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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

aaggghhhh. stupid stupid stupid stupidddddddd

a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

i don't know what to do with myself. every day i'm desperately clinging to a whimpering hope that eventually things will be different. closing my eyes and filling my brain with fleeting bliss from sunrise to sunset. it all feels so vapid. i hardly feel like a person any more.

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

i never want to become someone my loved ones are forced to tolerate. the fear strikes at our heart so often...

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

mildly grumbling when a furry tf identity focused novel gets big in our circles and it's not ours. grumbles.

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

starving for horny world building and subsequent rping in previously mentioned horny world (building)

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

cordie was brought to front for a bit last night and she felt. weird. she's the most self conscious of us when it comes to voice work, not wanting to come off as like, "putting a dommy mommy voice on", she really wants to be recognized for her own sound, which happens to be Eternal Sugar Cookie

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

that one solo dev game that we really like but uses ai assets has a discord server we got curious about (also wanting to post our fan art), and one of the most pleasant surprises: everyone we've interacted with has been REALLY nice and supportive about our art...! it's a strange feeling

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

i think we're coming to learn that Liz is they/them but besties have the sisterhood pass of she/her

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

in order to address our rising trauma-induced fear of men, we will be under going exposure therapy. i need 100 boys to be really fucking nice to me

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

[For the past I want to say half a year, we've been struggling with this feeling that, we might be developing a fear of men, and we've been trying really hard to combat this, mainly for our loved ones who are masc in those ways] [Oh my god seeing men with shitty man takes is making it so hard]

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

i wish we had a body we could be happy with, but we cant even have one that's functional...

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

ohhhh god my fucking right HIP joint decided to flare up for NO REASON aaAAAGGGHHHH

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

talkin with more people about the zelda direct, and i think we've just, lost touch with what the average person/gamer likes/wants i don't geht it

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

liz is so fuckinggg hottttttt duuuuude... my fictive headmate that forced their way into our world/head and brings out our most.potent self confidence... gghhhgggg

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

the atlyss size theft mod is patreon exclusive this is the end for me

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

stupid stupid stupid stupid this whole situation is so stupid

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

god i feel sick from emotional whiplash. oh my.god it hurts

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

i wish we knew what to do about the part of our brain that by default sees our relationships as lopsided. those we care for deeply we feel can never recirpocate, and those that care deeply about us cause this reaction of rejection almost, like our brain shielding itself reflexively...

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

[woke up feeling so unfathomably wound tight we NEED to get high or we'll collapse in on ourselves]

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

[Part of us wishes we weren't so horny all the time but that's solely because we feel like such a bother to other people] [We've yet to get close with anyone who could keep up with us and our many peculiarities] [At least that we're aware of...]

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

[i wonder if we'll ever feel like we belong somewhere]

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

[a difficulty with being so intensely dissociative is that, when we come to enough to check social media, it feels like months have passed without us in the span of days.] [it feels like we cannot keep up with other people in this way] [and it makes us worry] [that we will be forgotten...]

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

[The shit going on with cor o has us so heartbroken man... Just how ruthlessly can a social media ecosystem eat people alive. It's not fair]

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

[Did a manual switch for the first time in a long while, which mostly consists of one of us making the other cum our brains out mentally and physically] [The surprise this time was that it was Liz who made me do it and it was] [hough] [@///@]

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

been having a lot of trouble with men making us feel bad lately

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

uwegh... second session of big walk last night, we got overstimmed halfway in, our laptop kept overheating and force shutting down, and we gave up after the third or fourth time, so we missed the last quarter which seemed very eventful, also we're like... so absent in most clips and aaaggghhhh

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

i think the one design element that is like, INCREDIBLY common within our circles but that we kind of do not care for are tummy nips sadly. just itches our brain in the wrong way

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

man, we wanna get high n horny tonight, but i feel like we keep having poor experiences with people doing it, and at this point, i just dunno who to be high, horny, or comfortable with.... aaaaaaaaa.......

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

alright we made a plural space but our headspace is so [EXTREMELY LOUD STATIC] that we don't feel right to fill much in atm...

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

oh i can feel the mental illness aching in our bones. help.

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

something something something something something something something something something something something something something something something something something something something something something something something something something something something something is very very wrong

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

i've forgotten how to do just about anything

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

we're constantly swinging back and forth between blissfully distracted, and soberingly aware of how useless we are, only the pendulum is slamming into the aware side over and over until it breaks through and finds such vast nothingness

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

awwww fuck. i need to be isolated from society and turn into a blackhole

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

nothing like our dad triggering some sort of trauma related sobbing fit that culminated in us uncontrollably begging for him to go away through tears. aaaaaaggghhhhhhh

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

i wish i was skinny. i know we wouldnt be happy with our body anyways, but at least then we wouldnt need a cane to offset the weight on our bad leg. we could fit into our clothing again. we wouldnt be Happier, but things would be Easier at least...

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

saw somebody say that that new cicada game is a milkshake duck event and to look into the devs before you buy it, but like there's nothing. i can't find fucking anything about this. if i DO go look it up, and find NOTHING, i'm just. not believing some stranger on the internet. fuck off

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

nothing feels worth living for from behind our window

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 19/08/2026

ouugghh. ooouugggghhhhhh. been grappling with a lot of regret lately...

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

wouldn't it be nice. to Want to live.

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

whatever this feeling has been the past half a year, it scares me. we would grow sick of the usual spirals before that point, but we always bounced back. great deal of pain, followed by a refreshing freedom. we don't even experience that any more. it's not the aching sadness any more. it's dull pain

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

i love watching a funny little clip our friends send only to hear they're hanging out with the person who hurt us so deeply, who we then tried to reconnect with and patch things up with, TWICE, and was rejected both time, DESPITE THE FACT THAT THEY ARE THE ONE WHO HURT US i can't say that on this c

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

it fucking sucks. feeling this way. where so many people will beg us not to kill ourselves, and we'll see just how important we are to them day by day, and yet we still feel hopeless. stuck in this mire, sinking, sinking, sinking, unable to reach out and grab anyone's hand

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

i hate feeling so nebulous. there's no joy to be found in the self when the self is spread so thin and vast that we can hold onto nothing i miss finding joy in ourselves

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

having to balance the emotions of "we don't know this person very well even if we want to" versus "our heart feels really full and lovely aroumd them and i want to keep feeling that" and it's agony

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a distant memory🔒 @scrapbook.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

cursed to be pissed for no fucking reason

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