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Scott Malin @scottmalin.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

I wanna draw so bad but the horrors!!! The horrors!!!!!

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Does anyone remember Juri from YuYu Hakusho?

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Idk man I usually dont think too hard about it because there's other things going on with my identity other than gender too and when it comes to my environment rn the gender part is too inconvenient to deal with. The most gendered feeling I have is feeling like I missed out on being a little girl

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(Or ignoring I'd rather not have the bits I was born with or dissatisfied with looking in the mirror still to this day)

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My ex and some people on tumblr really made me feel gate keeped from gender exploration, despite their lust for facial hair on girls, I should've just been grateful I was born with lady bits than to complain about my own dysphoria. Or ignoring the fact I do know what it's like to fear public spaces

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SpookyNess (Nesstalgic) 🪾🐦‍⬛ Cozy Games & Reviews @nesstalgic.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

I feel like I lie somewhere in between Cis and trans but I'm not celebrated by either and I don't belong and media will never be about loving people like me and I'm doomed to be invisible and unloved because "I should like myself" but I look atypically gendered but not accepted by trans comm either

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I just love how soothing this game is (⚬◜ᴗ◝⚬) The gameplay loop has me so focused and I don't even realize how much time passes while I'm making my next dress -ˋˏ✄┈┈👘 Game: Dressmaker Platform: PC (Windows, Mac)

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🦇Sorawolfkiba🎃👑 @sorawolfkiba.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

I wish I had my drawing whimsy/MOJO back. I'm just like Austin Powers when his MOJO got stolen! I just wanna draw what I WANT without feeling the shame or walls I put up around myself. I still feel like I can't be myself in every day life.

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Dropping some Velvet Crowe appreciation for the Timeline! 🖤🖤❤️🖤❤️🖤🖤❤️🖤🖤

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I was watching someone's first watch through of Gurren Lagann and it's actually BAFFLING how often Kamina or the crew are making or supporting a dick joke or a gay joke. It's actually hilarious how played straight it is.

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Sometimes I feel homesick for Spira from FFX

Imm too scared to move!!!!

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I'm scared of discord notifications, I'm scared of people replying to me, I'm scared to look at my messages, I'm scared to look back on my work, I'm just terrified of the potential consequences of my past and I'm only looking feral forward.

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I just need to get out of this house and go to the library but I'm afraid to be seen by people in this town 🤮

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It's the consequences of putting up with so much bullshit and then learning how to be outraged by what I was put through

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I need to get off the internet and stop making my sadness everyone else's problem but dammit, everyone else needs to get taken down a peg so they can feel closer to the despair I have to deal with my whole life. It's not fair I'm left to feel like this while others are allowed to feel human

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I hate looking at myself in the mirror, I experience dysphoria, I've been depressed my whole life, but it doesn't matter. I don't deserve any help or love. Everyone else matters before me. I don't get to matter. Who cares what I'm going through. Just point and laugh like you always do, world.

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Scrolling thru discord, desperate for connections, but I can't reach out to people. What would I say? "I'm really pathetic rn and need some validation so could you manufacture a caring persona to handle me rn?" No one deserves to interact with me when I'm like this.

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My sexuality feels like a dry lonely desert imposed by everyone in my life that insisted I didn't deserve love or intimacy and it feels like it was done to me.

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Woke up feeling lonely and sad. :c

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I gotta get better about figuring out what to do when I'm upset but it's the pits

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Trying to find a dating sim app or game that doesn't make me feel insecure and I don't know? Where to look? All these apps look like boring pieces of shit with skinny, conventionally attractive assholes that have no personality and have no idea how attraction works.

Scrolling thru dating games like "wow all of these look like they don't have characters or stories I'll give 2 shots about" but I don't even know my tastes tbh. Makes it hard to start rping randomly when I don't know what I want. It just feels bad to think about how nothing interests me

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I don't want to be awake, I don't want the day to end, I don't want tomorrow to come

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Inuyasha new moon hours, every month I become weak and honest

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I've only ever lived in feral fear reaction, how am I supposed to do things like "parent myself" or "just start liking myself" when caring about myself has always been too dangerous for my mental health? If I ever started caring about myself in the past I would only risk feeling complete despair

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I wanna play Sky again but I'm afraid

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I need to work on a commission but it's been ROUGH lately 😭 when am I getting a hug and someone telling me it's gonna be ok???

I don't want to to walk around in this town. I'm already a walking circus attraction, I don't want to be recognized around town as the aloof fat lady who never got her shit together that lives with her crazy parents that visit the liquor store at least twice every single day

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People might wonder why I'm so insecure and it's hard being fat and single AND depressed for my whole life. Maybe not single but "trapped in a relationship where I had no other sane people to lean on and my partner strung me along because they would feel too guilty sending me back to my parents"

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My ex said I was attractive but NEVER touched my belly or tried touching me so that speaks louder than words to me. Don't say you love me and then leave me out to hang.

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I want to date someone who will love me and my belly v_v

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Chat, any advice for comforting a sibling who is "forever alone" doom spiraling?