iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 2h

Uhh excuse you? Bitch im from the 80s; i dont have to listen to you. 80s babies are the peak of human procreation

Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 20h

I legitimately dont think anyone has ever loved me. Why's it so easy for everyone else to find their people? I hate it here

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 20h

Why am i so sad and so lonely

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 20h

I suppose some people are just inherently unlovable (me)

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

The most terrifying concept is the one where my consciousness doesn't die with my body. Please, no

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

I cant sleep because work social thing tomorrow. U should be able to unexist for Amounts of Time.

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

10 billion people and they'd all rather spit on me than offer me grace or kindness or god forbid companionship

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

Deleting things feels so good. Wish it was me, but things will have to do.

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

I need a lady friend to play arc raiders and minecraft and fortnite with. Why is it so hard to find people.

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Lonely. I dont think my brain is making the right drugs

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

I dont feel well. Idk when this started; when i started feeling awful when i dont have anyone im close with. When im without a gf, an fp, a situationship of some kind or another, i feel fucking awful. Like im in a constant state of rejection. No one will want my company ever again. We're sure of it.

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

I deleted a fucking chess dot com account earlier just to feel something. Should delete my self

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

Been having really bad anxiety. Deleting things feels good and i think im going to delete this account. It doesnt serve me well. There have been several nice people but mostly i just dont belong here. Just like everywhere else

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

I have no idea how to meet people in my 40s. I dont really go many places, especially places where people drink. I dont care about one night stands or hookups. I just want company. All i do is play games and watch stuff really. Idk.

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I barely talk to anyone. Ever. Something excites me and i look for someone to share it with and there's no one. It's pathetic. I like myself. Idk why no one else does.

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

gonna play some fortnite because its FUN and GOOD and we DO NOT care when the 12 year old adderall addicts dance on our corpse no we dont

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I need to do laundry and dishes and clean shit and all yhe maintenance parts of my life but i really really need my Check The Fuck Out Time this weekend. Brain is fried. Anxiety killing me. Adhd going batshit. I need time to simply Not Do Things

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

(me to myself every 3 minutes lately)

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

can i have that drink yet or nah

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

wait, would that encourage more cops to get shot? oh no.....

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

if i was rich i'd go to bars and buy everyone's drinks every time a cop got shot

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Maybe i have rotten energy. Can energy be rotten? Stagnant? Impure? Rancid? Does my aura look brownish greenish? Meh

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Normies and staring each other in the eyes while they subtly lie and nod and agree to agree to the lie is one of those fucking rituals I'll just never get. Idk how english works either apparently

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Yeah my autistic ass can look you in the eyes for a convo but usually i max out at 5 seconds at a time, and if you start to mention somehting that requires me to either visualize or remember it, im looking away for sure. I'll come back and meet your eyes for a sec, but i aint tryin to makeout with u

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Maybe I'll make a real-ish account again soon. Idk. Idk if i care. Lonely though and obviously i never go anywhere irl, so

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

I need someone who wants attention all the time. I know i need it myself. Spam me. Look for me. Update me. Consider me. Please

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

I don't really have any social media left. Leaving / deleting things feels so good

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

There's no one for me anywhere. I dont really even want to be here anymore. Nothing good ever happens.

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

4 years 9 months sober today. doesnt mean anything really. miss the escape lately.

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Twitch should have been named Twatch. Thanks for coming to my ted talk

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

i am hilariously irritated when the flavor runs out after 3 minutes and im chewing on a flavorless abomination of chemicals like a fucking cow

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

i tried chewing gum for a day. i think i hate it

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

can i just have a minecraft / discord / gaming situationship with a nice lady? i think that sounds better than anything else for me right now

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

I'm pretty sure the vast majority of neurotypical people are literal sociopaths

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

Finally beat the Woodland Abomination on very hard mode in He Is Coming. Took me 98 hours. Felt better than sex.

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

I get zero dopamine production out of my shitass brain

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

And another thing; as a person who's been literally told im a burden, and too much, and a chore by my closest friends, how the fuck do u think it makes me feel to know my notifications and messages get dealt with the exact same way as spam junk mail?? .. actual chores and burdens.. and me.

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

I know its their trauma, not their soul. I know that the very things they do to protect themselves directly clash with what anxious people need to thrive. Its like we're naturally attracted, but destined to fail.

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

Like, i could not imagine claiming to be into someone, or even liking them generally, but never wanting to hear from them, or going no-contact the first sign of the slightest emotional issue, or the half in /half out shit, or the sudden coldness. What the fuck, actually. Stop fucking with folks

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

Avoidants are legitimately selfish and inconsiderate people. Fuck em

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

Why am i, an anxious attached, always attracted to avoidant people? Theyre so bad for my mental health. What do u mean you're obsessed with me all night but keep my texts on dnd and are literally never interested in hearing from me unless its on your terms, or we're about to hang out. Shit is trashy

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

How many times do i have to apologize for being autistic and damaged? Fuck yall

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

Wonder if I'll ever find friends or companionship or love again

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Dumb idiot @slopholeanalytics.bsky.social · 25/06/2026

I feel like deleting all my accounts everywhere again. Throw down a really sad, embarrassing smokebomb and disappear forever.

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