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Schnupper

@schlunkoid.bsky.social

102 followers 80 following 975 posts

hello im insane and also gay, 🏳️‍⚧️ girle, autistic, adhd, BPD, OCD; Over 18 years old but under 2,000 years old schnuppabio.carrd.co im scared of everything and i like smut so dont if ur not 18 dont i swear ill drown you

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Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

uh ohh...,,,,

Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

i empathize with this frorgy

Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 15/03/2026

forgive me if it is not in ettiquette to quote post here but cool score whatever also this is a very british website

Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 05/01/2026

i turned what i was saying into image of text because character limits

Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 19/12/2025

Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 16/10/2025

omg yes the cat thing i got glaceon in pokemon sleep in commemoration

Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 15/09/2025

idk if its reasonable but i cannot stand this shit and i dont wanna be the only person outraged about it

Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 24/08/2025

Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 14/08/2025

Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

mkay all but meaningless vent post-
ok no, not meaningless, having feelings isnt meaningless, thats practically the exact thing im upset about! people not taking me or how i feel or what ive experienced or how i experience things seriously!

im so sick of not being listened to by damn near anyone and ive been trying my whole liiiiffeeeee to find a place where im accepted but i just havent managed to and its been a really dissapointing and disheartening amount of time spent just to only fail.

my brain sometimes says that the reason i cant find community is due to the fact that im inherently unlikeable or intolerable but like 4chan literally exists; unlikeable and intolerable people practically run the online zeitgeist at this point. why is it that me just being (overall) A Flavor of marxist who has mental issues and autism and shit precludes me from having anywhere to be in which im not just consistently hurt for the n'th time?

id like to be listened to. id like to be not passed over like nothing i say has any value, id like to be treated like a member of a community instead of a constant outsider and a weirdo. id like to just have more than 3 people max who treat me with the respect im fairly certain ive earned.
if i havent actually earned it, c'est la vie and i deserve it, but ive put so much thought and effort into these kinds of things, i cant see why id deserve to be treated this way.

i spend so much time (social problems involved or not) feeling so gut-wrenchingly, overwhelmingly awful and thinking so many horrible, horrible, gravely saddening and concerning thoughts about myself. its not fair that i try and get myself to get out of bed or talk to someone and get met with even more negativity and disgust and everything else.
i feel like i have enough to deal with already and i just want to feel welcome or accepted or loved, even, by a kind of community.

just asking for too much, i guess.

Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 29/07/2025

doesnt matter and no one would listen to/ agree with/ care about the specifics but,
i gotta say, having 1/1500 things ever be actually good and then having those good things instantly connect themselves invariably and inseparably to the horrendous stuff i was trying to have respite from is really fucking annoying, especially when im somehow the only one ive seen who even thinks the bad things are bad or that thinks there should be at least an ounce of discretion or empathy used with them.

but no, cant have anything good without it being bad anyway. only thing this doesnt apply to is my girlfriend.
i love her so much, also one thing out of all the things ive experienced being good is an awful fucking track record (and im aware of the hyperbole, get out of my head)

and i dont mean like a little bad and im just a "bitch" or something, genuinely actually bad or at least completely intolerable for me (which i would hope to be taken seriously considering having boundaries isnt a weakness). but apparently being traumatized in a certain way is my fault.

im just fuckin venting to open space right now, none of this is fair and i cant be the only one whos been hurt by it, but i havent seen or heard from almost anyone else who has so at this point it feels like my voice is useless and my personal hopes/dreams/goals are unreachable.
(which applies for me in a plethora of different contexts, too. i feel so damn powerless all the time)

Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 12/07/2025

Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 08/07/2025

i hate character limits i will do anything other than them

text wall reading: "maybe this is an extention of class traitorism? likely not intentional but if people are super polarized then theyll start mentally or fully blaming eachother (aka. working class vs working class) for the failures they see around them and, as such, dont collaborate and dont focus enough on doing something about the bourgeois (actual problem)

arguing online at people really doesnt fix anything, people will only listen to an argument and consider it if they already want to and the internet seems specially formed to prevent that feeling from taking place

especially with what i would be doing, which is explaining socialism to liberals and such. being super full of yourself and getting too into it only scares people off.
and im not being hypocritical because im entirely aware of how much stupid shit like that ive done over a lot of time cuz i get visceral negative emotional response from people thinking things i think are wrong and then i wanna fix it which is big dumb position to have but its hard to leave something alone when it makes you upset"

Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 03/06/2025

potentially disturbing, there was no warn or blur

Schnupper @schlunkoid.bsky.social · 31/05/2025

these should be my final statements on the matter

just wanna add, "people will be into things that make you uncomfortable" discussion seems to frequently act like being uncomfortable with certain things is somehow a problem in and of itself. id like to contribute "nobody is obligated to like what you like or see what you make. uncomfortability exists in people for reasons you dont always know and is a valid feeling"