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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Its the end. This might be my last message.

Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Feeling an improvement but still not enough to be 💯% okay. Teaching empathy is difficult for a person who grew up not even knowing what it truly is.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

I don't know what to think. I don't know what to say. I don't know how to act. I'm on autopilot, baby, but I know I'm not born this way. 😔

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

I'm in a very dark place and I don't like where this is going. Nevertheless nobody cares where I'll go, as long as I'm not a menace to society.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

𝑻𝒓è𝒔 𝒃𝒊𝒆𝒏! This harlequin has been invited once more to host the BIGGEST cosplay event in the country! 🃏🎭 I'll be debuting A NEW CHARACTER on one of the days of #Cosmania2026 onstage. Look forward to it by then! #CosplayMania2026 #PrismaSaga #rubyredcanary

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

Can't believe I did for the nth time. ☺️

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

Ghosting and gaming were his choices. So be it. ☺️

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

think it's the end of the line. the ball's on his court..

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MADDIE 👑🍰 VTUBER @rqmaddie.com · 16/08/2026

THANK YOUUU OSHICON! I'm still really sad about not being able to attend but IF there is a next time, I will TOTALLY go!! I heard that you guys enjoyed my song? 🥺❤️ Wish I could've seen it live.. I love performing, it makes my heart full. MAHAL KO KAYO! 🥹 OTSU EVERYONE!! 🔥

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 13/08/2026

Gave him one last chance today. But he didn't take it. He proceeds to make patama posts on his feed. I guess this was over before I even imagined 😅 What a fool I've been. What an idiot.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

Woke up palpitating today. Again. I just have music and blanket to keep me calm.. It doesn't really work but it's better than nothing.. I'm experiencing diarrhea too and vomiting.. I guess this is my new normal now..

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

I spoke to a good friend. I'm gonna practice caring less about him. I'm gonna to try and focus on myself.. I dunno if I'll be able to pull it off. But I'll still try.. It's like every hour, I keep finding something in my mind to tear up about. And I'm pretty sure he's still unbothered. How lucky..

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

He's going to continue doing normal things as is with his community like nothing is wrong. Apparently this is the relationship I deserve. Its hard to be in a relationship with a VTuber who constantly sacrifices you for his own career.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

I wanna do more things I've stopped myself from doing just to appease someone else's comfort. I'm going to wear the nail polish. I'm going to cut my hair. I'm going to play the post-apocalyptic games and stream. I'm going to do everything I like. Because after all, what's the fucking point?

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

If only he knew how much I want him to snap out of it and care. If only he cared enough to understand rather than wait for crumbs of information from me. If only he knew how easily I could be convinced otherwise if only he exercised his power over me. But he doesnt want to. He doesnt care enough..

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

I just had another nightmare today, seeing him not really wanting to be with me when he came home.. I guess it is the rain afterall hindering us from doing what we want to do. I just have this bad gut feel that he doesn't really wanna see me as much as I wanna see him..

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 03/08/2026

Take note: Everybody has become much more better at hiding, manipulating, and scamming people. Stay on guard. Protect yourself.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 26/07/2026

Top Moments @ Anime and Cosplay Expo 2026 1) Got to interview the amazing CMYK Cosplay! ✨ 2) So much fun hosting GAMES 🎮 3) Contributed a lot to the segments 🎤 4) Another cosplay group with my co-hosts 🫂 5) Backstage, we're a solid team 🫶

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 26/07/2026

Imagine having a partner who would rather play games than fix problems together with you. Must be some form of inconvenience for him to be my partner, it seems.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

Jig is up! Hosting next month at a local VTUBER event -- #ONLivePH #ONLivePH2026 🎤✨

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

To those who think that abuse is just physical, this post is for you.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

I've realized something - I can't be this obsessed over someone who doesn't feel equally obsessed toward me. I've decided to be more conscious with how I feel. I'm not going to shut off. But until I feel that the person equally feels crazy about me, I won't express too hard outwardly for my sake. 😌

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 10/07/2026

For the first time in my entire life, I'm having problems with the honeymoon stage 😅 I want it to end so I can chill the fuq out. It's so exhausting to be this anxious all the time. But I think atleast, he got what he wanted since a decade ago -- that me in my red flag era would fall for him hard.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

I've began telling him EVERYTHING on my mind since that night. His replies insist that I do not understand him -- that I'm a total idiot. He doesn't understand that I'm used to people underestimating my intelligence all my life. He is no different than all of them.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

This used to be such a beloved place. Now I get the urge to make one wrong step whenever I pass this.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

I hope its worth losing a relationship for an active, 'makalat' streaming career.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 03/07/2026

It was never about the "kalat" content. What hurts the most is the refusal to set direct boundaries and the refusal to protect my dignity as a lover. Its as if I was a mistress -- always held secret. Never proud to be declared. Why has this happened thrice now?

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 03/07/2026

Ever since, I've always been "more than the dress and the voice"..

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 03/07/2026

gonna deactivate everything first to detox. im honestly surprised i still decided to leave this alive. but i guess this app has become my sanctuary for all the pain in my chest. i just wish there was an end to it at all.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 02/07/2026

I'm happy that I've changed so much. I used to take in all the bullshit and just swallow without complaining. I used to eat a lot of bullshit from people and whats awful is that I allowed it. Amazing at how strong and far I've come. At the very least I can protect myself when nobody else will. 🫶

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 01/07/2026

Who in the right fucking mind would tell your romantic partner "patikim naman ng patatas mo"? AITA? 🥴

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 26/06/2026

"PERSONA!" //bang 💥 The jig is up! I'm leading the ALL-OUT ATTACK for #ACX2026! See you next month~ #cosplayph #cosplay

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 22/06/2026

When depressed person wants to change his/her fate to lead a more active life, encourage his positive actions to flourish. It is evidence of a weakness that rejects opportunities for them to thrive. Otherwise would mean a testament to how weak an institution is.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 12/06/2026

When you've been outcasted once, you'll always be familiar with the feeling. So when it happens, it will feel natural. You'll isolate. You'll leave. You'll fall silent. Then nothing. The world won't stop to wait for you to grieve.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

Today I was asked if I want to be happy. I still find it difficult to answer that most days -- like happiness is a luxury that sometimes I can't emotionally, mentally, and physically afford. I wish I wasn't too comfortable with unhappiness.. I never wanted to be.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 18/05/2026

Today, I finally ran out of patience to wait for him to bring up our problems with no closure. When I told him I've been suffering, he piggy-backed on my feelings saying he was apparently suffering too. He apparently made it about himself and apologizes sarcastically. It's so convenient.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 18/05/2026

Honestly losing my patience. Until when will I wait for him to man up and address his own problems? That's all I want -- a man who doesn't wallow in self-pity and say 'everything is my fault'.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

I've always feared to end up alone as a spinster because nobody could ever keep up with how strong I am in every aspect. Instead of proving my fears wrong, recent words I've received further amplify them.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

I just want to go somewhere far away. I wanna return to Tagaytay, or Zambales. Here feels strange. Somewhere strange might feel the same too.

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

He doesn't ask. I just want him to ask. Is that really too much to ask?

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Naru's Black Book @rubyredcanary.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

You know whatś awful about having a great smile? Nobody ever considers youŕe suffering inside.

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