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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

Here I am putting others want/needs before mine yet again. Can't even draw without feeling like a waste of space. I'm not okay, not even slightly. Just faking smiles till people leave me alone

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Him: spend time with your friends Also him: I can't believe you've been hanging out with them instead of me -3- Legit can't win 🙃🔫

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Re°｜受注通販9/16ー10/4 @re-o.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

ここから先は(26-0913)｜wip

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

I'll be self isolating I guess. I thought we we're doing stuff together, but like always nothing really counts to him besides gaming or watching something. Slow reponses till further updates.

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Forgot everything must go to shit before my birthday month. Why would I think anything would change for me? Just need to keep minimum expectations the last months of the year. Just keep my head down and not treat myself. Because that will backfire of me anyway. 🙃

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Like I know he has zero friends to hangout with like me, but damn man stop projecting this onto me. Leave my friends out of your mouth.

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Was from no social interactions besides work. Can I not have one thing to make myself sane?

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

I should've asked to do something last Friday. I didn't trust my gut and now I'm here yet again. Dude is jealous of me setting time aside to hangout with friends, whom I haven't spoken to in forever. (He knows this) Yet pretends to forget and make it about his feelings. Like dude you saw how sad I

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Talking to friends about it would be the same repeated stuff all over again. I'm very grateful for their love and support truly. But I know this gets exhausting to hear over and over again. I know now he won't be driving me back. I will have to setup my return. so no more adopts or anything.

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

I don't even know how to reply to him other than I'm sorry. Just wanted to be supported doing what I love, yet I can't even have that. :/ fml Would be better if I didn't exist for these people. I shouldn't be used to this treatment, but my dumbass is.

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

God why am I such a fuck up? Genuinely he resents me for not having a 9 to 5 job. Even though I was employed during that time doing freelance work. Didn't make a lot of money, but it was an honest living.

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Knew this shit would happen if I hungout with others again. :/ fuck my social life I guess.

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Love being told weed is the only reason we haven't broken up. Any effort I've made to spend time with him reduced to weed...

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

Maybe I'm just the problem...

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

I've been feeling super disconnected with friends and loved ones. I feel like they either don't understand what I'm saying or it gets overlooked. :/ really fucking sucks

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

Thanks, but no thanks. That's private information (・・;)

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

But I can comm more art of Ruru and possibly a model/rig?? Instead of drawing it myself

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

Got the job btw! The average minimum wage is higher compared to I was at previously. So the paycheck will be a bit better at least (　＾▽＾)

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 11/06/2026

Pay is pretty decent too. So could commission more stoof down the line. Still would need to save monies of course ◜▿◝

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Ruru @ruruichi.bsky.social · 11/06/2026

I may have a job potentially lined up?? Don't wanna jinx it. ^^' But it's part time so I can still focus on art and what not

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