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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

at least 24 hours of rain. a flood warning that's extended to Friday morning. it's going to be too warm for what is basically october. my period started. i work today and tomorrow. *screaming*

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

i understand that human life is a miracle, blah blah, but i could've be literally any living creature. bc i believe that souls and reincarnation are real and my soul could've fucking ended up anywhere.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

sometimes you become hyperaware of the fact you're a human being with skin and then it makes you want to jump out of your own body because it feels incredibly restrictive

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

//sadposting + pet death i've had too many pets die in the past 5 years 😞 gizmo, don, leia, padmé, little i don't even wanna talk about them but they popped into my head. i miss them so much.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

it's now past 3:30 i should try sleep again

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

shit that was too dark so i'm throwing it into this void instead

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 23/07/2026

i'm too autistic for this shit i'm so upset and basic damn logic and being aware of surroundings is difficult for anyone else that isn't me

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

i've now sunk to a new low– creating p*crews of myself sloppily making out with a vampire 1/2

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

waking up shorting before 1am because pain be chronic

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

my boob fucking itches im going to cry

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

i should be this chaotic and not gaf every month 👹 being misgendered is fucking ANNOYING. and guess what if that's too fucking "difficult" for you just call me by my first name, you DUMBASS. 👹 DONT REFER TO ME AS ANY PRONOUN JUST CALL ME MY FIRST NAME IF YOU CANT FIGURE IT OUT 👹👹

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 30/05/2026

whoever invented the boob pads in sports bras i'm going to fill your car with rats /neg

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

a week out from my cycle jfc no wonder my mental state is more fucked

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

on those depression questionnaires, they should really factor in "are you actively thinking of harming yourself in a way you'll actually follow through?" because there is a huge difference, at least to me, between saying you want to vs actually having intent on it.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

we all agree that no one is going to repost my bs? cool.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

i'll reactivate one of the accts today, just not rn.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

i just feel fucking empty, yknow? barely like a person. i only know i'm alive and conscious because this is too painful and constant to be a dream.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

i dont deserve to go to work tomorrow i deserve to sit alone w my thoughts and overthink shit all day maybe that'll fix my delusional fucking mind

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

im not dead. just deactivated my other accounts. i cant fucking take anything rn.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

avoiding taking my meds again. i'm not safe if i open the bottle.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

sometimes the muscles in my ass twitch for no damn reason and it's really uncomfortable. i'll be laying down and it happens involuntarily.. just leave me alone.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 03/05/2026

i'm just scared of the passage of time, and how i've done nothing.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 03/05/2026

depression symptoms worsening after my period is over isn't valid. it hurts, cause i can't do anything about it.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 03/05/2026

said i wouldnt be online for the rest of today, but the thoughts are thinking too much and i'm exhausted. depression because i'm disabled is fucking cool. /s

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 03/05/2026

get me the fuck out of this house. noise cancelling headphones aren't enough.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 02/05/2026

anyways, i'm going to devour a stack of cheese just to fucking feel something. perhaps i'll have something more sustainable after everyone goes to sleep.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 02/05/2026

no one wants to kts because they want to die. they do it for peace. all i want is to be at peace with life, but i refuse to take my own life now. if i was going to do it, i would've done it 11 years ago. there's zero point in giving up almost 26 years into the game. i just have to ride it out.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 02/05/2026

I so badly want to say 'fuck my morals', 'fuck my disabilities', and work myself to near death so I can afford to move the fuck out. JUST FOR SOME FUCKING PEACE OF MIND. GOD, AT THIS POINT IT'D BE EASIER TO KMS. I fucking won't but if I had it in me, I would've done it by now.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 02/05/2026

not a vaguepost, this happened irl. lowkey ruined my mood because she knows fucking better than to say that to me. idgaf if she's also neurodivergent, i have fucking feelings. and i don't know why my knee jerk response is to apologise!! i didn't fucking do anything wrong.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 28/04/2026

maybe this account is cursed or some shit

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 28/04/2026

something fucky is going on with the app because it just happened again. except this time my followers went from 33 -> 34 and then went back to 33.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 28/04/2026

i just got 2 ghost notifs on here what the hell

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 28/04/2026

paranoia and anxiety kicking my fucking ass right now.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 21/04/2026

it's so fucking tempting to pull up an app right now and ask a stranger if they wanna fuck. is that irresponsible? yeah, but no one's first time is magical unicorns and kittens.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 21/04/2026

i didn't celebrate the holiday but i got my high in a different way and it was just as good

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 18/04/2026

*16 hours after shameless hornyposting* one of the lil guys' kidney is failing. which isn't surprising since he's over 16 years old. he'll likely be put to sleep this year, and i'm content with that. at least for now i am.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 18/04/2026

hi i'm here to say i would top him.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 07/04/2026

Ik this is vent account and it has 1 purpose but I am so bad about replying to anyone on here

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 07/04/2026

My roommate has nearly replicated the living experience her own mother provided to her growing up because her mom doesn't love her children. (My mom and our roommate). She was an alcoholic, emotionally abusive, and her husband was the same way with some extra drug abuse thrown in.

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☁️雲桜〜☆ @s-cliqu3.bsky.social · 07/04/2026

“Well, do the exercises you can when she's not home.” If the living room carpet wasn't covered in flecs of months old cat shit and vomit stains, I would love to. And no, I can't do them in my room due to the lack of living space.

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