spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 2him not gonna be around and she's gonna die. that's what'll happen 030
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 14hit's sleeting rn. im cold. im wet and overall miserable 030
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 19hsomeone got kicked out of the store for being racist to one of the cashiers so everyone say fuck that guy 160
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 19hwow that sucks ass dude omg. chronic pain is the worst, here's to hoping it calms down soon 130
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 22him more severe pain. walking feels like getting stabbed. i want to go home because i am miserable but the anxiety goblins are telling me im on thin ice with my boss so im too scared to tell him im nauseous from pain 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼 160
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 10/10/2026part is the operative word. i kind of don't want to get my status card even though it's my right because it feels disingenuous. not gonna get into that can of worms right now though. 040
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 10/10/2026mfw i forget about native hunting rights and that it applies to me too because i am in fact, part native. 140
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 10/10/2026specifically for range shooting. feel as though i should state that. i just kinda like guns i am not gonna take my head off i promise guys in contrary to my previous posts 040
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 10/10/2026deep breath spencer. this is not the time to spiral you have to be up at 7am. 030
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 10/10/2026sometimes i fear i'm just not doing enough. am i doing enough? i don't know. idk if its my fault i'm like this. maybe it is? AHHHHHHHHHH 020
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 10/10/2026i know meds don't fix things. i get that their a crutch, they're meant to help but not fix it. meds and therapy and additional coping skills. but please get me SOMETHING. 120
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 10/10/2026this new job has more structure. more routine. still unpredictable but it's better. i need routine in a job to function. i can do this. 020
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 09/10/2026im not even religious. it's just drip (and yk, literally willed to me) 040
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 09/10/2026only reason i'm not working on thanksgiving is because it's a sunday and i think the fact i wear a big ass cross just made my manager decide to ask zero questions 140
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 09/10/2026working on my day off from my other job dude i literally have no life 040
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 09/10/2026i will get called "young man" and "ma'am" right after eachother by customers 160
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 09/10/2026i've reached that odd point in my transition in which i pass about 30-40% of the time. where people can't quite tell what to call me and it's really uncomfortable. some of my coworkers use "he" and the other half use "she" and idk what to do except stand there awkwardly 160
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 09/10/2026i used to have HORRIBLE chest dysphoria as a teenager. i would wear my binder for 18+ hours and only take it off to sleep (most of the time) and shower (which i didn't do often) it's manageable now but for some reason rn i kinda wanna skin myself. 050
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 09/10/2026i need top surgery so bad. i don't really get chest dysphoria a ton anymore because well i have tits. they aren't going anyway anytime soon unless i cough up 15k for surgery. but i keep getting misgendered at work and its making me feel so terrible 160
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 09/10/2026my dumbest method of coping. aint stupid if it works i guess 040
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 09/10/2026red is the ONLY colour for photos. took these silly little pictures because i keep getting she/her-ed at work and it makes me wanna blow my shit clean off 160
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026i also definitely forgot to clock out for my 15s but i'll let my manager i know when i leave today. it's busy and jesus christ i just needed to get AWAY. 030
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026had to take my break 30 minutes late. store is lwk crazy rn holy fuckin shit 130
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026still haven't called my therapist back. i should probably do that. 030
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026dude i am genuinely such a nervous wreck all the time. i hate this. 130
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026between genetics and an injury my knees probably sustained permanent damage. my awkward gait from it has probably damaged my hips too. 030
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026like. i understand that standing for 7 hours in a day would be uncomfortable for anyone. however. i seriously don't think it should be THIS bad. it shouldn't make breathing hard. it shouldn't feel like, as previously stated, someone is digging up my kneecaps with steak knives. 160
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026finally gonna book that doctors appointment on my next weekday off. hopefully i can compel them to do some imaging on my legs and hips to figure out why i'm in excruciating pain 050
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026yes, my other job requires me to be on my feet but it's 4-6 hrs maximum of 3 times a week. there's enough cooldown for my fuckass knees to recover 030
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026insomnia and my pain have been keeping me up at night. standing for 7+ hours every shift has made it so much worse. i might have to ask my boss for the favour of a stool or something because if it keep going the way it is i will be unable to work. 140
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026i don't even know if that last part is accurate because I'VE never gone for this pain. not that i haven't thought about it though. im just rambling atp man idk 040
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026some days im pain free but today it was hard to think. hard to even BREATHE evenly. 040
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026chronic pain sucks. like. i've been dealing with it for years but it never gets better. sure, i can tolerate more pain than most people, but that doesn't make it hurt less. i'm just better at functioning while in pain i can guess many would go to the emergency room for. 150
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026trying to remind myself that screwing up when it's literally your 4th time ever doing something is pretty acceptable. 030
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026the familiar terror of losing my job has crept back in. 130
spencer ⛓️ @spencerpart2.bsky.social · 08/10/2026i genuinely think having lived most of my teenage years thru the pandemic and doing cleaning for a job for so long have given me a thing about germs in public places bro. 190
