iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 18/07/2026

I’m paranoid and scared I don’t want to be right I desperately want to hope but it’s getting harder and harder with each passing second

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 22/06/2026

it just. doesn’t feel real. i kept beating into my head that i was unlovable, utterly and completely. and now that someone, anyone, let alone someone as wonderful as him is doing it, it feels like it’s a dream i haven’t woken up from yet

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 20/06/2026

banner change to something my wonderful queerplatonic husband sent me INSTEAD of Evil Swocket Divorce because we are literally Swocket and i don’t want a divorce :c this account is probably gonna be reserved for me absolutely queering out from now on btw

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 06/04/2026

the fact this is still going to be a winning message even just in a couple states makes me wish i was never born every day so many people would hate me if they knew i can’t stand being this right now but i know i couldn’t live with myself being the real me either so im truly trapped

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 31/03/2026

trans day of visibility yet i continue to try and make myself invisible to the irl friends who Know in fear of someone unwanted potentially discovering

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 27/03/2026

my life MIGHT be in danger tomorrow but that’s okay I’m just gonna play Limbus and try not to think about it

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 17/03/2026

homework so bad i stabbed myself w my mechanical pencil over it dude wants us to write definitions for ONE HUNDRED AND SIX VOCAB WORDS. A HUNDRED AND SIX. IN ONE NIGHT. HOW MUCH FREETIME DO YOU TRHJNK I HAVE

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 16/03/2026

forced into the basement for severe weather today and it’s highkey a symbol of my overall family dynamic when my mom and sister both get to sleep on the couch meanwhile all i get is this weird ass round chair without enough space for me

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 26/02/2026

i physically can’t flee the country until i’m out of college i’m helplessly watching my own demise

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 25/02/2026

i’ve developed a huge queerplatonic crush on someone but i know neither of us idiots has the courage to ask the other out so im just gonna have to live with that :c besides i don’t want to risk losing anyone else anytime soon

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 04/02/2026

still thinking of that one time this summer when i actually passed in public like twice how did that even fucking happen I’m not even out to my parents i had to shrug it off like “eh I’ve been called worse” when in reality i was like bouncing up n down from joy

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 04/02/2026

i don’t know why but when i kinda look at all the new Epstein stuff i feel horrible about it but i also laugh about all the ridiculous stuff like “oh they don’t even want Elon lol” and the whole FNAF porn thing is fucking hilarious but i feel like a shitty person for laughing

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 04/02/2026

i feel like throwing up i hate this all i am is a failure who continuously disappoints everyone

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 28/01/2026

everything’s always fucking blamed on me ugh i don’t take out the trash when i WASNT TOLD TO and have had DIFFERING DAYS TOLD TO ME AT DIFFERENT TIMES and my mom YELLS AT ME FOR NOT DOING IT ON THE REGULAR DAY. MAN.

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 22/01/2026

it’s 2:40 am I’m really tired and need to sleep but i fucking can’t ugh

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 20/01/2026

feeling so dysphoric i genuinely feel like throwing up

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 13/01/2026

i have not dated a single person in my life and im feeling insanely lonely because of it but i can’t start now bc im definitely demi and the only 3 ppl who id date are either in QPRs that i dont wanna disturb or just. isn’t attracted to my gender

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 04/01/2026

why does drama always ruin my life it’s not even “this person is a shitty person” drama anymore some of my Phighting teammates ragebaited someone too hard and they left the server i don’t want this to break up the team these people are amazing

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 03/01/2026

i don’t care what my mom says I’m leaving the country the second i get out of college and never looking back

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 03/01/2026

please can this vocaloid creator I’ve been getting into not have drama i beg i plead i don’t wanna get burned a third time not with how I’ve been throwing myself into making Rhythm Heaven remixes to try and distract myself from the pit in my stomach

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 03/01/2026

i hate living in this fucking country i feel like shit

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 02/01/2026

i saw one of those “introduce yourself with what almost killed you!!” posts back on main and i had the opportunity to do a really dark joke but i didn’t wanna do it on main with that out of the way, hi, im mudkirbie

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 27/12/2025

i really think I’m somewhere on the aromantic spectrum but at the same time i really want some sort of relationship. like i wanna commit myself to someone but i don’t wanna like kiss or show them my boobs or care about attractiveness or whatever

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 15/12/2025

OKAY SO. i overheard this from my sister. apparently the DIRECTOR OF THE GYM SHE DOES CHEER FOR is spamming the ENTIRE team’s group chat literally INDIVIDUALLY calling out one person and saying they ruined her entire show. which is actually fucking crazy.

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 15/12/2025

holy SHIT cheer girls are heartless I’ll say why in a minute when I’m out of my sister and moms gaze

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 15/12/2025

Well then! and just when i think “oh it’s fine this is all that happened” IT GETS WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 15/12/2025

everything’s gonna come crashing down around me again isn’t it it’s just one more friend group to implode on itself I’m cursed. that’s all i am. I’m CURSED. every time i make friends i shatter a group, get ostracized before i can, or watch it decay slowly

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 15/12/2025

i feel guilty for something someone was in the complete right to do and something i had no hand in simply because i didn’t stop it. i don’t wanna hurt anyone’s feelings regardless of how much i dislike them i think one of you can tell what im talking about but this is secret to the others please

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 15/12/2025

even when I’m fully on one side of argument and it’s between a person i care for and a person i don’t i still. don’t like it when people argue. it scares me and i don’t know why. it’s not the people who argue’s fault, it’s my stupid brain and how it works

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 15/12/2025

when people argue it makes me terrified that everything is gonna come crashing down

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 12/12/2025

been playing my comfort game for a minute and I’ll talk about it after i get out of the car w him

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 12/12/2025

is it normal best friend relationship behavior when she yells at you for not accepting an invite to play a random ass mobile game so she can get like coins or whatever junk they give out for referrals

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 30/11/2025

feeling so lonely today. sometimes i regret the decision to not date until i have a job but i know it’s for the best that i am able to spoil my future partner

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 27/11/2025

it’s so extremely demotivating to lose finished things you worked really really hard on because of drama surrounding the original dev team. but that’s just the way things go i guess

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 14/11/2025

“man, i love making a Heaven Studio remix event, i like this community of creators and really hope it’ll be a fun casual event!!” The Evil & Intimidating Drama Over An Event I Didn’t Host Applied To The One Event I Have:

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 12/11/2025

me when I’m starting to have a crush on a girl who LITERALLY constantly flirts with me(but i can’t ask her out bc id disrupt her QPR)

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 10/11/2025

i just want to let you guys know if you ever feel like you have to purposely avoid saying certain things around me, please, let me know immediately i’m in a friendship like that and it’s so unfathomably draining. and i really don’t want anyone else to feel that way.

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 29/10/2025

IT HURTS IT HURTS THE BUS IS PLAYONH A HIGH PITCHED NOISE BECAUAE THEYRE LOADING PERCUSSION ON THE BACK THROUGH THE EMERGENCY EXITS PLEASE MAKE IT FUCKINH STOP I WANT TO DIE PLEASE IT HURTS SO BAD

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 29/10/2025

it hurts to move my arms it hurts to move my legs it hurts to talk it hurts to think yet i have to do all of these things anyways because i simply can’t miss school today i have so much shit going on

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 29/10/2025

my throat hurts so bad i can’t fucking talk but i can’t skip school bc there’s a bunch of shit happening so

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 29/10/2025

my throat fucking hurts so bad i can’t talk and YET i have to go to school because i have so much crap happening i can’t miss even if i wanted to AND i wanted to tell mom about it and wear a mask but she just. DIDNT LET ME????

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 29/10/2025

not a vent post did i ever show you guys my sword cosplay im wearing it again in like two days for a trunk or treat but i still have the photo of it from like may lol

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mudkirb’s super secret evil alter ego @secretmudkirbstash.bsky.social · 27/10/2025

my apologies if me not posting my face to people makes you not trust me as much, it’s just this is like a kinda big paranoia i have. my mom always told me never to post my face online and said I’d like get hunted and killed for it. also i look Not Great so that really doesn’t help

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