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Skipperdee's Art - Replitober! @skipperdeesart.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

#Replitober Day 9: Volcano Draken Prompts: Lung Dragon, Fire, Volcanologist #megaman #replitober2026 #mmoc #megamanx

A Megaman X OC based on a lung dragon with fire theming and glasses

☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

Sorry for any concern last time, but please, I'm begging, be aware of any black box labels if you take medications. Those things can be deadly.

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

Good news I'm finally. Finally. Not in pain, or sick, or anything. Im just existing, and starting to draw again Like, my urges to draw are back I'm hoping the worst of it is over, and I can finally get what I need to ( like keychains. God. Fuck. I'll finally have the funds again I think )

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Eughgh. I might log out for a while, I'm unsure. My head feels like a mess from this year, despite the positives.

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Sorry about the crashout, I did not realize I was given black box warning medication. I'm just glad I stopped it early before it escalated further. It is however painfully honest on how exhausted I am. Chronic pain is miserable.

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

If I can manage to draw, apologies in advance if its more... negative. I'm just tired and in pain. I miss existing.

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

I'm sorry. You are all so lovely. Thank you for your support, and I'll do what I can when I'm able. But I needed to be bluntly honest. I'm extremely tired. I don't want to sleep more, I just want to exist. But I feel so. I don't even know anymore. I just hate it.

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

But I can't. And I think that's what upsets me the worst. I'm sorry I've been quiet, and avoidant, and unable to be reached most the time, I have no energy. I'm expecting a blood draw later this week. I'm tired of setting constant alarms for appointments, or when I had to go to 3 clinics in a day

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

so useless. And I hate it. It isn't fair I'm used to so much nervepain. That I still remember how to use a wheel chair. That I need a cane when I'm not even 30. That I need so many meds to function properly. I feel drained. I feel like I drain my support system. I want to do so much.

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

keep to anticipated deadlines, but I'm so tired of being ill. It's maddening. It's genuinely upsetting. I feel like I'm going crazy just. Being in constant pain. I feel so useless. I feel so bitter. I feel so angry, I want to cry, but there's nothing. My sudden worsening disability makes me feel

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

This is scary. This is exhausting. I genuinely want to hide in a hole and never come out again. I feel so bitter, and angry, and upset, and so many horrible things, while still stressing over my commission and keychain load. It's constantly on my mind to the point of illness. I feel bad I couldn't

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

I feel like I try to be positive for others, but I don't even want to do that now. Just make a joke, play it off, act fine when it feels like my body is on fire. When I lose strength in my whole arm, or suddenly my wrist on my art hand can't grip anything. Or my leg caves, or my hip can't support me

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

I'm tired of masking, I'm tired of being in constant pain, I'm tired of wearing braces, I'm tired of suddenly being unable to walk properly, I'm tired of contemplating a wheel chair, I'm tired of pills I'm so, so tired. So, so tired.

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

a point where things genuinely feel impossible. I'm overwhelmed by doctor visits, blood draws, trial and erroring pills for a chronic condition that has decided to flare at its worst. I'm thankful for my support system and those who check up on me, but I'm reaching a total state of exhaustion.

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

This is going to be blunt, I don't know if it's new medications speaking, or what but I'm sorry I've been unable to catch up on things, but I'm extremely tired and upset thar my body feels like it's falling apart. I'm tired. I'm very very tired. As much as I try to stay positive, it's reached

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

Thank you ! And ultimately, this did get scrapped as I had to leave uni for personal reasons that semester. But, it I pick it up again, thank you !!

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

I did not realize cats can akira slide but here we are

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

Tysm, although, I no longer own the character rights

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

In other news, I may finally have enough to get keychains now. 🥹 We shall see in a few days. I ddi get paid, but I wanna make sure I'll be stable for the week

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

forcing a specific style constantly. That isn't me, this new wip is, however.. Still, art will try to be resumed. Be patient as I learn to love myself, and relearn to love my art again. 💛

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

And thru that complexity, it's only now I feel like I'm starting to really try and heal. The constant art style shifts were me just boxing myself up, to meet standards that don't exist, ans it was a self fulfilling ouroboros of a prophecy So, for now, I'm drawing as I naturally do, instead of

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

But that's tied to a whole other ( mental ) condition im going thru remission for... it's a lot of work, and it's kinda scary at times seeing the parts I'm most scared of -- one being an artist and art as a major identity cornerstone I kinda grew to resent Art and I have a complicated dynamic

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

I admittedly have a very complicated relationship with art, and beyond health issues, I just stopped loving drawing for a while. There was always a constant, unhealthy drive to improve with every piece that when coms piled up, I became so destructively hypercritical of it. 🥲

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

Tysm,, ans I have been 10 pills will not be fun to take for a bit however, LOL

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

I'm gonna start memorizing staff names at this point, I already rememberbut I live. I'm being a good sport. Dare I say I'm Rudy Delarune maxxing

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

Unfortunately, I find myself back in the ER again. I'll be fine thankfully, I suspect it has something to do with my genetic condition and muscle stability that comes from that. Got an IV in for now ( I can taste it ) . However, yeah. That's why I've been inactive.

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 05/08/2026

Living away from family is expensive oughghh But hopefully, activity soon again

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 05/08/2026

And that's why I've been so absent. I keep making mental notes, yet, it's hard to think when I'm unsure if my ankle or leg will suddenly collapse in on itself. 💦 I plan to update everywhere else + calc the price of everything. Worst case scenario, the full order will be pushed to friday ( payday )

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 05/08/2026

Any coms I consider outdated now will be updated with better art, I've had time to maybe sketch one doodle to get used to my ipad again But. Please don't ask me for coms for a while, I genuinely have 0 energy for more. It's been overwhelming. 💦

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 05/08/2026

3. Commissions. I genuinely need to catch up, so I won't be accepting anymore for quite a while I had to in desperation. I have not forgotten, however, my circumstances this year have been a lot lately Genuinely the worst, and some of my best, year of my life

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 05/08/2026

Speaking to my doctor about it however ! If I need a wheelchair eventually, I have 0 idea. I do have my cane, however --- that doesn't support my leg when the joint socket fails for a few hours At the moment, that's also another factor in my absence

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 05/08/2026

2. Healthwise, doing a lot better mentally ! Physically however --- I believe I might be growing more disabled to an extent to due a less severe genetic disorder. That has also been a major distraction, it's kind of hard to think of art when my hip goes out and I physically can't walk

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 05/08/2026

1. Moving in my partner has been very crazy, final things just recently got fully unpacked and what not. Timing of everything distracted me from keychains ( on top of surprise bills atm ) Safe to say : between work, I barely have a moment to relax or even think of what I need to do

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 05/08/2026

I AM STILL ALIVE I PROMISE It has been incredibly hectic, I apologize for late keychain updates, I've barely had a moment to relax lately. 🥹 I'll get to my current plan of action below and what's been going on

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 27/07/2026

These will be fully purchased soon ! Issue with my new job's pay came up admittedly — so I'll sort out matters to feel more secure.

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 27/07/2026

I even went to my first local Pride :) it's been happening before Pride Month was officially set

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 27/07/2026

I am alive 🥹 It has been. So hectic as of late omg. I am exhausted, but I am so much happier Genuinely smiling in god knows how long

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

I have done dozens upon dozens of flights, got stuck in immigration and slept on an airport once returning to the US, drove across so many states ( Indiana to Cali once ) However I think this is thr most draining trip physically, esp with med withdrawals. 😭 But I'd do it all over if I had to

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

Big w for lesbians ( how have we not collapsed from exhaustion )

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

12 hours of driving from the literally bottom to the near top of the United States for me feelin like this ( the whole trip is around 20hours and we have over 7 left )

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 19/07/2026

Dude I have driven so much with my partner oh my god

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☀️ | MIDAS — Medical Hiatus. @sun-citadel.bsky.social · 17/07/2026

I have recognized usernames that have come and go through the years, some have even popped back up after years of not appearing. They are my most favorite to see, I appreciate all, but they make my day. 🧡

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