iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 04/05/2026

i feel really seen by this. always felt envious of the way others describe this sort of immediate euphoria from hormones. maybe people are just less inclined to share their disappointment. being present and 'noticing' is difficult for me but i try to take as many opportunities to practice as i can

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 03/05/2026

be a good girl for me and rewind that

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 01/05/2026

hhh so effortlessly gutwrenching painting the pictures with these vignettes of different archetypes of groomerbait

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 26/04/2026

thank you for the encouraging words ill keep trying to break the familiar, comfortably miserable cycle of fear, inaction and instant gratification

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 26/04/2026

i will never get enough of the clamoring bells of an angel's song preluding the rattle of golden chains the paradoxical good/bad-ends in your angel stories are also a growing obsession of mine im very normal about little lumi's fate,,,

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 26/04/2026

pov: you're playing with the idea of writing mechsplo but you're not that media-literate and anxious about writing superficial drivel honestly the discussion/perspectives commented give food for thought/research to do better but i also feel more anxious about being annoying and vacuous with it now

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 21/04/2026

not sure how to feel about my drive to make music being reignited by singing and producing a WARHOUND themed 'we are charlie kirk' cover but whatever keeps the channel open i suppose

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 21/04/2026

i observe a constellation of superior queer perverts orbiting idolized artists through my little stalker telescope quietly weeping envious impotence at each glinting quasar of creative brilliance marking another newcomer welcomed into the cluster while my barren asteroid drifts deeper into oblivion

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 21/04/2026

practicing singing rebel songs while out on a run to emulate the ragged exasperated breath of an exhausted pilot desperately trying to keep the morale of the squad high as they prepare to face overwhelming imperial firepower with the mech-equivalent of shitbox pickups with roof-mounted machine guns

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 21/04/2026

vfghh i scroll past such pics all the time why is this one making break into a cold sweat

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 19/04/2026

i was already hoping for an agendahound rebel marching band!! you can join us on the girlframe discord or ill dm you when ive got a part for you

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 18/04/2026

honestly im so proud of the intro it does a great job at delaying the realization of what you're about to be subjected to

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 18/04/2026

thracenuinley high effort sarthaposting from the gang. proud of this beautiful abomination listening to the original for several hours to make this was genuine torture but the suffering makes the process of paying tribute more cathartic

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

going for a run for the first time in like two years cause i will not neglect this vessel any longer praise me pretty please

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 13/04/2026

i just read it and want to thank you so much for writing it

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 11/04/2026

mind sharing the title? or do you not recommend it?

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 10/04/2026

this is beautiful. it resonates. you take yourself with you no matter what, even if you cannot be who you were before. thank you for making this. thank you for staying with what remains.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 10/04/2026

that makes a bit more sense to me. going to have to mull it over a bit.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 10/04/2026

i don't understand. why is sadomasochism mutually exclusive with pack play?

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 10/04/2026

lmao why are you thanking me you've enunciated your feelings very adequately already honestly it resonates and is very insightful thank you for writing it

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 10/04/2026

it feels like a changing tide to me. everyone in the discord harem was a catgirl when i was 19 and now it's all puppies and part of me feels like embracing helps me let go of some shame and repression but another feels like im just doing it to belong/fit in when i've always been kitty-coded before.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 10/04/2026

doing more stream of consciousness stuff in an attempt to do reflection like you told me to but it's difficult to stay the course and not veer into spirals that tend to lead to nothing except excuses to stop trying. doing it where others can see helps with that and tickles the exhibitionist in me

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 10/04/2026

brain, none more of this silly loathing and pitybaiting. be a vessel for the becoming of beauty of truth or become part of soil. believe you me, me. you can do the be to be the do. existing begets becoming even without doing. so you might as well keep doing to keep being. do i make sense? i hope not

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 10/04/2026

stop trying to talk smart and talk fast instead it's a lot more honest really. i mean write smart. write fast hit post don't think. only happy or horny or curious thoughts.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 10/04/2026

the allure of the sensual haughty feline brat is superseded by the pliant whimsy of the needy adoring pup. going through this metamorphosis and calling it neko-death. i lay down my mass manufactured dangly-bell and ribbon-bow adorned kitty ears to rest. i am no solitary predator. i yearn for a pack.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

At first it seems like a whispering, raucous, croaking breath, but it is continuous. The quietest, loudest scream. Distorted white noise whistling with harmonics like screams of the damned. Of billions. "It can get so much worse…" -

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

Between rotting and pristinely preserved, one socket exposed, the other eye trembling, staring back at her with the tiniest pupil. The mouth is open, and it emanates a quiet sound.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

"-if you think it is the weight of the worlds woes you are bearing now you are *sorely* mistaken." She points behind her, and when she turns, she sees herself. Her own head, the size of a building, halfway burrowed in the earth.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

"I need you, dear Princess. I need you to hear them. To keep the channels open. To keep the relay running..." The… tone? "You must… and you will. Because-" Something shifts behind her, a tremor in the ground.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

she feels like she hears a taunting, belittling tone in Her words. But she's probably wrong. she's always wrong. "Embrace that, my dear Princess." Again the tone. Dismissive. Tired. 'Is She tired of me? No, no, of course not...'

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

"To use it to help them, make them feel heard, ease their suffering, eliminate their fears. It is *your duty*, *your purpose*, to do so in my stead." "To stand in the eye of the storm, to endure the confluence of all emotion… It is beautiful. It is *cathartic*."

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

She blinks again. She rarely blinks. From this distance the screens blur into shifting blots of colour in Her eyes. But She is watching. She is witnessing all. Always. Forever "And it is your privilege to channel it all." She pauses thoughtfully.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

"Do you not care? Why do you hide from them? Ignore their pleas?" "Their joy and suffering, love and longing… They are gifts! Their lives, their stories, their deaths…" It weaves its fingers together. "All intertwined."

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

Her voice is two. One buzzing, noisy, pushing through static, a distorted whisper. The other sonorous, melodic, breathy, pleasant, but shifting wildly into ranges she shouldn't be able to hear. Her expression is impossible to read and completely immutable. It lacks all human emotion.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

A colony. She is the only ant inside a massive colony. All antennae are pointing at her. "My Princess. What is the matter?" She stands tall, regal, with open arms, elbows still at her side, gesturing with open palms, the epitome of patience.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

Vast, organic architecture of packed earth and cabling, every conceivable surface studded with receiver arrays and blinking sensor nodes, interlinked with a nervous system of tangled wire-bundles ran along the walls and ceiling. Geometry round and efficient and inhuman. Made for swarming.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

As She rises, the space behind Her begins to render, cast in the flickering glow of Her eyes. Aurora is inside something. Walls perforated with tunnels.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

Skeletal, segmented, of steel and aluminum, equipped in variety. Satellite dishes, radars, phased arrays, guyed masts. Cameras conventional and multispectral. Parabolic microphones aimed in all directions. A tangled clusterfuck of surveillance and telemetry swaying in the dark.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

Slender, pale limbs with flawless skin, adorned with shards of chitinous exoskeleton and small patches of rotting, necrotic flesh. Naked. Voluptuous hips, emaciated ribs, a walking contradiction of comely and corpse. Antennae unfurl high above Her. Not two. Dozens.

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Beloved Shamething @squandrqwn.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

She is beautiful and she is hideous. Vaguely human, definitely feminine. Shallow cheeks wrapping a mandibular mouth, long black hair falling along the sides of the oversized forehead required to fit big insectoid eyes.

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