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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 30/08/2026

Because I can't take the antibiotics for it so I'd be fucked 😭

Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 30/08/2026

When you order a burrito from Taco Bell that has never had lettuce in it & doesn't now, so you start munching away & something falls, & you look down to see a piece of lettuce that fell out of the wrapper 🫠 Let's hope Taco Bell stopped the problematic lettuce & I'm not about to get The Parasite(TM)

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 28/08/2026

This is the 1st I've heard of something called 'atmosphere' & I was confused at the opening 'cause I was like... surely you weren't brought into the world 2 months ago? Then I kept going & realized I don't have the spoons 'cause now I don't know if it's 'atmosphere' or 'ATProtocol' 🫠 I'm tapping out

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 26/08/2026

The interface was the same, it's still the Bsky website that I'm logging into, nothing was different and it operated like a side Bsky account. I'm sorry 🙈 I don't think this is something I'm going to be able to wrap my mind around and is just a mental block. I'm struggling to grasp any explanations.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 26/08/2026

That makes a little more sense! But my brain is still getting wires crossed. I think I'll just stay on Bsky to avoid confusion.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 26/08/2026

This doesn't help me and explains nothing 🫠 I don't know what an AT protocol is.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 26/08/2026

So being a person in the US, if I sign up, it just creates a new account that looks like it's from Canada? And somehow it has diff mods? I'm so sorry, I am deeply confused and my brain is hitting a roadblock, why not just make a Northsky website? It's still on Bsky, so still Bluseky stuff?

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 26/08/2026

Yes, please. I like seeing adult content but I have it on 'hide' for when I'm in public 🙈 Plus not everyone wants to see certain things.

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Macaron (マカロン) @a-macaron.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

today's genuinely loving reminder to label your adult content. It doesn't hurt you here. You will not get shadowbanned.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 19/08/2026

...I won't have to move again or pay emergency help like I had to several times this month. So next month will be more secure with money and I won't need to ask. August just totally upended everything and kicked my ass, but the universe is finally going to let me breathe 😴

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 19/08/2026

Thank you so, so much to the people who just helped me 😭 I've got enough money to eat now and won't go into the red in my bank. Truly, thank you. I don't have many in my life who can help me, so this community is my lifeline 💜 Next month I will be fine, I'm finally settled in a hotel where...

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 13/08/2026

I really do 😭 And this new hotel is so fancy, like, I've got a studio apartment now basically in hotel form. I finally can breathe for a few months.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 13/08/2026

My uber driver to the next hotel is fantastic and I cannot tell you what a relief that is. He is just so nice 😭 The universe gave me a break.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 13/08/2026

Thank fuck. My friend is available now. I can breathe. I'll have help getting to the new place.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 13/08/2026

Sadly the only people who would help oit of kindness are all my online friends who live nowhere near me. It's sad that I have people in my life, locally, and no one else can help me.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 13/08/2026

My case manager abandoned me as well. She is ignoring all emails and calls from staff. My mom disowned me recently after verbally abusing me. My friend chose to hang with her dad this morning instead of helping me. I feel abandoned by everyone and I'm scared. I'm alone and my body can't do anymore.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 13/08/2026

...for wait time after the uber driver got possed cuz I had so much stuff. Like I'm sorry I'm displaced and my building had a plumbing break. I'm sorry I'm disabled. I'm scared I'm gonna end up bedridden permanently after all these moves. But I have no choice. I have no access to my wheelchair...

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 13/08/2026

There were people all around me and everyone watched me panting and struggling to loft, and not a single person cared. Not a single person asked if I needed help. I almost fainted in the car on the way home and my heart was skipping beats. People are so cruel. I was charged more money...

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 13/08/2026

My uber driver this morning was a dick. I had no help moving all my stuff, and he ignored me when I said I was disabled and I needed a few extra minutes. He complained to someone on the phone and just watched me struggle. Told me he couldn't wait anymore. POTS was flaring badly, too...

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 09/08/2026

I haven't talked about my poetry and art collection in a little while, but I really am proud of it. I hand-drew as much as I could of it, even the titles of each poem. Some drawings contain prose. This book has years of raw, honest work in it. It's my truth.

goodreads.com

Canvas of Scars

Wandering alone late at night in the dark. Searching fo…

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 04/08/2026

I truly appreciate the thought, though 💜

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 04/08/2026

It's all last minute changes. It's my apartment building's insurance company choosing. Unfortunately because everything is last minute I gotta go where they tell me or I'm gonna be without a roof over my head cuz no one can take me in with cats around here.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 04/08/2026

Bad news, the next hotel doesn't have elevators, so I will have to go without my powerchair again. I can't do stairs without hurting myself. I dunno wtf I'm gonna do but it's my only option.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 03/08/2026

If the universe could fuckin chill for A FEW DAYS I'd appreciate it. I haven't slept in 2 weeks for more than 2-4 hours a night. I'm chronically ill. My cats are being repeatedly traumatized & uprooted and I have agoraphobia & ptsd related to homelessness and loss. I'm actively in a MH crisis.

Email about having to move hotels twice more this month.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 30/07/2026

I have one back at my apartment, but I haven't been able to get back there. I might be able to get it within the next few days, so I don't need one, but thank you for offering.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 29/07/2026

...I don't get that extra money back. But at least I can cover damages with my rent money. The building manager is also trying to get me hooked up with a mini freezer, although I am doubtful it's going to happen. Still, I've got updates. Things still suck. But at least I have something to work with.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 29/07/2026

Good: I talked to my building manager, and she said she's trying to fast-track repairs to the plumbing break, so I may only be here through September. Possibly October. I also do not have to pay rent while I'm here, but I will have to put that money aside for covering pet damages here, so...

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 29/07/2026

Bad: My cats are so upset and bored with this tiny-ass room that they are destroying things. Cahir's and window blinds have been damaged already, and I'm gonna be here for a little while. I may have to save up to pay for a lot of damage. I can't just make my cats stop so it's gonna be rough.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 29/07/2026

Some semi-good news and some bad news. Bad: emotional support animals are no longer protected like service animals are, so places here can reject them. This means there will be a pet fee at the hotel, but the apartment insurance should cover it.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 28/07/2026

I hope someday people find my series & enjoy it or feel some solidarity with it. I wrote it for the trans people & the trauma survivors who were hurt by the light, & who found safety in shadow work & the dark. The light isn't for everyone, & I wanted to put books out there that didn't center it.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 28/07/2026

...I made an unspoken promise when I published the first two books. I started this journey, and I'm going to finish it no matter what. It's my story, my messy trans becoming and all the wild shit I've survived, weaved into a fantasy narrative, featuring my actual alters and spirit guides.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 28/07/2026

...while stuck living in this hotel. Maybe I'll release it this year. My books generally don't get much attention so I won't plan anything big for a release, since there's no point. Previous books have slid under the radar. But I do want to finish it, even if no one's reading...

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 28/07/2026

...gods, I missed it. Reading through some of it, I'm immensely proud of it. I'm so happy with how I tied the first two books together, and it's a hell of a ride. A lot happens. Loose ends get tied up. A Biblical apocalypse may or may not be brewing in it. It just needs editing, which I might do...

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 28/07/2026

I finally opened up the manuscript for book 3, the last book, in The Requiem Series. The last time I'd opened it was October of last year, back when I nearly took my own life. It kind of faded into the background and I got caught up in healing work afterward. Seeing it tonight, though...

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 26/07/2026

Yes, I need about $5 more to cover the delivery cost.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 26/07/2026

Thank you so much, I appreciate you a lot 🫂

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 24/07/2026

I'm exhausted from all the stress and my current displacement crisis, but I have been writing a lot of poetry. It seems to be the only way I can express my emotions that have otherwise numbed on the outside. Survival mode's a hell of a drug. My case manager disappeared too, so I'm just... 🫠

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 22/07/2026

Please don't worry about it if it's being difficult. The fact that you wanted to and cared to already means a lot 💜

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 21/07/2026

No worries, I appreciate the thought, if it doesn't go through 💜

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 21/07/2026

I'm just glad I have a very efficient survival mode because I've had to have one. My emotions numb when it kicks in and I go pure logic and survival. I'm concerned where I'll be emotionally in about a week when it wears off, but I have access to a counselor who can call me.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 21/07/2026

My hotel room. It's tiny and there isn't room for much, but it's at least a roof over my head, a bed, and running water.

Picture of a small hotel room that has bed counter and chairs. My stuff is scattered about the room.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 21/07/2026

Please don't apologize, any little bit is more than I had before 💜 Thank you so much.

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Shane💀Blackheart (they/them) @shaneblackheart.com · 21/07/2026

I'm definitely doing better than the me from about a year ago 💜 A lot of it is just being in survival mode, tends to turn off a lot of other stuff.

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