iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

Despite all the chaos of the last few months and seemingly neverending stressors, I felt extremely loved 🥰

Picture of a homemade coffee rum tres leches cake with whipped cream for frosting and colorful sprinkles. In the center, from left to right: a pink straight lit candle, a small, golden number 4 candle, a golden 6 candle, easily double the size of the 4, and one last pink candle

Me, latin, Hispanic woman with wavy black shaggy hair falling to just below the shoulders in a white tee, sitting cross legged on a bed with the birthday tres leches cake in front of her, candles lit. I am laughing to the point of tears with one hand palm up gesturing to my left at nothing in particular. Against my left knee is a stack of newly opened presents

Image of presents of bed. Top right of frame, picture of a Sonny Angel type of character at the center of an orchid. Just below the picture is a brown furry monchichi with thumb in mouth, leaning against a hardback novel, The Nerd Reich. Below the monchichi, also on the book is a tin like box with whimsical illustration at top and a 3d representation of a ring usually used for opening such tin cans. At bottom of book is what looks like a box of cigarettes but with a pink top in the style of Marlboros red top, and written across the box where it would normally read Marlboro, it says Libra. Below that in small letters is reads, "seriously, don't smoke these incense sticks." Leaning against these is a troll doll wearing a pink sweater except where there would usually be hair, there is the top of a lighter. Above the lighter is a stack of stickers, the one at the very top being a girl in an oyster that reads, "the world is my oyster." Above that, a birthday Sonny Angel holding a heart shaped balloon in a brown teddy bear suit. To it's left, a purple stretchy pressure fabric to hug the body, and at the top, a crochet green dumpling in a light brown crocheted steamer

My hand, holding the incense that looks like a cigarette at the right of image, jade ring on middle finger. At center of picture is a small, tiled candle holder/incense holder inside a wider, burn safe, black bowl. Leaning against front of bowl is the troll doll lighter in pink sweater, and to the left of bowl, the pack of Libra incense "cigarettes." Behind the bowl is the Sonny angels birthday bear with heart shaped balloon.

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

A silly little guy. Sometimes life really just demands a crocheted, medieval style owl holding a chalice 😁 Pattern by nocturnapattern on instagram

White crocheted rectangle with a black, medieval style owl holding a chalice in one claw, hanging from a bamboo stick

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

I'm learning new ways to tapestry crochet 😊 Wait til y'all see what's coming next, I have ambitions 🤭

Crocheted cream colored rectangles with rainbow colored lettering (bottom to top, purple, blue, green, yellow, orange and red) reading Riot three times on bamboo with yarn to hang it from. Right hand sign has bold, darker colors while the left hand version is lighter tones

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

So, if I keep crocheting justice themed wall hangings, can it be said I am crafting justice into the world?? Maybe if I envision justice and equity with every stitch I can join the chorus of manifestations and something, something, everything is energy, don't dream it be it, magic?

Crochet white square hanging on bamboo with a red circle and red line through said circle, bold black letters within circle, under the cross out line, reading ICE

White crochet rectangle hanging on bamboo with fucshia letters reading Protect The Dolls

Cream colored crochet rectangle with rainbow letters reading riot. From bottom of letters to top colors are purple, blue, green, yellow, orange and tops are red. Rectangle is a W.I.P., it will have identical rainbow riot lettering twice more above the one shown

Crochet purple rectangle hanging on bamboo stick with black lettering reading Protect The Dolls

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

Life has been... a lot... but we have help looking over our case, infusion is tomorrow, I am elbows deep in playing with paint for the first time, and trimmed my hair, so here is proof of life & WIP

Sketch of chappell roan with a variety of flowers from her neck down and sky with butterflies neck up, work in progress, mix of oil paint pencils, and paints

Selfie with freshly trimmed hair, lowest layer brushing just past the tops of shoulders. Latina with blackish, brown hair speckled with white, curly hair, double necklace with a small sapphire pendant in the first layer and larger rose quartz on the second and a cream colored, oversized sweater and large red glasses. Bare faced, with a touch of lip gloss

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 23/06/2026

Not dead yet! Doc made me go in Saturday, labs, all the things, only to settle on, weelllll... Any of the usual stuff I'd send you can't take, and you do seem to be improving, so... Let's keep an eye on how things progress. Saving grace was my bestie arrived to shuttle me with horchata coffee 😁

Mirror selfie in bathroom. Latina, black brown wavy hair visible on one side hitting the shoulder. Mustard colored v neck short sleeve tee, slightly baggy, with loose denim shorts. Red lips, no other makeup, red oversized glasses and a visible black wrap around the inner crook of one elbow after having labs taken at doc office

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

I have been run ragged the last month. Many the things happening + under the weather. I come bearing old but evergreen memes as proof of continued life

Meme with image of the panopticon, a brown woman standing in it in a cut off black tank top, baggy army green pants and a beanie, hand to head in what looks like a gesture towards tucking hair behind ear (despite beanie obscuring any hair) and white text overlay at top saying "me in the panopticon wondering if the security guard thinks my outfit is cute"

Black and white sketch of bedroom with a giant, human sized roach in the bed on its back, legs up, with text reading, "girl help, I'm being perceived"

Image of a bed with checkered brown, blue, green and oatmeal bedding and a tiny kitten peaking out from the corner of the comforter, with only it's head and one paw visible. White text at the bottom of image in all lower case reads, "wanna fight"

A picture of a hand with four dandelions and their stems bent across the closed hands in the fashion/shape of brass knuckles with text overlay reading "any last wishes?"

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 01/05/2026

Smattering of a few of the crochet projects I've done since I've been gone. Also, so, so many hats made 😆

Tiny purse to go inside my real purse! Used both blue and pink yarn knotted together for puffier "heart" stitches. (Also, one of something like 6 tiny purses i made for a fam & friends)

Red wool socks that actually fit my tiny feet

First Granny Square shirt made in ecru with coral yarn for flower petals and muted yellow for flower centers

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

A smattering of what I've been up to since I've been gone. Will share at some time (soon) a few of the tons of crochet I've done too

Black cocoa cake mid decorating for my baby sister's bday

Proof of continued life. Selfie of latina with loose black and brown curls (with scattered greys) hitting just below the shoulders, wearing red, oversized glasses, lip gloss and an oversized Conan Gray tee

Meme image of serial killer saying, "a great deal of my thoughts are basically unshareable with anyone," and text above image reading: When someone asks you how you feel about government

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 15/02/2026

An offering of my face for the day of warm fuzzies

Selfie, latina with wavy dark brown, almost black hair, lightly shaggy, just hitting the tops of shoulders wearing lip gloss, a small grin, mascara and toffee colored, round glasses. Wearing an oversized, cream colored sweater slipping off one shoulder, a dark blue bra strap visible on the right side of frame and a necklace with a single sapphire pendant. Art blurry in the background

Selfie, latina with wavy dark brown, almost black hair, lightly shaggy, just hitting the tops of shoulders. Lip gloss, mouth bunched toward the right, mascara and toffee colored, round glasses on face. An oversized, cream colored sweater on, slipping off one shoulder, a dark blue bra strap visible on the right side of frame and a necklace with a single sapphire pendant. Art blurry in the background

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 13/02/2026

Progress briefly on hold while I wait for more yarn to arrive. Absolutely nothing much happening here, definitely not anything in the real world dominating my brain cells and seeping into improvised crochet 😆

Crochet free hand letters spelling fuck ice in white, glow in the dark yarn. The letters of i, c, & e are turned into large granny squares. I in teal, c in ecru speckled with pastel colors and e in lavender.

Crochet free hand letters spelling fuck ice in white, glow in the dark yarn. All letters are turned into large granny squares. I in teal, c in ecru speckled with pastel colors and e in lavender in bottom row. F is in seafoam, u in lavender, c in teal and K partially surrounds by the speckled ecru.

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 03/02/2026

I haven't had much on my mind. How about y'all? Incidentally, free handing letters for the first time in crochet? Harder than expected 😆

Crocheted letters in white yarn spelling out "fuck ice," on a pink lap desk background

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 09/01/2026

I crocheted bunny beanies 😊 Pattern by knottypandaa on etsy & instagram

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 29/12/2025

Infusion morning the same morning we have a 30+ degree temp drop hit overnight. PHEW 😅 Monchhichi save me

Selfie, latina with messy, wavy bedhead, oversized red glasses and a brown tee with monchhichi written in white across the top, a giant circle of blue, red, then yellow just under letters and in the center of the circle, a girl monchhichi with a pink ribbon at the top of her head.

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 25/12/2025

Now that the gifts have been handed out, my top secret projects! First ever crochet blanket & cardigan (plus bonus mom hugging her blanket)

Crochet cardigan with wooden flower shaped buttons

My mom, hugging her christmas crochet blanket and smiling

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 25/12/2025

I finally remembered to take a pic before fully breaking it apart! Christmas turkey (and bonus pumpkin loaf)

Roasted turkey with orange and herbs visible from its center

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 27/11/2025

I forgot to take a pic before I started breaking apart the turkey, but I did my thing kitchening, meal was awesome, and we have leftovers for ages + leftovers sent off with the kiddos (kiddos= my mom & baby sister) Mac and cheese & asparagus courtesy of the baby sis 😁

Roasted turkey, half intact, half taken apart in an open dutch oven propped up across the sink

Plate with macaroni and cheese, asparagus, mashed potatoes, turkey and a slice of bread with butter

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

Bread baking day (Pumpkin cream cheese bread)

Pumpkin bread showing a decorative fall motive on cooling rack

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

First of all, I love making gifts. Second of all, I love making turkey holiday meals. Third of all, I love putting up the tree. This is a good month for getting to do a lot of my favorite things.

Image of christmas tree with a gnome tree topper, and eclectic, homey ornaments in front of a tall wooden bookcase. Black & white checkered tree skirt peeking out from under christmas presents.

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 09/11/2025

Me, listening to the new Rosalia album

Circular flow chart with Joan of Arc at top followed by an arrow pointing to a hello kitty image on a cloud with wings followed by a second arrow pointing to an image of a human sized roach in bed followed by an arrow pointing to sisyphus pushing his boulder followed by a last arrow pointing back to Joan of arc. Text at center of circle reads, "how was your day?"

Photo of Rosalía performing on stage with text above her reading, "unfortunately I do love devoting my entire existence to the exploration of the big mysteries and also being a freak"

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 22/10/2025

Ugh. Weather is (slowly) starting to change, I have been hyper focused on a fun, secret project, and coordinating info with the kiddos doctor's for the social security appeal, so forgive my absence here. Many are the needs, few the spoons 😂🤣 Good news: I made some awesome red lentil curry today.

Image of an old black white and grey cat with an eye patch. Words underneath read: "my schedule is wide open but I also have the energy levels of like a hundred year old cat that's about to be put down, so I am both very free and very busy"

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 07/10/2025

Kiddo & I dropped off the appeal paperwork to social security this morning before my afternoon infusion. Come on super moon magic, libra season, and just plain fairness! See our paperwork into the right hands and justice done 🕯✨️✨️✨️🕯

Two people leaning against one stone pillar. One in a black Zelda beanie, black tee, glasses and an N95 mask. The other with a granny square beanie on, striped tee, red oversized glasses, and a space potato mask holding an n95 mask in place over a can99 mask.

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 28/09/2025

Birthday flowers from the mama & baby sis 🥰

Bouquet of various wildflowers featuring some large sunflowers

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 17/09/2025

It is the one thing I always knew I was born to do 😆🤭

Image of a white horse in a beautiful meadow with rolling hills in the distance. Yellow letters across top half of picture read, "Ever since I was a little girl I knew I wanted to ponder."

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 09/09/2025

Burrowed indefinitely between infusion yesterday & boosters in a couple of weeks, to finish working out my sinus stuff 😊

Selfie, in pink blankets, yellow towel on head, showing only eyes and forehead between the blankets & towel, wearing red glasses

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 08/09/2025

Time to meet the new infusion nurse and get pumped in about 30 mins. I am begrudgingly clean & clothed. Bed rotting will be my lil treat after 😊

Selfie, wet, black brown shoulder length wavy/curly hair with bangs, oversized red glasses, and brown corduroy boiler suit. Bare faced save some lightly tinted lip gloss.

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 22/08/2025

I've gone & returned with a script for giant horse pills for my troubles 😆 Ok, FINE, I GUESS I'm glad my sinus infection will get beaten into submission 😊 Also, doctor's orders to hydrate and move as little as possible, so 😇

Mirror selfie, brown linen overalls with oversized low front pockets & a baseball style short sleeve tee in baby pink with salmon pink accents on shoulders and brown sleeves, bracelets, oversized red glasses, curly hair with bangs just below tops of shoulders, pinned back on each side

Selfie outside doctor's office, latina with oversized red glasses, straps from brown overalls and brown strap from purse visible a d baby pink tee with brown accents on collar and short sleeves, salmon on shoulders. Evil eye necklace also showing, black n95 mask, and curly dark brown hair just below shoulders

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 14/08/2025

Proof the kiddo & I do occasionally see sunlight 😆 Also, officially, the last appt in my marathon month of appts is DONE 🥳

Selfie of mother and son sitting in the sun with trees behind them and blue sky. On left, pale man with brown hair just below his shoulders in a cream colored tee, glasses, and a can99 mask. On the right, his mom (me), brown woman with oversized red glasses, wavy black/brown hair to her shoulders, green tank top with embroidered "hombre" in fuchsia, a strap from her purse visible & arm outstretched with phone to take pic in a blue mask with red lips that says hi, and a can99 mask underneath.

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 08/08/2025

Boomshaklaka! Doc visit done and over, and now, a woman may rest (as soon as I get home and shower post all of the stuff and things) until Wednesday's infusion.

Selfie, woman with curly black brown hair, bangs and oversized red glasses in a tie dye fanta muscle shirt

Selfie, woman with curly black brown hair, bangs and oversized red glasses in a tie dye fanta muscle shirt, baggy jeans and a short sleeve open button down tee in mirror

Selfie, woman with curly black brown hair, bangs and oversized red glasses in a tie dye fanta muscle shirt and button down plaid shirt with strap from purse visible outside doctor's office, brick walls visible

Selfie, woman with curly black brown hair, bangs and oversized red glasses in a tie dye fanta muscle shirt, button down tee, strap of purse visible, leaving doctor's office, shrubbery behind

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 29/07/2025

Survived appt and Austin mid day heat! Treats should be mandatory post doc visits

Selfie, standing in the sun, wind blowing black, brown wavy/curly shoulder length hair. White tee, pink halo mask over a can99 mask, red oversized glasses, strap of purse & edge of necklace with evil eye beads visible

Fit before appt, selfie in bathroom mirror. White tee, baggy lightly stone washed, low rise jeans, necklace with evil eye beads, oversized red glasses and phone in hand

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 27/07/2025

First attempt with charcoal in sketchbook

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 24/07/2025

I can't decide if I win or lose 😂🤣😂

Screenshot from Rocky Horror Picture Show of Dr. Frankenfurter at end of movie, makeup wet & spreading, with a pained, wistful smile and text over his chest saying "gender is a performance and I intend to be booed off stage"

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 24/07/2025

Most of my life I was so overwhelmed at the thought of sketching that I would stop before I began. I'm still not prodigious but can now enjoy the process. Similarly, a new genre of creative project just began pouring out of me & has me fully flummoxed. I hope the joy part comes sooner this time.

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 22/07/2025

THE vibe To be clear, this is my method, always 😇 From @myvoicemychoice.bsky.social on Instagram

Pink background, white letters reading, "I'm flirting telepathically today, so if you suddenly," letters change to pink for "start thinking about how to start a revolution," letters then change back to white and end with, "that was me."

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 22/07/2025

Today is the big day! The kiddo is 24

Images background is a gradient blue to purplish pink, 4 pictures surrounds the text, "My baby's 24 today!" Picture at upper left corner is of birthday party where the birthday boy is center holding his birthday cake with me (mom) at left and grandma at right singing happy birthday to him. I have a shark wearing a Hawaiian shirt plushie sticking out of my top in image. Top right image is birthday boy face with pink glasses on and a granny square beanie in various pink shades. Bottom left is a locket with a pic of him as a 3 year old in a red tee and the other side of locket, his college grad pic. Bottom right an image of his birthday cake showing the two layers of strawberry and lemon cake

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 19/07/2025

Infusion time came & went and today very clearly became a rest day. Fingers crossed lots of sleep brings a refreshed tomorrow 🤞

Selfie in mirror, no make up, oversized red glasses and messy wavy brown/black hair in a baggy gray short sleeved maxi dress, phone in hand along with a silver moonstone ring

Close up selfie with shoulder length wavy bedhead, oversized red glasses, can99 mask, gray short sleeve dress and dainty short gold necklace with evil eye baubles all around it

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 15/07/2025

My first set of crocheted socks. Does one foot fit way better than the other? Maaaaaaaybe. But not too shabby for a first go 😊 #crochet

Crocheted set of socks, fuchsia toes and ribbed tops, gradient dark gray to blue to sage to yellow yarn for the rest of the feet in granny square pattern

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

LITERALLY 🤣😂 what better time to learn to make myself socks, right?

Image of the first half of a crochet sock with fuchsia toe area and gradient grey/blue granny square style foot area ending at top of arch of foot modeling it

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

It is me, I fear 🤣😂🤣

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 10/07/2025

If you're seeing this drop an old pic you still love (Mid getting ready, accidental selfie before celebrating my baby sister's bday approx 4 years ago)

Accidental selfie mid makeup before leaving for a bday celebration with my baby sis. Latiné with short curly hair to around the jawline, oversized black glasses, a short gold necklace with coral balls and a longer tarot card and quartz gold necklace. A strap of a black dress is visible and maroon lace right of frame, cleavage cut off at bottom middle of frame, a maroon sweater off one shoulder and a knee to bottom left of frame.

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 10/07/2025

The fact that I read this and immediately had to go fetch the post I had just seen on another platform (insta) to properly convey how much I deeply relate 🤣😂

Post reading: "I don't put projects on the back burner. I put them under the floorboards, where the ever-louder beating of their hearts drives me slowly to madness."

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 05/07/2025

Did someone say doom crafting? Don't mind if I do. If my hands keep moving my brain can't drift to the bad place, which is just all the places atm (politics, societal collapse, inevitable death and misery rapidly approaching, that damn lip synch) #crochet #grannysquares

Selfie in oversized grey sweatshirt, oversized red glasses and a crochet granny square hat with the primary color in fuchsia and accents in purple, light blue, and dark blue

Five granny squares, all with outer squares in fuchsia and accent colors of purple, light blue and dark blue

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 29/06/2025

Teddy for your thoughts? My account is half end of the world reposts (ie: politics) and half crochet critters I have (or am) making, because, balance 😆⚖️ #crochet

Crochet teddy bear with tiny ears, safety eyes accented with white yarn at one side of each and black yarn surrounding the white to the top of each safety eye. Yarn of body is cappuccino color. Nose and mouth also made of black yarn and a pink blush under each eye

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 25/06/2025

Chocobo 2, the remix! Crocheted with lions brand ice cream yarn in lemon meringue and sensy orijeans latte for feet with pattern by Kitsunyume on Etsy. #crochet

Yellow and white gradient yarn chocobo with a salmon beak, red scarf, black safety eyes and latte colored feet, front view

Yellow and white gradient yarn chocobo with a salmon beak, red scarf, back view showing off tail feathers and head feathers

Yellow and white gradient yarn chocobo with a salmon beak, red scarf, black safety eyes and latte colored feet, side view

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 24/06/2025

Nothing going on here. Definitely not another chocobo, this time with gradient (ice cream lions brand) yarn. Apocalypse crocheting? Who, me? Absolutely. Indomitable. #crochet #chocobo

Yellow and white gradient yarn chocobo with a salmon beak, front view

Yellow and white gradient yarn chocobo with a salmon beak, back view, showing five tail feathers and three of the four head feathers

Yellow and white gradient yarn chocobo with a salmon beak showing five tail feathers and the four head feathers, side view

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 20/06/2025

Oops, nevermind. This is the actual final product 😊 The pattern maker had the free pattern for the mount on their insta page, so, I couldn't resist. Crochet chocobo pattern by kitsunyume on etsy & mount pattern on the insta by the same name #crochet

Crochet purple chocobo with pink scarf, salmon beak and black safety eyes, front view, also showing brown straps around both wings

Crochet purple chocobo with pink scarf, salmon beak and black safety eyes, back view, also showing crochet brown mount

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AndyPanda @sebasandy.bsky.social · 20/06/2025

C'est fini! Crochet black (purple) chocobo for the kiddo's bday 🥰 Having to wait a month before giving it to him is gonna be 😅 #crochet #chocobo

Crochet purple chocobo with pink scarf, salmon beak and black safety eyes from the front view

Crochet purple chocobo with pink scarf, salmon beak and black safety eyes from the back view, showing tail and head feathers completed

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