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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 12/08/2025

My mental health is in the gutter I want to kill myself I can't even starve myself right

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

B/p era and restriction era and maybe soon diet pill era I'm skinnymaxxing

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

Just b/p'd everything I wanted to eat and I got up everything that I ate that wasn't super super low cal I feel so good

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

I've been under 900cals for 4 days without a single serious binge urge even while stoned out of my mind watching Cheech and chong I've been listening to the manic street preachers and walking so much I've lost 6lbs (I was 120 yikes) and I'm so ready to be skinny again I don't even want to eat ngl

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 06/08/2025

Good morning edsky I'm about to try duck eggs (they're from my grandma's pet ducks) in my sandwich I hope this is good

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 04/08/2025

I'm so tired of living this way I miss being skinny and I sure as hell miss feeling alive why does my life suck so much why can't I stay close with anybody why do my friends only try to help out of obligation not out of sincere care I'm so tired

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 04/08/2025

Do any of you guys want my insta I'm not putting it on here publicly but I need more ppl to talk to Abt my ED, the few ppl I could tell Abt my struggles have all recovered and I can't talk abt struggling without being triggering so

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 04/08/2025

I miss og edtwt but I'm never hopping on x again. May just turn one of my old phones into an ED phone so I can have it on there and not my main phone but like. Whyyy would I do that lol I hate the platform I just miss my ed'd friends

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 04/08/2025

I want to sh again I miss being in pain I deserve it bc I'm so fucking insufferable

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 04/08/2025

I hate being me I hate that nobody is consistently here for me because I have no social skills because I was homeschooled and socially isolated and abused so I'm still on the same social level as a kid but I can't practice and get better cuz nobody wants to be around me (1)

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 04/08/2025

Y'all. I had to buy a new skirt cuz I keep binging and I wanted to dress fem but my favorite crop top is getting too tight too I'm going to shoot myself I'm never eating again

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 01/08/2025

HOLY SHIT I DISAPPEARED MY BAD GUYS I was binging like mad but I've been doing better I hope I stick w it

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 16/07/2025

I need to weigh myself but I'm lowkey scared to I think I will soon and then I will eat but I wanna smoke weed first

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 12/07/2025

Gonna omad every day of my period this honeymoon phase is honeymooning

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 10/07/2025

Fruit juice my beloved my wonderful guilt-free sweet treat I could never count your cals fruit juice I love u ❣️

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𝖒𝖚𝖑𝖙𝖎𝖕𝖑𝖊 𝖇𝖆𝖙𝖘. + ˚ ♡ . @multiplebatz.bsky.social · 10/07/2025

if you're trans and/or chronically ill there's like a 99% chance you are actually more knowledgeable than your doctor

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 10/07/2025

I miss how active and interactive edtwt was why r so many ppl on here so boring 💔💔

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 10/07/2025

I honestly look a little smaller at my cw than I did when I was this weight the last time so I think i've gained some muscle 🫣

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 10/07/2025

Anorexic shark coochie board (Except it's on a paper plate cuz I'm poor)

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 10/07/2025

I had less than 300cals of actual food yesterday the rest of my cals were alcohol and I am now 111lbs angel numbers 😇

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 10/07/2025

I may be hungover but I did skip dinner and I did therefore wake up thinner so

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 08/07/2025

y'all idek what to do atp I'm eating less than 1.2k cals every day and I haven't noticed a difference

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 08/07/2025

I'm actually so happy that waffle house hash browns and McDonald's ice cream aren't super high cal cuz they're my favorite restaurant treats

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 04/07/2025

I'm gonna eat whatever today I'm mourning the life I wouldve had if I was not traumatized and if I was born almost anywhere but america

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 04/07/2025

I'm gonna get so drunk tonight I'm not celebrating America tho I'm mourning it

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 04/07/2025

My anxiety makes me want to binge that's the fucking problem my depression makes me not hungry God damn

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 03/07/2025

Imma just fast every other day and 800-2k cals on days that I eat if I can actually keep up w it lol

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 03/07/2025

I feel better now y'all my migraine was out for BLOOD this morning lol I've only had like 500cals today. Aiming for less than 1.2k.

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 03/07/2025

I feel so horrible I'm making plain pasta with Parmesan (only one serving tho) I will fast another time when my health is better

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 03/07/2025

I've been sick throwing up all morning bc of my migraine, I showered and napped a lot of the nausea off, lots of water and a few saltines

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 03/07/2025

Well I may have been having a mental breakdown all day but at least I was so distracted I only ate 3 chocolate almonds all day lol

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 02/07/2025

Why does everyone else get to have friends the one thing that would make me stop being suicidal and everyone but me gets to have it

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 02/07/2025

I'm tired of being so lonely I'm tired of hating myself I need friends and to be skinny but no one actually likes being around me and I can't stop myself from eating when I get bored why am I like this why is my life like this why does everyone else get to have what I want it's not fucking fair

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 01/07/2025

I give up I'm just so sick of this I feel like shit I can't think about anything other than food why is it so fucking hard to just not fucking eat why why why I'm going to cut the fat off of my fucking body

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♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era) @strugglingw000.bsky.social · 01/07/2025

Fuck it's that time of the day where I want to eat everything I'm going to kms I wanna eat so bad but I also wanna be skinny 😭😭

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