirina

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Cirice's Grave @ciricegray.itch.io · 26/07/2025

We deserve to just go to a pharmacy and pick it up over the counter. Fuck medicalization

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 26/07/2025

I think sex is wonderful and I enjoy it but I don't feel attracted to people's bodies! I can appreciate them aesthetically but that's about it. I enjoy being intimate with people I like for who they are (romantically or not)

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 26/07/2025

Realistically I'm somewhere on the ace spectrum. I want intimacy but I have never really experienced physical attraction. It's hard to explain and might not make sense to some but it makes sense to me.

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Ghost Dandy Mi @ghostdandyandco.bsky.social · 25/07/2025

PSA, because some how folk still don't understand: Asexual ≠ doesn't want sex. Asexual in fact = experiences little/no sexual ATTRACTION You can be ace and desire relationships. You can be ace and desire intimacy. You can also be ace and desire neither That is all

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 23/07/2025

I think I would have preferred not knowing

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 23/07/2025

I look okay and think I'm still fairly functional. But inside I'm feeling something I can't describe.

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 23/07/2025

CW csa I found out I was sexually abused by a group of people when I was around 6 years old. I had no memory of it until a few days ago and I'm dealing with some pretty bad flashbacks. So bad they almost feel real. I asked my therapist to see me earlier than scheduled, and spoke about it today.

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😈🌕🗡 | Daughter of Dragons @lilbittymonster.bsky.social · 16/07/2025

You're allowed to enjoy your ships on your own. You don't need to join that discord. You don't have to follow that big name artist/writer/meme maker. You don't have to accept the popular fanon headcanon. You can just enjoy them how *you* want to on *your* terms. You don't need anyone's permission.

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 18/07/2025

In a different life, maybe. It would have been nice.

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 18/07/2025

Had a heart to heart with my partner because I have feelings for someone and I'm just glad I can talk to him because I feel pretty upset over it. This person is married, and as far as I know, not poly, so I just think I'll never tell her. Hopefully it'll just pass.

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Dr. Aggro @draggro.bsky.social · 03/06/2025

Every single person trying to stop pornography from existing is either moronically delusional, deeply unwell, or hatefully nefarious; and every single person in the first two categories inevitably serves the ends of the third.

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 02/06/2025

the website is exactly what it says on the tin

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 02/06/2025

casually scrolling on manydicks because I forgot how to draw peen. if I told my younger self this would be part of my job now, I wouldn't believe it

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 25/05/2025

yeah I just watched it and tbh he did a great job explaining things

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 25/05/2025

I'm surprised he managed to make a 40+ minute video on that lol. It's so clear that it's bullshit.

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 25/05/2025

I try not to blame myself for all that, because I was 18, came from being locked in a home where I was demonized, abused and exorcised, and nobody helped me. I didn't know better

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 25/05/2025

not quite, I don't know much about scientology tbh

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 25/05/2025

he was a university professor and I trusted him. he was the first person that listened to me and tried to "explain" my experiences... and now there's videos of me out there I can't take down. even a movie. I'm grateful I'm changing name and gender tbh for this reason as well

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 25/05/2025

I knew him personally and.. it was such a dark time in my life. man mistook my (then undiagnosed) DID for his theory that aliens lived inside our heads. told me "you hate being a woman because a male alien lives in your brain". I don't think about that often but I think it traumatized me

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 25/05/2025

saw videos circulating of some "researchers" finding stuff under the pyramids (probably jumping to a lot of unfounded conclusions tbh) and they named them and I was like... oh I know who that is. I didn't know the man was still alive and still on his alien "research" bullshit.

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 22/05/2025

I'm not suicidal. Just grateful I'm not immortal

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 22/05/2025

therapy can't save me and I am trying to come to terms with it. I just think that when I die I'll give thanks, if I am lucky enough to be aware it's happening. I felt this way since I can remember, and it hasn't changed so far. even if I consider myself mostly happy and safe now.

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 22/05/2025

sometimes I think if there's a god, a creator, they must have made us aware of our mortality so that we could endure life with the comforting thought that the horrors won't last forever. I'm okay now, safe, living a better life. But the damage done is too much and I have to live with it

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Marcie @marstruc.bsky.social · 22/05/2025

out here reclaiming warlock as a gender neutral term

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 22/05/2025

ok not in a serious way but my thoughts kinda go there every time

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 22/05/2025

are you ever mildly inconvenienced and immediately think about being euthanised

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 21/05/2025

Oh I can definitely understand people being weird and inappropriate. It happens to me all the time (and my partner is sick of hearing it fghjk) I just meant that if they're complete strangers, it's probably bots.

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 21/05/2025

you don't know them I assume? it's probably bots... I think it would be very weird to flirt with someone you never interacted with before on here...

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Pointy Ears🔞 🏳️‍🌈 @pointyears.bsky.social · 20/05/2025

BG3 girlies with my tav

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 20/05/2025

Idk if I look like some swole gym bro trying to get his hands on steroids to them lmfao (I don't) of course it's not a random note 😭

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 20/05/2025

Now they just called me from the pharmacy after they held my prescription and checked it to say "oh it's actually valid, really sorry you can come pick up your medication now" Every fucking time lmfao

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 20/05/2025

and every time I try to get my medication I'm treated like I fucking forged the prescription lmao like... believe me I wouldn't go through all that hassle when getting it through illegal means is cheaper and easier lmao. Makes me want to go back to DIY I'm SO FUCKING TIRED

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 20/05/2025

It's always problems and issues when getting hrt at the pharmacy because I'm in a limbo where getting a prescription here is impossible unless you're willing to travel to a different city for multiple visits (I don't drive so that's a no from me), I have a prescription from a doctor from my country

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 15/05/2025

If you see this and your first reaction is to DM me to ask about it, don't. I appreciate the intention, but right now I just want to be alone.

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 15/05/2025

I think I will try to keep to myself a lot more. I'm not in the right headspace to deal with any more people hurting me. I might miss out on meeting new, wonderful people, but I can't risk it

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E C M @ecmajor.bsky.social · 14/05/2025

if NSFW art becomes illegal i guess i'll become an outlaw, a rogue, a scoundrel obviously what i mean is, that's not going to stop me 🙄 when laws are ill-conceived, they get ignored. when laws are unjust and designed to do harm, they get broken with gusto and pride. that's just how it works

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Truckstop Vigilante @brenthor.bsky.social · 14/05/2025

Online dating is a horrible chore bereft of humanity or civility and will no longer debase myself with such horrid pursuits. Im gonna meet someone the old fashioned way, by rarely leaving my house and being off-putting and weird when I do.

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Rico, hausfatha of WAWG & short king CEO 🧞✨ @epereza22.blacksky.app · 15/05/2025

Yes, they have a sexual side. Yes, you may find them attractive. No, that does not mean they’re required to reciprocate anything or explore their sexual side with you specifically. 💛

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 14/05/2025

My needs and boundaries should be respected. I hate that I crave human connection and I end up being used and drained of my energy while the other person doesn't make an effort to see me for who I am. Just a means to an end. Maybe loneliness is better than feeling like this.

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Suren 🌿 Theo @surenetc.bsky.social · 14/05/2025

I need to get better at blocking and cutting people off. I have already very little energy, and I'd rather focus it on friends and loved ones that actually care about me as a person, and make an effort to get to know me. But instead I sit here and worry that I'm hurting people's feelings

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