Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 8hThis environment is killing me. It has been for decades. I really really need to escape this place and yet im entirely tethered here. And environments can be people. Yet I cant escape to the one that actively helps me. Not enough anyway, it wouldn't be fair to them. I really need a cuddle and nap 020 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 8hDespite not exactly resting either. It probably done some good. I cant relax here. I can barely become calm. I've only found one place I can actually let myself un-tense and feel safe enough to be allowed to take a nap, and it function. 110 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 9hToday was the first day in something around 1600 days / about 4.5 years that I didnt go out for at least a short walk Im tired. Going for walks has helped my mental a mass amount. But It became a need, So being able to *choose*, to not go out today to escape this environment, idk. Felt kinda okay. 120 0
Reposted by KayduhKayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 19/03/2025Feeling good. Putting this back up. I like me here. Fuck you dysphoria. Stay away. 4131 0
Reposted by KayduhKayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 16/07/2025Living up to the wanna-be-rave-emo ive always been 291 0
Reposted by KayduhKayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 18/07/2025I wanna die. That'd hurt people. So. Instead, I dyed. 4121 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 11/10/2026Today marks 2 years since I started HRT. First year went so slow. Second, a lot faster. Idk what to make of it all tbh. Im certainly happier, certainly living as my actual self. HRT saves lives. Gender affirming care lets people actually live. Feeling a bit odd. Ah well. I guess, Life is Strange. 081 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 10/10/2026Lot of depression walks recently, Again. #photography #night 050 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 07/10/2026Also this is about at least 3 people so dont take it personally. Or do. Noones special. Just be a damn human before else. At least have a dramatic exit or smth idfk. 030 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 07/10/2026If people are going to stop talking to me / randomly chose to ignore my existence. At least have the decency to tell me? If you know me then you know i treasure communication above all else. The amount of friends who disrespect what a "friend" should entail is staggering. 120 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 01/10/2026What other hells are out there? #photography #stars #night 041 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 01/10/2026Sky has been very pretty last few nights #photography #sky #flower 060 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 30/09/2026A particular pretty lady bestowed this top gifted upon me today 🥰 We also had pancakes. Belly full. 271 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 22/09/2026Ill drop you a message on discord after i figured out my weekend~ If i dont, yell at me! 110 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 22/09/2026Da muun Need to get to taking my actual camera back out with me ig #photography #moon 030 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 22/09/2026Wanna hang out sometime? Next week? Im not that interesting nor have funds but i can walk forever and yapp a while~ 110 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 22/09/2026Thank you to those helping me out 🫶 I feel guilty asking. DM me or lmk if i can provide anything for such kindness... Idek Gunna have to put the generosity towards sudden dentist requirements 😭 Shits so expensive. NHS systems useless. Sigh Thank you tho~ 011 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 17/09/2026static.klipy.comGhost Hug: You Can't Feel ItALT: Ghost Hug: You Can't Feel It 010 0
Kayduh @some-x-kid.bsky.social · 17/09/2026Jfc dentists are so expensive. Every single one ive checked in this city "isnt taking nhs patients at the moment". Almost 2 weeks ago i somehow chipped an entire half of a tooth off. Vertically. :> Fun. More pain and more money. Existing is bullshit. Nothing works. 020 0
