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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

thank you so much 😭 it really, really sucks. some days are better than others and today is one of those better days, so i'm thankful for a breather, but anxious about the next bad day... sigh... eventually this will all be in the past

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

my boys staring at me like they're dogs who want my dinner

Screenshot of Aira and Kohaku from Ensemble Stars Music (Japanese server). They're both wearing track suit maid outfits and staring at the viewer with their heads tilted.

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

thank you sof 😭 things are better so far today, but yeah... it's really unpredictable when they take a turn for the worse and it's wearing on me. but yeah, eventually, i'll be alright

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

looking out at the autumn leaves when i was outside with Rosie this evening, i thought to myself the next time i see this, i hope we're done with this. i hope i don't feel this way anymore. i hope things are better

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

my sincere hope is that this at LEAST gets more manageable by the end of the year, if not taken out of our hands entirely he's declining fast

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

i'm really getting fond of Kanna/Raika. kanrai? despite the sinister air of it all, my heart melted a bit at Kanna poking sleeping Raika's cheek in that MV. and Kanna waving at him from the window

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

dealing with all of this feels like slowly circling a drain. but eventually everything gets down that drain. you just have to wait we're simultaneously getting closer to a breaking point and closer to a solution

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

i've only got my half my skin in this game because i'm not Madara oshi. but it seems like a decent compromise if people want to see Madara and Kohaku back together and if HE doesn't want to bother with a solo unit anymore

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

i don't want Double Face to get back together. and it isn't out of a dislike for DF, it's just that having an oshi in two permanent units is stressful (assuming Kohaku wouldn't leave Crazy:B, but that sounds insane given their popularity) what i would be okay with, though, is Madara joining Crazy:B

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

anyway i'm voting Alkaloid -> Ra*bits and Crazy:B -> Esupuri for the unit switcheroo thing. i honestly don't have strong feelings about the whole idea (i like it, i'm just not super enthusiastic about it) so i'm just switching around my favorite units maybe i should also vote the opposite

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

i should probably get into therapy when he's gone (either dead or in a care facility). for a number of reasons that are largely related to him

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

i would not wish having to deal with a close family member's dementia on my worst enemy. it is absolute hell. but then again my worst enemies tend to have the money to shove their family off into the best possible care with no concern

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

it kinda sucks when your hypervigilance is proven to work because it just reinforces the idea that you need to keep doing it but at least i'm feeling a little bit more sane today as a result. a little

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

thank you, my friend.... thank you 😔

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

i wonder if the halloween event on jp will be esupuri. events take what i consider a lot of effort even just for one 5 star but honestly the distraction might be nice right now...

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

having a big "it's been one of those weeks, pass the yaoi" moment right now

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

anyway i love these bitches so damn much and i want them to kiss and be in love and stay together forever

Official artwork of Kazuki, Enta, and Toi from the anime Sarazanmai all gazing at each other in a circle. Boyfriend behavior.

A screenshot of Aira and Kohaku from Ensemble Stars (specifically the Road To Show movie) eating desserts off the same plate. Also boyfriend behavior.

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

i think ship wars are all rooted in that sentiment, or something close to it. some people respond to insecurity by getting heated and feeling the need to prove themselves. online fights ensue and then others respond by getting quiet and mopey and try to convince themselves they're not wrong (me)

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

speaking of ship wars, all this personal insecurity led me to an epiphany about why they happen. they're all rooted in insecurity. i've absolutely experienced the feeling of "this other ship for this character is also popular, i'm probably doing something wrong by shipping the one i actually like"

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

but this kind of coping mechanism gets harder the older you get. i'm not immune to being affected by the "you are too old to be doing this" comments i see directed at others. it hasn't stopped me, it's just kept me quiet and lonely. i just sit in my corner and make art and fics

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

the ones i love are really, really important to me.... when people say "go to your happy place" when you're feeling down, for me that usually means thinking about my ships. it's something i can access any time without limitations and it helps me tremendously

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

i'm in a rough spot today because of some very real shit happening in my family that is not going to get better any time soon (dealing with aging parents can really suck ass!) so all of a sudden i got to thinking about what could cheer me up and i got emotional about ships...

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

i have a tendency to hold back on.... a lot of things.... and that includes my love for my favorite ships because i feel like i'm being obnoxious or forceful simply by talking casually about it, goddamn witnessing ship arguments from the sidelines for most of my life has scarred me

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

so it's been established previously that chocolate is one of Aira's favorite foods. but one of his least favorite is bitter chocolate, which i assume means all dark chocolate. my boy is taking a gamble every time someone hands him an unmarked piece of chocolate

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

it's SUPER comfy!! i'm so happy i found it~

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

i don't fully believe in the idea that summer isn't a season for crochet, but....... i also didn't really feel like crocheting most of summer and then i started a blanket for Rosie pretty much as soon as autumn started. helps that it's been a bit gloomy and rainy

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

i like all the recent updates. the notebook thing is particularly cool! i have no plans to play EN again. yeah it's got global lims but idk what to say except i felt like the vibes were off last time i played it

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

by the way, i'm back to playing the Music JP server. i found my account info in my screenshots. yes, the maids got my ass, i couldn't hold back anymore, this is my life now

Screenshot of my home screen on Ensemble Stars Music, Japan server. Featuring Aira and Kohaku dressed as maids.

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

floored by how perfect this vintage sweater i just got is. perfect print and colors, perfect condition, perfect fit. also fleece lined so it's perfect for the upcoming season. absolutely going to be a cold weather staple for years!!

Selfie photo showing off the top I'm wearing. It's a long sleeved sweater with a white section on top that has a print of purple flowers, a pink section in the middle, and a white section with one embroidered flower on the bottom.

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

for the Precure seasons: Precure 5 introduced me to it Fresh got me truly obsessed and is when i settled into "don't forget you're here forever" mode Go! Princess has influenced how i want to live my life more than other seasons... or other media, honestly. it's incredibly important to me

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Big O might seem like an odd one here but i included it because it was the third anime i ever watched after Pokemon and Sailor Moon and kinda solidified my ability to take the medium seriously enough to stick with it even for something more challenging

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

did the nine anime thing all of Sailor Moon counts, but SuperS was the biggest deal to me so i included that

My "9 Anime That Shaped Who I Am" grid. It includes: Sarazanmai, Go! Princess Precure, Sailor Moon SuperS, Pokemon (the original anime), Paradise Kiss, Frech Precure, Honey and Clover, The Big O, and Yes! Precure 5.

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

also i'm gonna have to join in the chorus of oh my god they were 🩵🤍 ROOMMATES 🤍🩵

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

i admit i'd personally like to see a ballet theme, but "balletcore" has also been very popular lately, so if they're gonna strike while the iron is hot, now is the time

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

i feel like precure often experiments a little bit with upcoming seasonal themes in whichever season is currently airing and it's hard to ignore that there sure is a lot of ballet happening in tanpuri

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

LMAO i feel like he would wear something adjacent to this ngl

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

hell yes!! i hope he makes so much stuff!! more aprons!!

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

oh my god?? he's so precious??? i love him so much???? HE'S SO DELIGHTED WITH HIS APROOOON (that he made himself i think??) WAAAAHH HE'S SO ADORABLLLLLE

Image of a 5 star card for Kohaku from Ensemble Stars, showing him holding up a partially finished white apron to his body and smiling down at it.

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

i just went to a convention and stayed at the hotel and i haven't checked my finances yet but i want to get deeper into fairy kei fashion which means buying clothes, and i want new furniture (which i did save money for so i guess that's fine) and i want more yarn and i want a yogurt grapefruit juice

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

god i could really go for an awesome kohaai fic that i haven't already read right now. think i might just have to turn to one i have read

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

OH MY GOODNESS I LOVE HIM 💗💕💞🩷💖 he really does have the baseline energy of a quietly annoyed cat who's two seconds away from giving you a good smack

Announcement image for a new scout for Kohaku in the Japanese Ensemble Stars gacha games. He's dressed in a white and black track suit maid outfit with colorful accessories, is blowing bubblegum, and is holding a mop over his shoulder.

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

oh yeah i also didn't think anything more than a quick intro would be necessary or even possible. but i guess i was thinking there were so many seasons that even that would take too much time!! could be wrong tho, would have to draft it and time it to know for sure i guess

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sugar heart 🩷🌈 @sugarheart.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

i've thought about running panels before but haven't been sure about the topic. i think oshikatsu would be a good one, lots of people interested in it i've also thought of like "so you wanna get into precure, let me tell you about it" but this might not fit into one hour at this point idk

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