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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 10/02/2025

Ok im gonna grt back on my accountabilty thread Grind tmr cuz im getting Cute plates for motivation

mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 27/01/2025

my family keeps telling me i gained weight and they keep saying stuff when i eat like how they did back then and i completely forgot how they used to treat me and its just making me feel worse .. like i was eating Yogurt and my dad said sum like.. but when i weighed less and ate fast food.. no words

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 27/01/2025

yall i rlly dont know what to do ive been in this binge cycle since oct and ive gained almost up to my hw 😔 idk how to lock in again its so hard i used to be so good at this

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 26/01/2025

OMG YALL I THINK I BINGED TO MY HW???? im going insane. i literally start school soon after a whole freaking yr of not going and the whole reason i didnt go back to school earlier was to focus on my ed and now that was useless #edsky #caterpillarsky

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 19/01/2025

omg its been a Min hey yall

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 06/01/2025

yall i literally hadnt purged (by throwing up) since like before oct i believe but today i did and my head hurts so bad and i didnt even do it to get rid of cals or anything i just hated the feeling of food in my body and its like girl just dont eat then but im WEAKKKK and i always give in

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 27/12/2024

its Horrid having to lose what u already lost #edsky #caterpillarsky

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 27/12/2024

i miss my lw and its 15 lbs away are u so serious.. its crazy how it only took oct-dec for me to gain 15 lbs like what is wrong with me thats 5 lbs a month that i couldve been losing.. #edsky #caterpillarsky

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 27/12/2024

yall lowkey i havent cu t in a minute cuz ive been to scared to since i got caught but i literally had bought a 100 pack of blades before that and now i have 100 blades for no reasons idk what to do

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 27/12/2024

Ok ive been adjusting to switching houses cuz yk different food here.. so im just trying to figure out how to get my protein in for low cal and me and my dad agreed that i can get $60 a week for groceries for myself so Bless up❤️‍🔥

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 19/12/2024

changed it to my real name.. maybe i should change it back

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 18/12/2024

Omg and also almost everyone from my elementary and ms goes to that hs.. theyve seen me at my worst and i wouldnt be able to get a fresh start like Yall dont know how bad i was back then… so cringey but also a couple of my friends/old friends since elementary go there too

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 18/12/2024

GUYS IM SO SCARED IM GOING BACK TO IRL SCHOOL AND ONE OF MY SCHOOL FRIENDS FROM MIDDLE SCHOOL SAID I SHOULD GO TO HER SCHOOL AND I WAS SUPPOSED 2 GO 2 THAT SCHOOL WHEN I STARTED HS BUT NEVER DID THEN I WAS SUPPOSED TO SWITCH THERE THIS YR BUT IM PROBABLY NOT GONNA GO THERE CUZ I LIVE SO FAR AWAY THE

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 18/12/2024

yall i literally got my period today and the period hunger got to me and i ate all my cals before 3 pm but i havent eaten since and im not hungry in any way so were Good .. and i slept late last night and woke up early today so hopefully ill fall asleep early

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 18/12/2024

accountability thread🧵🪡 #edsky

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 17/12/2024

i made “Canes” at Home and a lower cal sauce too it was kinda good and it was a lot so now im full but i barely got peotein in so i Must drink a peotein shake 😝

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 16/12/2024

yall Ik this looks kinda sad but it was So bomb.. I love alfredo but i think i added a little too much garlic next time ill just add a tsp instead of 2

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 16/12/2024

Is it bad that i know 1200 is a little and its less than what i was eating in my binge cycle but i still feel like its too much.. Like i shouldnt even be saying this considering i was downing more than that almost daily for a couple months but i just feel like im not gonna lose enough

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 16/12/2024

got 60+ grams of protein today 🔥 and we at 1200 cals bless UPPP❤️‍🔥

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 15/12/2024

ednos is so Crazy.. one week im biggy betty the next im queen ana #edsky

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 15/12/2024

I SHIT 3+ TIMES TODAY WITHOUT LAX?? #edsky

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 15/12/2024

why is it so hard to find low cal high protein meals that Arent chicken

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 15/12/2024

and my dad said tomorrow we can go grocery shopping but i really dont want to leave the house i look so disgusting and i cant stop crying i hate myself so much i hate this stupid disorder i just want to be gone i hate this so much

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 15/12/2024

i was supposed to get groceries today because im in my healthy protein era but im so disgusted with myself i dont even want to go out and its too much stuff for my dad to go alone so i ended up not going but my dad still wanted to get me food so now hes getting me mexican food

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 15/12/2024

u Know its bad when u cry to a song that u relate to.. cuz why am i crying over a Song

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

At this point Im just gonna wear wigs until my hair is Healed i Cant keep living like this .

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

yall.. my hair looks so Bad. it used to be white but then i dyed it black in oct but i only kept the dye on for like 10 minutes because my scalp was burning and since i didnt keep it on the full 30 mins it washed out and i thougjt it was only brown.. turns out its FREAKING BLONDE IN THE BACK i Cant

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

ok yall i Lied im not tired so im gonna use this as an opportunity to get my sleep schedule fixed, if i stay up then ill be able to easily fall asleep at like 8-10 pm which is my Goal

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

i also need to fix my sleep schedule but goodnight/morning yall

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

omg its literally 6:48 am i need to Sleep

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

i Lowkey kept redoing my intro cuz i kept forgetting or wanting to change stuff💔

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

new intro!! sol 16 she/her, but fine with any ednos? ♡︎/⟳ to be moots ₍ᐢ. .ᐢ₎ #edsky

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

guess whos Balding 💔

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

prioritizing protein is so hard but i need to start doing that 💔

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 02/11/2024

BAE PLZ DONT BE PLAYING WITH ME RN

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 26/10/2024

Oh my gosh . my dad found my laxatives and probably threw them out and messed upy grocery list so now im stuck with food i dont even like and i dont wanna be mad at him for it bit im literally gonna kill myself

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 26/10/2024

people dont know how to speak normally anymore all they know is how to yell

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 26/10/2024

im in a house full of psychos

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 23/10/2024

ok i think i am doing better.. i havent been able to fast but its ok 😞

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 20/10/2024

DOES MY MAN HATE ME 😔 Plzzz pookie text me why is he so Inactive . Like i know ur busy but U CAN TAKE THE TIME TO TEXT ME its 8 pm and He hasnt texyed me back im dead . Ok like just say u hate me 😞

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 20/10/2024

im gonna dtart taking melatonin again so i can sleep during the day and avoid eating cuz Bro whenever i wake up early i munch on food

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 19/10/2024

hi Again.. ok Tmr deadass 😝

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mary @solaeil.bsky.social · 19/10/2024

ITS ONLY 12 PM .. im dead im done for the day 😞.. im gonna try to get some steps in to make up for thos

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